Love Without But

From heart to heart

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It had been seven days that the grown-up man looked glumly uninspired. Activities in the pesantren environment he followed half-heartedly. As if there is no more passion to live and live life let alone meet a beautiful future.  The day before he had planned. However, plans and wishful thinking cannot be real when destiny says otherwise.

Now, Iwan must learn to sincerely accept the fate and reality that befalls him. The girl who had been entrusted with complete trust was in fact now gone from her life and preferred to live with a man who gave her certainty. Iwan only realized the existence of Dhinil is currently very influential in his life, after the girl is now memorized by other men besides himself.

Iwan was so sure that Dhinil would always reject every proposal that came. And will always wait for him until he graduates and boyong from pesantren.

Iwan did not expect that his meeting two weeks ago before the end of Day H was the last day of their meeting.

Flashback: FlashBack:

That afternoon Iwan invited Dhinil to meet in the town square of Menes. He intends to take a novel book entitled When Cinta Bertasbih belongs to a friend in the boarding school that he loaned to Dhinil.

To avoid slander Dhinil invites his best friend, Lyra to accompany him when meeting with Iwan.

The atmosphere of Menes square is quite crowded. Along the roadside the square is surrounded full of food and drink vendors lined up on the shoulder of the road. The peak of the crowd is usually at the end of the afternoon and evening people come and go from various corners around the Menes area and surrounding areas.

There was no long and serious conversation when Dhinil met Iwan. As if there was nothing between them. Because at that time there was no courage in Dhinil's heart to tell the truth. If in the near future he will be proposed by another man.

Dhinil showed an attitude as if everything was fine. After Dhinil handed over the novel book that he had borrowed and finished reading it until the end. He was even busy chatting with Lyra regardless of Iwan's presence there.

Before they split Iwan had given Dhinil blue money to just buy ice and meatballs together with Lyra. While Iwan himself chose to go straight home without accompanying Dhinil and Lyra when ordering two bowls of meatballs their favorite food.

"Dhin, Lo did not invite Kak Iwan to eat meatballs with us first, is that it? ask Lyra.

"No, he's, he's been fasting for the last few months. He said the fasting ritual if it had started to go to the graduation time of the pesantren."

"Waah ..bout K. Iwan has finished dong, his cottage. And that means soon there will be a proposal" Lyra ledek. Who does not know that Dhinil will soon be visited and betrothed by other men from Java.

All eyes in the meatball shop glanced at Dhinil simultaneously as Lyra shouted at Dhinil.

"Sst .... ! Noisy bell. Look, the people are looking at us here" whispered Dhinil right in Lyra's left ear.

Lyra replied to him with just a horse's grin.

***

Some time ago also Iwan did not realize that it turns out that Dhinil had started to know Agung accidentally through Ifa was Dhinil and Agung could know each other.

That afternoon after the Zuhur prayer, because there is no schedule of books as an activity in the pesantren. Iwan intends to contact Dhinil by mobile phone.  He made almost five calls to Dhinil's mobile number. But it also did not answer. Iwan did not know that it was the first day Dhinil met Agung in his own house.

At that time, Dhinil looked confused when he saw the name Iwan listed on the phone screen calling him up to several calls. His little heart he was eager to take that phone call. However, Dhinil was not happy because in front of him there was Agung who was busy chatting with his mother and brother. Dhinil also chose to ignore the phone call from Iwan.

Iwan was about to close his eyes.  Take a nap. Suddenly he was startled by the sound of a loud ringing phone right beside his ear.

In his heart he hoped Dhinil would call back. Upon seeing who was calling, it turned out that his guess had missed a distance. Because what Iwan saw was the name on his phone's glass screen, namely the name Ifa. That was none other than his own sister. Curious to worry there was news from his own family Iwan immediately pressed the answer button and immediately connected and started a conversation with his sister.

"Hello ... Fa, what's up, what, Tumben called Aa?"

"Aa is now in the pesantren, not going anywhere. No Fa, how come it sounds so panicked?"

"No idea, so, who's Teh Dhinil now?"

"No, why? who is it?"

"So Ifa called her number Teh Dhinil and who raised the voice of a man, her voice was similar to Mas Agung."

"Kok, can you, Fa?"

"Yes, where does Ifa know."

Iwan was silent for a moment. His mind began to guess itself. Is it true that the man named Agung who used to be a candidate for his sister is now serious about choosing and asking Dhinil.

Iwan just realized, earlier he had contacted Dhinil but the main thing was that the girl answered a phone call from him. Could it be true what Ifa said if there is currently a special guest at his house Dhinil.

" Yasudah, later tonight Aa calls Teh Dhinil again to make sure," Iwan told Ifa, his sister. Before you close the phone.

***

"Iwan ... I did not expect it, anyway, same lo! how clever of you to hide a big problem like this by yourself." Amir's sudden speech made Iwan gasp from his long daydream.

Amir is one of the closest friends in the boarding school and is familiar with Iwan. A few months ago the fate of Amir was almost the same as his friend. It must be willing and sincerely left out of marriage by the woman he craved. For the same reason because those who are still santri cannot grant his lover's request to immediately justify them.

And now that terrible fate is befalling Iwan, his own friend.

"Lo, stay married, right, same Dhinil?" amir's search.

"Oh, hell, Lo, you know, ah!"

"Leave said yes, doang too, still closed. Hey ... yesterday Dhinil also had time to call me, nanyain news and make sure you are here, worried you are depressed or hanging yourself. Kan, horror if you enter the morning newspaper news there is a santri who committed suicide due to being left married," ledek Amir while laughing at the fate of ngenes that is befalling Iwan, his best friend.

"Whisper, Lo, Mir, get Sono out of my room!" drive Iwan later.

"Udah, please don't break his heart for long. I was strong once, when marriage was left with Ita. The proof until now I'm still alive, aren't I?" Amir still continues to tease Iwan.

"Everything if not ready for marriage, do not like PHP-in children people. Let's not hit the stone kek gini," concluded Amir has not stopped commenting.

"Hasn't you tausiyah?" ask Iwan.

" Ye .. spelled out, even so. Yes, I've pulled it."

Iwan's mind began to look back, after making sure Amir had moved away from the room area. What is so his mind at this time is the hardest is to think about the fate of Ifa, his own biological sister. Worrying can not control themselves and can not accept the fact that it turns out the man who is desired instead moved to another heart that is no other person who would have been a candidate for his brother-in-law.

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