Love Time White Blue

Me and Him

After I was together with upung, my relationship with her for a few weeks was still tenuous.maybe because each of them took time to be like a regular friend back.but not with Yosef, he said, he still as usual remains a friend even though my heart sometimes feels wrong, embarrassed, worried, and also afraid. well because I always try to be mediocre not excessive, so that he does not continue to pursue me. and I also don't want things to happen like my time with upsurge to repeat if I have to relate without being based on love again.

as long as I was worried about Joseph, he always tried to draw attention from me. While I still could not accept him. somehow this heart might still refuse to have him present in my life. I had thought of pretending that I and Anung would re-arrange the story.Yes, even if it was a little lying at least I thought at that time could make Joseph go and not continue to pursue me. my initial plan worked, I told my friends that me and Anung were back close. It made Joseph like his angry.he did not chat me, he blocked my whatsapp contact. and since then my relationship with Joseph stretched.Yeah maybe that way I managed to make Joseph so far with me. everyday I live my own life. actually me and Anung are just ordinary friends, chat was not as often as before.

over time I began to feel the loss of everything.Volly training I began to rarely, but not the reason for the breakup, because, it's just that after school I often play gadgets at home and that makes me lazy to go to practice.

the day changed, until arriving in 2018.

" my heart must be able to accept and appreciate the people who really love me" in my heart at that time.I somehow Joseph and I were able to come back close. all I remember is that he gave me 2 pieces of chocolate on which was a piece of paper containing the fact that Joseph loved me, but he said it was the writing of Dhea, his cousin Joseph. yes, because Joseph's writing is a bit ugly like his. I received a chocolate gift from him. 1 his trunk I brought to the house, half his trunk I share to friends, I share it with friends, and the other half I gave to Joseph to be able to eat him. Actually I also did not have the heart "he has money from where, is it possible that he collected money to want to buy chocolate for me? " i thought at the time.

after school, I went back to check my cell phone.Josef and I communicated and on February 22, 2018, Joseph and I decided to be together.