Love Time White Blue

Longed

After the rapot division, the school was released for 2 weeks. It feels like a long time ago, just now I feel comfortable with Halwan now having to be far apart. I can only communicate through whatsapp. That afternoon me and the phone.

" Halwan, now we are LDR yes" I said.

" yes, we will meet in the new year, right? " said halwan.

" yes, huhah. and now we are also in between different districts, right? " my word.

it was late December, and back in January. Also, my house is located on the border of 2 districts which actually can still be traveled by foot if you want to go to the house halwan.

my conversation that afternoon was quite long, because during the halwan holiday more time for me.

This holiday I spent a lot of time exchanging stories with Halwan.

It does not feel like the school holiday is almost over, if not one of the other 4 days we will go back to school.

At 20:00 at the time. I invited the halwan to get a video call with him.

" Halwan, we vc ya. " invite me to her.

" maybe" he said.

after my cell phone camera and halwan cell phone camera are connected, I can finally chat while looking at him who is sleeping. But in the midst of the chatter, he reprimanded me for the way I looked back then. I can't tell you what happened that night. I didn't wear a veil at the time that might have been a halwan less fond of me. He rebuked me by comparing me to other women. I wasn't good at answering back then because I admitted I was wrong. What I had been pondering before me and the close halwan all this time, halwan never dared to comment on the way I dressed.

Halwan then sent me a lot of messages. Apologize and keep trying to cheer me up. But that night I felt so ashamed. I'm ashamed of myself that turns out in the eyes of others, the way I look all along is wrong. From that moment on I felt that the halwan governed my life and did not know that changing someone took a long time.

That night I decided to stop communicating, my mood suddenly disappeared. I think even halwan knew that at that time I was feeling bad.

" you're angry, aren't you? " message halwan.

" no, I'm not papa. I sleep. "my message.

" i'm sorry I didn't mean to curb you ai. "

" It's okay it's my fault too, already.

That night me and the halwan slept.

Tomorrow morning, I don't think last night is gone. Shame and sadness especially. Yes, which woman likes to be compared to others.

" Good morning ai". Order halwan that morning.

then I answered her message "yes halwan".

seeing my short message, it seemed that the halwan understood, he persuaded and continued to comfort me so as not to continue to feel ashamed of him.