Love of Muhallil

Istikharah love

"mas Faiz, is mas mad at me. Is Mas gonna leave me?" Haya was very afraid that Ahmad Faiz was angry and left the life of Haya.

"Say what answer you want to hear, brother!" Faiz was still reluctant to look at Haya's face. Ahmad Faiz's eyes were still closed.

"I know Faiz is angry, but I want Faiz not to hate me. Mas Faiz may be disappointed may be sad, but I beg you not to hate me mas, I'm sorry mas?" Sesal Haya's.

"Why can you do all this to you. Say____ brother! This is a really tough test. Where mas must fight alone to try to maintain this household. Though mas itself has assumed will be with you dikakinah, in fact."

"I___ I___, just obey the will of Mas Niko. Mas Faiz must know and understand my position, here I am the most injured person mas, hiks______"

"So if Niko tells you to go inside the abyss of fire. Is dikar Haya gonna jump?" Ahmad Faiz.

"Not so is mas. All this I do solely for Attar mas. I want to be with Attar again, I miss him and I love Attar very much, mas."

"For the happiness that Haya longed for. Dik Haya could destroy a heart that accepts Dik Haya sincerely and wholeheartedly. For the sake of a small family happiness, dik Haya could sacrifice my feelings as a man. upset the family mas, especially the father and mother in the village, is not it one of the selfish nature?" press Ahmad Faiz.

"Pardon me. I don't know what to do. At that time, I just obeyed the wishes of Mas Niko. At that time I thought only I could return to a happy life with mas Niko and Attar, I did not want to hurt mas at all. The circumstances forced me to enter the household we live in now."

"So from the beginning until this second, all just the theatrics that Haya created with Niko, right?" A look full of wounds from the beautiful eyes of Ahmad Faiz.

"Not all of it, mas.no!"

"So now what does Haya want right?" Ahmad Faiz said firmly. A question that can make Haya feel crushed, crushed into pieces can not be returned.

Hiks____hik_____

"Mas___, I beg Faiz not to be angry and say that again. It hurt me terribly, mas." asked Haya to be clear.

"If Dik Haya wants to be able to return with Niko immediately, if so.

then prepare mentally in Haya, later tonight we will do it. and after that the decision is in the hands of Dik Haya, although honestly mas really do not want us to separate.

mas wants us to fight together, reaching the Ridho to Jannah of God, but it seems that Dik Haya does not understand with mas.

we are different dik, our degrees are different, in Haya women berharta are different. Maybe it's worth it."

"Mas____, don't talk like that. I'm sorry, I'm really in a dilemma with the circumstances we live in. I'm confused what to do, mas?" Haya sat on the floor. Holding the piece in the chest that is getting more and more torturous.

"Why confused. There is no God in your heart, where we are God always with you."

Hiks____hiks___

"Mas, I'm sorry?" haya Rintih.

"Would an apology bring back a broken heart. My heart is very disappointed. There is pain that adorns this heart" Ahmad Faiz held his chest.

"Mas, if by dying is the best way. I'll take that path, but unfortunately dying doesn't solve the problem. It complicates matters even more."

Ahmad Faiz looked into Haya's eyes. Haya was really troubled. Ahmad Faiz approached and tried to help Haya to stand up, but Haya refused.

Haya stood alone, ran towards the room and cried there. As powerful as Haya dampens the turmoil of the heart that is getting sicker, the more damping it becomes a fiery and more crazy turmoil.

Haya wiped away the tears of sadness that were present among the vacillating worries of the heart.

"Why do I feel sad, when Faiz mas know my initial intention to ask mas Faiz to marry me. Not should I behave normally.I should even be happy, after all nothing is harmed, my wishes immediately realized. It's not the farewell I planned, it's not what I wanted."

"I and Faiz were only married religiously. So, it is not a hassle to have to take care of divorce papers again. Even this is all I know from the beginning, but why my heart is getting sick and sore, why I feel pain____!" Haya covered her face with her hands.

"Why am I stuck in such a painful atmosphere," Haya opened both hands and let her face be exposed to the wind that made Haya's heart grow increasingly upset and poignant.

Clik..

Haya looked at a man who she called the husband of Muhallil, in fact until this moment the man who was religiously legitimate as her husband had not even touched her. Though Haya believes that if Ahmad Faiz is a man who understands religion, it is not possible that Ahmad Faiz postponed, while Haya knows all that must.

"Have you known this for a long time?" Lirih Haya, though afraid still Haya asked.

Haya. If you have known for a long time, why Ahmad Faiz was calm and seemed not to know all that. Why Ahmad Faiz can calm down anger.

"Bik Pina told me. The beginning of the mas think with love and love, can change the desire and thwart the plan in Haya.

but the fact is, until now in Haya still closed his heart and did not want to open it to mas," Ahmad Faiz's voice sounded calm and full of tenderness.

"So that's Bik Pina who told Faiz? why did Pina's bik do that, and why didn't mas scold me back then anyway. mas should scold me."

"Bik Pina loves you. Bik Pina does not want to be di Haya feel sad again and make Pina want to see mas and dik Haya happy with love. If mas doesn't scold you it's not a question, brother.

what is clear is that you can not be angry in this case, but you are disappointed and regret the attitude and actions that Haya chose, that's all."

"I just want to be back with Attar Mas. I'm sorry for dragging and bringing this matter with you.

I'm wrong, I shouldn't have brought mas in the mess of my household and mas Niko, which is already destroyed and spoiled."

"Aren't we able to file a lawsuit, over Attar's custody to the government. That's also if in Haya there is an intention to be together, mas? All options are in Haya's hands."

"The problem is we're weak to win it. If money talks, what can we do?" Haya was increasingly disappointed to realize his defeat.

"There is God, the Truth will always triumph. Nothing is impossible for God, most importantly we have tried and prayed."

"Is it hard for you to separate from Niko?" Ahmad Faiz said with a smile. There was no pressure and coercion in him.

"I doubt it, my mother!" lirih Haya's.

Ahmad Faiz frowned, then looked at the face of Haya who looked down doubtfully, While grasping his own hand so tightly.

"Give it all to God. Believe that God will choose the best path for you. Istikharah prayer is one of the bridges over difficult attitudes and choices" Ahmad Faiz advised.

"Sholat istikharah?" Haya turned his head and looked at Ahmad Faiz wondering.

"That's right, Dik Haya knows, right?"

"I've heard of you, only I forget." Haya smiled at Ahmad Faiz and it made Ahmad Fauz clumsy.not that they had to fight hard but Ahmad Faiz did not have the power to explode with anger.

Ahmad Faiz knew Haya that way and why did Haya do all that. Well, because of the anxiety and ignorance of the heart that is still a dilemma, and the lack of his sense of love for his Rabb.

After a calm mind, Ahmad Faiz believes, Haya will be able to choose and sort out which is best to live and must be fought for.

"Do you want Faiz to help me?" Pinta Haya hesitated.

Not answering Ahmad Faiz went by. Ahmad Faiz moved towards the table and picked up a neatly arranged book on a small table, all books on religion and Haya had no intention of reading and was curious. Haya is sometimes a slacker, to read books.

"This__, take it!" Ahmad Faiz offered a prayer guide book to Haya. Hesitatingly took the book slowly and hesitantly Haya received it with indecision.

"Read in this book, there is a guide to the ordinances of obligatory prayer and Sunnah, dik Haya can read and practice it, and if there are sentences that do not understand, he said, dik Haya can ask, mas."

"Thank you very much, ma'am?" Answer Haya understands.

"Yes together" Ahmad Faiz slept in bed tonight and not outside. Haya just stared at Ahmad Faiz who was lying next to her.

What Haya can say at this time, Haya is worried and hesitant, but by trying to organize her heart and nervousness, Haya distracts by reading the book carefully.

Ger....

Haya turned his head and found Ahmad Faiz had fallen asleep so soundly, with a smile. Haya looked at that shady face with a sincere heart.

"Mas Faiz is a good man, and Faiz does not deserve my prayers and asks Allah for guidance, I am sure God will show me the best way for me," lirih Haya and rush to the bathroom to take ablution.

If Ahmad Faiz's book is certain at this time, Haya has been hanged alive. Because Haya dared to play with the heart and feelings of her family under the pretext of marriage.