Love of Muhallil

Which path you want to take

"Mas, do I want to talk about something?" Lirih Haya's. Sitting beside Ahmad Faiz who was enjoying a cup of tea in front of the terrace. The atmosphere was so bright, the air was still so fresh in the morning.

"Tell me, what does Haya want to say?" Ahmad Faiz still sips tea made by Haya.

Haya Gamang wants to tell her the truth. Or Haya will keep all her ambitions neatly arranged, until her plan succeeds as expected.

Haya felt that he could no longer continue to lie to Ahmad Faiz. Men like Ahmad Faiz are too good to be disappointed, but all mistakes have been chosen and just wait for time. Everything will be destroyed as time goes on.

Hah___ Ahmad Faiz sighed.

"Kok diem____, he said he wanted to talk. What the hell is it, brother? If something breaks your heart, just say it. I'll be a good listener and a budiman."

Haya.

Ahmad Faiz looked at Ayu Haya's face with a sweet smile.

"I miss Attar mas. Last time we went there before we went to the village, and it was two weeks ago, three weeks' walk instead."

"Then tomorrow we visit Attar's house. If necessary we will ask for time to ex-husband in Haya to bring Attar home. Well to stay at our simple house is certainly his."

"Mas, seriously?" Haya did not believe Ahmad Faiz's words.

"Why not! Attar is still small and Attar also deserves to be happy. Attar the child in Haya, and it should also love and try closer to Attat. Mas actually pity you and Attar, at the age of Attar who is only two years old, already have to feel the affection of a piece of a mother."

Haya lowered her head in pieces while still with Attar depicted in memory memory.

"I am no less sad than I thought. I didn't think it would all be like this myself. But this is life, like it or not, it must be lived, is not it?"

"Then why don't we ask Attar for custody of your ex-husband? Looks like the court will give you custody of that. Mas sure, Attar is still a toddler is certainly the best place on the side of the birth mother."

"That's impossible, my mom!"

"Why is that impossible. Nothing in this world is impossible if we try. Nothing is impossible for God."

"What do we have, to go against the law they're about to propose? Of course we need funds that are not small. Especially now that I'm not working at Ms. Mecca's office, I'm fired for reasons that don't make sense."

"In fired____, it is wrong with Haya what can be fired?"

"Now, I don't know either. Suddenly Ms. Mecca sent me a message and ordered me not to go to work in her office again. It hurts mas, I fought so hard to get to that position, but it all ended in vain."

"Prophey yes dik. Inshallah there will be wisdom behind this incident," Ahmad Faiz tried to give strength to Haya.

"I'm not patient what the hell, mas?" Sesal Haya held her hand and closed her own eyes.

"Maybe more or less, again, again and again."

"It might actually be so. Maybe all this has something to do with Niko's mas, maybe I'm less patient in dealing with it," there was a sad stroke in Haya's eyes.

"Niko, your ex-husband, brother?"

"Yes mas. I don't understand, why Niko mas lately often___, Hem______ Ah no need to discuss!" Haya clucked in worry. Haya's face was so dilemma.

"That's okay, Haya don't worry. There's a mas here. The matter of work is just clear, surely behind this all God's plans will be much better. The most important thing in Haya is always to be grateful for whatever salary you have."

"Saw mas___?" full of emojis wondering.

"Yes yes, brother. Money mas is also money in Haya, there is a right in Haya there. But personal money in Haya there is no right there, if in Haya sincerely it's a blessing but if not it becomes a field of sin for mas."

"Well, is that it, mas?" Haya smiled thinly while teasing.

Ahmad Faiz returned Haya's smile. Slowly Ahmad Faiz rubbed Haya's arm, honestly there was a handful of flavors that began to be created between the two.

That feeling of love is not true. Everything that lies is based on will not be good.

Haya looked at the face of Ahmad Faiz who was looking ahead. Clearly a sweet and radiant face. A small smile adorned Haya's lips.

"What do I think?" muttered Haya and turned his face to look straight ahead, realizing that his heart was beginning to be charmed by the tenderness that Ahmad Faiz offered.

"What brother?" Ahmad Faiz felt that there was a smiling person behind him.

"What____!" Haya turned back.

"So I heard in Haya kayak saying something, but I didn't hear it clearly."

"Nothing, ah! Misheard the times," explained Haya confidently.

"Sik, can you talk about something?"

"Can, if it feels important, talk about it? While the talk is still free and not paid."

"May you ask for one request. Can Dik Haya promise not to leave mas, no matter what happens? Will you, di Haya promised to always be faithful and want to learn to sail the household ark with mas, with simplicity?"

Haya was so gasped to hear what Ahmad Faiz said.

Promise____ well a promise.

Whether Haya will say yes if in fact, it all starts from lies.and will answer Haya no, but Haya began to feel comfortable when with Ahmad Faiz.

"Mas knows about something, which Haya hid from the mas!" Ahmad Faiz smiled bitterly.

Haya looked at me with eyes full of questions. What does Ahmad Faiz know? Haya's heart was increasingly worried, her heart was beating faster than before.

Haya still looked at Ahmad Faiz's face curiously. What information has been known by her husband Muhallil. What is Ahmad Faiz hiding?

"Dik Haya must be able to determine the attitude. No matter what the burden may be, Allah will not test a servant beyond the limits of his ability."

"What do you mean Faiz?" Haya said gamang with teary eyes, trying to neutralize the taste that began to be born.

"Try to say one thing that until this second is called Haya pendam? And it is able to make di Haya tormented birth and inner, and mas already know it long ago. Mas did not get angry, it's just that he wanted to be re-thought of the consequences and benefits of a step and decision that he took later. Don't let Haya regret it a second time."

"Mas Faiz___, does Faiz know what I mean by approaching even if I ask Faiz to marry me? Did Faiz tau maxut veiled me. Did Faiz already know about all that?"

"Yes." Yeah." Faiz nodded with his eyes closed. Resist the turmoil by regulating the rhythm of the breath that starts to sting, the heart is sick and the brain is heated.

Ahmad Faiz was very anxious to cry. But Ahmad Faiz was resistant.

Hiks____

Tes____test___

Haya spilled tears that had been held since earlier. With resignation and without power, destroyed was already the initial hope and purpose that Haya built. An ambition in the form of a plan that Ahmad Faiz knew. Right now a clear destruction was plastered in plain sight. Destroyed Haya's dreams and ambitions.

Haya's body seemed to freeze, and could not move anymore. The cold heat ambushed the slender body.

"I'm sorry. Ii'm sorry. I'm evil, I'm dholim, I'm selfish, but I have to know the reason behind the decision I made. I'm afraid mas, I'm in a dilemma.I'm sorry, mas?"

Ahmad Faiz was silent and said nothing. Only a drop of tears fell down Ahmad Faiz's radiant cheeks. Still faithfully closing his eyes holding a piece in the chest, Ahmad Faiz still tried to neutralize the anger that had been struggling at the tip of the oral.

It feels very angry Ahmad Faiz but back again, any problem if solved with anger will not be good results.

It is better to hold back the speech, so as not to say anything when angry. That is much better, and minimizes the consequences of the anger created.