Love Jessika

Jessica talk

Jessica who had been looking at Endah's face, the brother in silence, now had turned to look at the face of Fabian who was sitting opposite him. Jessica stared in a moment as Fabian's bead eyes looked wistfully.

"What did you expect from me, for all your words just now, Om Duda? If it's the love you expect from me, I can't give it to you, because the love I have has given everything to my husband, a husband who loves only me, the husband who was willing to get hurt even died because he wanted to save me," said Jessica who made Fabian's heart hurt, because Jessica's last sentence seemed to lie down with Andre's better figure and more everything from himself.

Fabian's heart was so sliced, poignant and painful not to ask again. It felt like Fabian had just ended his life at this moment, because he felt his heart so crumpled, hearing Jessica speak like this to him, a flat face, a sharp eye gaze to unsheathe the injured recesses of Fabian's heart. Bitter Jessica said, but it was a reality that could not be denied by Fabian. If he expects Jessica to talk, then the bitterness of Jessica's words must be accepted.

Fabian was silent, and he did choose to be quiet, as he was still waiting for Jessica to speak again. Fabian still hopes that there is a sentence that pours his heart from the lips of Jessica that he longs for as he once did. Seeing Fabian silent, Jessica continued her words.

"I know you still love me until this second, thank you for giving your heart to me, but it's too late. Where the hell have you been? When I was like a beggar of love to you back then hum? You throw me with your scathing words, I choose to retreat, when I know you already have, the person who had you back then was so much more than me, what I am at that moment in your eyes, maybe just a bag of worthless trash in your eyes or just a worn-out flip-flop you can easily throw away." Jessica's words continued to make Fabian shake his head. As if saying no, he never considered Jessica that low, Jessica was too self-deprecating.

"If in the past, you've told me, you're a wound to me, yes it's true. I admire you so much, you're the first man that ever made me fall in love, always made me want to be with you, always made me want to keep up with your every move, even I can accept the presence of your two children who are unacceptable to your beautiful but cruel lover, I do not care about your widower status, I'm like a woman who doesn't know herself, has a lover but loves someone else's lover, all because I love you, but that was it, before my husband came along with the vibe of love I never felt, either with Diego, my ex-lover who cheated on you with your niece, or with yourself, Om. My husband came to remove all the wounds that you inflicted on me, and not only did you incise the wounds in my heart, but also those closest to you did the same to me, what sins did I commit until they hurt me, did I become a sinner, when I loved you? Until they deserve to torture my mind and my physique? I expect a lot from you when they hurt me, but what? Who has always been my angel is only my husband's figure not who I love, I want to be loved Om not want to be hurt," said Jessica's heart that he expressed, making the man in front of her shed tears, as well as Jessica. Even so, he dissolved in the sadness of both of them.

To be honest Fabian can no longer hear Jessica's heart, but he must strengthen himself to know how Jessica's heart is in him before he leaves to start a new life.

Jessica was silent for a moment, her eyes bead watching Fabian who was crying bitterly in front of her, the man was no longer ashamed to spill his tears in front of the woman he loved so much, not to take sympathy or pity from Jessica, but the man before her was so aware of the mistake for his fault in the woman he had hoped to be his life companion.

"I'm sorry if my words hurt your heart, I'm also sorry because now or later I won't be able to repay all your love, even your sacrifice for me all this time, because as you know, I'm a married woman, understand my position before you expect me to understand your position, please don't sue me for what you've felt all along because of me, please, since I never asked for it, it's actually inappropriate for me to meet a man from my past behind my husband like this, and to be honest, I'm not comfortable," revealed Jessica again who again broke Fabian's heart.

"You fight for me that others already have and sacrifice their feelings only for the sake of me not looking at you one bit, isn't that outrageous? Isn't that futile? How many times have I told you to stop loving me, move on with your new life with your family who loves you, because until then I will never be a part of your life , and now you shouldn't have to see me, because this will only break your heart and unconsciously you've hurt the heart of Ms. Clara who is very patient in taking care of you. Hasn't God been so good at giving you a second chance, by presenting Sister Clara and your future son? Now how can you let go of my shadow that is in you, if you can still see me and still remember seeing me? Do you want God to take back someone who loves you as much as he did hum? Go Om, forget me, forget all your feelings for me! We close everything here. Go !! He must be worried waiting for you at home! Since I'm sure you left without saying goodbye to her, and please let me out of your feelings, let me be happy with my husband" Jessica said, then moved out of her chair. Jessica felt she had enough to talk at length with Fabian. She thought she had left her husband in the Ballroom for too long.

Jessica turned her body around, she stepped her foot to leave Fabian. Fabian, who saw Jessica leave, immediately ran after Jessica's steps and hugged her from behind with both hands coiled around Jessica's neck.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I'm sorry for the feeling of my love always hurting you, let me hold you just for a moment Jess, before I leave you." Fabian said in a sobbing voice as he hugged Jessica.

"It's wrong, let me go! I don't want to hurt my husband's feelings" Jessica asked with both hands trying to remove Fabian's arm around her neck.

"I know this is wrong, I know you take great care of your husband's heart, how lucky he is to have you. I promise I won't do it again after this. Promise me, someday, if God brings us together, let's say we never know each other, please ignore me, don't look at this despicable human who dares to hurt you," reply Fabian who kissed Jessica's head.

Endah, who saw her sister trying to escape from Fabian's embrace, revealed the dress she was wearing, took the gun she had slipped on her thigh. He walked over to Fabian.

"Let go my sister! Don't force me to do anything!" Endah said with a gun to Fabian's head.