
I looked into her cold eyes there was no lie there like I said emptiness.
I slowly returned the hand to her I don't know how I felt, the warm snow that I felt.
" Are you not ashamed to make me your friend."
"No."
" And don't you feel disgusted being friends with a bum like me."
"No."
I don't know why I became upset with his always "No" answer" with that innocent cold look but at once my heart was happy because he wanted to be friends with me and this was also the first time I had a friend.
"Well, I want to be your friend."
I agreed to his request to me. Our friendship was getting closer and closer Arka never demeaned me, she was very nice and she invited me to live in her very luxurious house.
He also sent me home school even though I was homeschooling and I was very quick to accept all the lessons given so that I could finish it with just one year.
There arose a sense of inferiority and felt like a shame of myself who always received the kindness of Arka but loudly Arka said if it was not true but I felt, I felt, I had to do something for Arka as well and I finally decided to always be loyal to Arka.
Years and years I have lived this changed life of mine and all that time I have known Akra more closely but I did not think he had a lot of burdens on his shoulders.
The look on his face that he had been displaying was only a mask to cover and wrinkle his extremely fragile heart.
Every night I always get it is crying sad until I also feel how sad the cry is until unconsciously I also cry.
From that moment I began to promise myself to be loyal to him and to be a friend in his time of need.
Now we live in the house of Uncle and Aunt Arka, At first I was afraid that Uncle and Aunt Arka did not like me and did not accept my existence but I was wrong, Uncle and Aunt Arka loved me very much and did not mind where I came from until they raised me to be their son.
The affection they gave me was like the affection they gave Arka until they asked me to call them Papi and Mami just like Arka.
My life is now changing thanks to Arka who helped me and made me friends I will not be able to feel life surrounded by people who love me.
I repay all their kindness by always being by Arka's side and always being loyal to her until I was appointed Arka's personal assistant at Khaleed Company when I finished my S2 studies at Oxford University.
Now that I and Arka are 30 years old, my Mami and Papi always ask me when to get married, but Arka and I can always give reasons that only make Papi and Mami a little irritated.
And the meeting also brought me a very beautiful woman and made my heart beat fast when I saw her smile maybe this is called love at first sight. That woman's name is Hana.
From that moment on I always looked for reasons to meet him and get to know him further by saying I want to discuss the issue of Arka and Khayra.
The more days I got to know her the more the love grew so much that I wanted to have her until that time I saw her sitting together with a man and it made me dislike, I was jealous.
From that day on I began to establish my heart and was sure to make it my companion, But I did not want to rush, I wanted him to know all about me and vice versa.
And until this moment I say what I feel for him.
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"So do you want to be my lover."
Hana who heard the expression of feeling from Endri immediately made her face red.
This is the first time Hana gets recognition from a man because previously many people did not like Hana, especially the men, they are reluctant to approach her because of Hana's chatty and noisy nature which always makes her inferior.
Hana was at a loss to answer him, her lips instantly frozen unable to let out even the slightest sound. His heart beat faster and felt uncomfortable.
Hana immediately frowned and the pounding in her heart was very fast, She looked deeply into Endri's eyes full of earnestness.
" End, are you willing to accept this lack of me, I am not a perfect woman" I said
" There is no human being on this earth who is perfect including this me and I am sure we can cover up each other's flaws with our love."
Hana was touched by the answer that Endri said unconsciously her tears came, she felt happy.
" Endri, I don't want to be your love" said I who immediately turned sad Endri's face thinking that his first love would fail, but ternyta...
" I accept for us to know each other and do not start this relationship by dating because it is forbidden by Allah SWT, he said, so if we're both confident in each other's choices, pin me down."
At once Endri was very happy because Hana had given him the green light.
" Insaallah."