Love Always Forever (Tanpamu, How Do I?)

A Phrase

Not about the feeling that has been hidden behind a tight friendship. It was easy for him to reveal each other. But behind a statement there will definitely be a change. And he'll never know what the end is after a revelation.

Now the clock has shown at 16.15 wib. But they still enjoy the breeze of the beach. Irfan and Ardhi really enjoyed the holiday this time. Yes, because they are both too busy with their work routines that make them rarely refresh their minds.

They play in the water on the beach. They joke around and chase each other like children. Laughter was made between them.

"We wait for sunset yuk, from here it's good. Not long" said Irfan with a smile.

"Can too. Not complete if to the beach do not see sunset tuh!" ardhi said with a smile while looking at the photos from his digital camera. Then deliberately the lens he pointed to Fany's face in front of him. And he photographed Fany's pretty face without giving a cue. "Perfect" said Ardhi who made Fany turn to him.

"Have a photo?! Ih basic bummer! Delete it, my picture is ugly!" fany said by trying to grab the camera in Ardhi's hand but Ardhi tried to hold it.

"You guys! Tomorrow if the wedding will continue to rame your house, hahaha.." said Irfan with a smile. And as soon as Fany heard that sentence, she immediately looked at her brother with a confused look.

"Haw? What wedding?" say Fany .

"That's not knowing either!" irfan mocked his sister.

"So, what the hell is that!" said Fany while slapping her brother's arm withholding her embarrassment.

"Udahlah you guys are dating why the hell, already from the first brother love blessing tauk. From sahabatan mulu but diem-diem mendem feelings. It's heavy." said Irfan with a smile and hold back his laughter seeing Fany misbehaving. Then Irfan changed to look at Ardhi who was smiling clumsily while scratching his head that did not itch.

"It's bang, he's the one who doesn't want to talk to me" said Ardhi with a laugh while glancing at the look on Fany's face. Because honestly he knows how Fany feels right now.

"You guys are already! Poor Fany you guys are jahilin mulu from earlier. Come on Fany we'll just go there." said Fika and pulled Fany's right arm away towards her mat by the beach.

"Eh uh let me be hehehe... You're just as much pity for the cool club." said Ardhi with an indistinct smile and pulled Fany's left arm.

"What the fuck are you, this is my sister!" fika said as if forbidding Ardhi to take Fany away. He wanted to know how Ardhi reacted.

"Udah yes we go there first, you guys continued again. Later if you want to go home the phone aja bang." said Ardhi immediately took Fany away from Irfan and Fika who was smiling staring at the two people who were increasingly away.

Irfan and Fika looked at each other. Then they laughed together to see the behavior of two people who still miss each other.

"Good shit what the hell were they! Make me crazy for a long time" said Fany who complained in his heart.

Fany followed Ardhi in front of him who was tightly grasping his fingers. And without being asked, his memory suddenly twisted on his dream. He's really nervous right now. He didn't know what to do if it happened.

Ardhi takes Fany to the end of the beach and enjoys dusk in a small gazebo. They both sat there facing the setting sun. Fany lowered her head and her feet swung the white sand beneath her.

Ardhi was busy himself with his camera and was pointing the camera lens in search of a beautiful object to photograph.

"Deketan here dong , let's take a photo together. We never take pictures together" Ardhi told Fany to get closer to him. Ardhi also embraces Fany's shoulder and they took pictures several times with each other smiling like a pair of lovers.

"Look at the result" said Fany asked for his camera.

"This." said Ardhi with a smile while taking a look at the photos.

"I'm so ugly!" fany said while looking at a photo of her own face.

"Who said the hell, you are beautiful" Ardhi said with a smile and Fany looked up at Ardhi.

"All guys are the same, the zombies are everywhere" Fany said, pretending to look upset.

"Eh I'm seriously tauk! You are the most beautiful woman I have ever met so far." said Ardhi with a sweet smile and looked at the face of Fany who looked ordinary. Yes, Fany was already too full with such words.

"Lied you! Many times out there girls prettier than me are chasing you. I know that." said Fany by looking at Ardhi too. And Fany's words made him chuckle.

"Yes a lot, but I don't want to. I already love one girl." said Ardhi with a smile while photographing the waves of the beach that sparkles because of the twilight that began to come.

"Trus why not just be the same girl?!" Said Fany who now impressed indifferently.

Ardhi realized Fany's change of attitude after he heard her remark.

"Not ah . He once said that he didn't want to date yet. Yaudah deh , I just wait until he wants to be my girlfriend" said Ardhi casually without looking at Fany beside him who began to feel something different.

"Why me? Am I jealous? What the hell, I'm just a friend! What a stupid fool you are until you feel jealous!" fany said in a heart that still felt that his heart was burning.

"Sok loyal really will wait, if there is a girl who is more than he must be interested!" Fany said still with indifference and a feeling that he could not hide for some reason.

"It is impossible. I'm a loyal guy." said Ardhi with a laugh.

"Ah not sure" said Fany still like not care.

"Why are you so kayak? So cuek said it. Why?" said Ardhi smilingly looking at Fany with his shady gaze while pinching his cheek.

"Nothing, just usually a guy like that. He falls in love, but sometimes he also breaks his heart. And sometimes at the same time." said Fany with his eyes straight at the sun .

"Emang you've been in that position?" ardhi said he tried to ask because he wanted to know how Fany was as long as he was not there.

"Early." said Fany briefly.

"When?" ardhi said with a look at Fany's beautiful face.

"Now" said Fany, shouting in his heart. He felt his chest feel tight. I don't know if someone is crying in their heart.

"Ehm... What the hell you want to know! Kepo you!" fany said with a face-off.

"I want to know all about you. Dong's story is the same as me." said Ardhi by grabbing Fany's palm and grasping it. And it made Fany again feel his heartbeat racing.

"Do I have to express my feelings? Don't be stupid!" fany said in his heart.

"Ehm... You know tulips?" fany asked, looking at Ardhi's face.

"Yes, why?" said Ardhi who also looked at Fany's face.

"It is like a tulip that blooms, but not completely. Just like me, my personality is open but not entirely. And not everyone knows how I am" said Fany with a sweet smile.

Ardhi then stroked Fany's long hair that was carried away by the wind.

"But you can share my story with me. You believe in me the same. I will always take care of you. I will always be there in your days. And I won't be leaving you again either. I promise." said Ardhi in a soft voice while looking at Fany.

"What's the reason you gave me all that?" Ask Fany.

"Yes, because I think I can. I don't want a chance this time. I had to make amends all this time for making you wait." Ardhi said with a smile.

"So the reason you've been all this time is just because you feel guilty? And you feel sorry for me ? Is that?" fany said without expression on his face.

"No, I don't mean that" said Ardhi, thinking hard so that Fany did not misunderstand and was angry with him.

"What else would you do if it wasn't? You've been the same attention I just feel sorry because I've been waiting for you all those years, right? If you mean it like that, it would be more if you were never present again in my life." said Fany by throwing his face and not looking at Ardhi's face again.

"We are friends. And I want us to be in that position accordingly. You no longer need to overdo it with me. I'm okay, so you don't have to feel like I'm the same." Fany's words cut off Ardhi's words by holding his heart that felt sore.

"And what is your reason? Why can't I pay attention to you anymore?" Said Ardhi calmly and carefully.

Fany is confused by her feelings. He was afraid of saying the wrong words.

"I don't want any more. I fear. I was afraid of feeling things I shouldn't feel. Help you understand what I want." said Fany by releasing his hand held by Ardhi who then stood up and stepped his legs to leave.

Fany stay away from Ardhi. Fany crying. I don't know this time his heart really hurt. His words made his heart slice to itself. He couldn't hide his tears to keep them from falling.

Just a few steps away, felt someone wrap their hands around Fany's waist. And Fany stopped her steps for a moment. He pecked with tears flowing down his cheeks and fell into the sand.

"I'm sorry" Ardhi said with a soft voice piercing Fany's ear.

Fany remained silent. He didn't know what to do and what to say. Ardhi let go of his embrace and stood in front of Fany. Ardhi now feels like an evil man. He had twice made this woman in front of him cry for it. He rubbed a soft tear on Fany's cheek with his thumb. Then pulled Fany's body into his arms to provide calm. He hugged her tightly as if reluctant to let go.

Fany let Ardhi embrace her body. His head rested on Ardhi's chest and felt Ardhi's heart beating fast. He felt tired. Tired of his heart and body. He closed his eyes while enjoying the soft caress on his head.

"I'm sorry. I'm mistaken. I shouldn't have let your tears fall again. From this moment on, don't stop me from giving more attention to you. And you don't have to be afraid of what you've been afraid of all this time. Let that taste be in your heart. Let that taste grow in our hearts. Because that's exactly what I wanted from the beginning. I always missed you. I always loved you from far away. You are my only reason to go home." said Ardhi in a soft voice and the expression made Fany sob in silence.

Fany raised her head to look at Ardhi's face. He looked at both his eyes trying to find honesty there.

"What do you mean?" Fany said in a voice that sounded raucous.

"We go together. I'm sure our feelings are the same. I love you the same. I want to always be in your heart. I want to always take care of you." said Ardhi with a smile and then kissed Fany's forehead.

"What the fuck! I don't want to!" fany said firmly.

"Why again?" ardhi said with shock by Fany's answer that had indirectly rejected him.

"I don't want to. You must be like this because you still pity me. No, I don't want to. Find another girl there." said Fany let go of Ardhi's embrace. But quickly his hand immediately blocked Fany's arm so as not to go again.

"I'm serious about what I'm talking about. What do I do to let you believe? Let me prove it." said Ardhi with a face look really serious.

Fany looked at Ardhi's face for a moment. He's never seen her this serious.

"You really are? Seriously?" fany said he still couldn't believe it.

"You want proof?" ardhi asked.

"Proof what?" said Fany curious what evidence will Ardhi give.

"If you still don't believe in the same seriousness of me and you want proof, I can prove it because I will happily marry you soon. How's it? You want?" ardhi said with an indistinct smile.

Ardhi's words really left Fany speechless.

"You are crazy! I'm still in school! What do people say, huh?! No, no, no!" said Fany half-screaming in front of Ardhi and make it even more adorable.

"What do you want?" ardhi said patiently and calmly as possible.

"I don't want anything" Fany said, staring at him.

"What do you mean?" asked Ardhi confused.

"In your opinion!" fany said, turning her gaze away and looking at the sunset.

"Is there really no place in your heart for me?" ardhi asked, still hoping.

Fany silently looked straight at the sun that was half-drowning.

"Honestly, I went back to Indo in the hope of having you forever. But if only being your best friend were you to refuse, what can I do? It would be better if I came back out of the country maybe. Is that what you want?" ardhi said as if slapping him.

There would probably be a deep sense of regret if he let that happen. With an inexplicable feeling as if telling her to melt down and accept, Fany tightly hugged Ardhi's body and drowned her face in the chest of the man she honestly held dear. And Ardhi also clutched the body of the woman he loved as well.

Ardhi smiled, he thanked and thanked God for happiness now. He's really happy.

"Don't go anymore" said Fany still in his arms.

"Yes, I'm not going anymore. I promise." said Ardhi who then kissed Fany's forehead sincerely.

They both look at each other.

"Do you really want to be my girlfriend?" ardhi said with a smile.

"Yes, I want to." said Fany with a shy smile.

"Gitu dong, use drama cry all. Cengeng really become a girl.Hehe.." said Ardhi with a ticklish chuckle and make Fany upset.

"That's a bummer!" said Fany hit Ardhi's arm.

Then Ardhi's phone rang indicating an incoming call. He smiled and answered.

"Yes bang ... Oh okay ... Back to the car this ... Okay we go there now." said Ardhi with a relaxed voice talking to Irfan.

"Let's go home, it's been waiting in the car" said Ardhi embracing Fany's shoulder and walking towards the parking lot.

And after they got to the car, he could see that Fika was already sitting in the front seat.

"You sit in front of it, let me be behind Fany" Fika told Ardhi.

"No need, I'm behind a gapapa. Ntar bothers you again." said Ardhi with a smile and then got into the car with Fany.

"Ehem... I think something has happened" Irfan said with a smile without looking back.

Hearing her brother's remark, Fany only fell silent because she would definitely be in an all-out bully if she knew what was happening.

"Have a long way, kemaleman hunt later until home" said Fany diverted the conversation.

Irfan smiled and drove the car back home and rested himself before tomorrow came and returned to the routine.

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