Layu Set

Use Heart

Looking at the empty quiet space that is now only in his place alone. Dusty and messy, untouched a pair of tender hands painstakingly cleaned and tidied it up. There are no more sounds of footsteps that riva-riwi to and fro, no more aroma of cooking that makes him always feel hungry even though it has been fully filled before.

Days of guilt eat away at his soul and body. Condemning the self that is so easily swayed by the whisper of the devil, to scratch more and more in the feelings of others.

The work that was piling up was only seen, abandoned because his tangled mind did not unravel. His body became weaker, after a few days he left it empty. Reluctant to chew even if only a mouthful.

With his paled face, Roman forced his steps, preparing the heart to meet Kinara. Drive the car with the rest of the energy he has.

He waited for about forty-five minutes. Kinara appeared, the look of a tired face clearly visible on his plain face. Slowly moving towards him. Not wasting time, Roman got out of his car instantly.

"Mas...?" kinara's eyes widened, looking at the figure that suddenly stood in front of him.

"Guide me eat," that sentence slid from his mouth. With a flat gaze but implying a great hope.

Seeing Roman's paled face made her heart melt, fulfilling the request. Step into the car.

"There alone" pointed Kinara at a tent by the side of the road, after a meter west of the hotel where he worked. Roman said he pulled his car over near the tent. Precisely an angkringan tent that is quite crowded in the crowd of visitors.

Sitting on a mat, under the dim atmosphere of minimal lighting. Some of the menus that Kinara chose also began to arrive. And of course the main menu is his signature cat rice.

One bag is meaningless, opening the second package has not stuck as well. In addition to satay ati ampela five skewers, it still has not fully filled his stomach. Until the third package to the fourth and fifth finally made Roman stroke his stomach. Feeling full is not playing.

Seeing Roman's crazed appetite made Kinar stunned. Frowning, astonished.

"How many days have you not eaten?" ask Kinara.

"Since you've been gone" he answered, still chewing on a fry in his mouth, but it was more than full.

"One... two.three.. four days? all that time you didn't eat? Pantes..again curusan," he said.

"Why are you getting that food? Should I be together again?" seeing Kinara just stirring his rice.

"Look at you eat, I'm full" he said.

"Eat it.you also cursive," asked Roman to stare fixedly at Kinara's face.

"Yes.tomorrow I just got the debt nicil. Sorry long..." The word Kinar diverted the conversation, starting to get uncomfortable with Roman's gaze.

"Why do we talk about debt. Spend the meal first," Roman looks so attentive.

Kinara returned to feed the rice, until it was gone.

"Please send me the account number. Tomorrow I transfer the first installment," still talking about debt.

"I'm asking for a case" Roman replied.

"Terserah Mas aja." said Kinar while collecting garbage wrap rice in one place.

"Ojek pesenanku already came, I first," said Kinara while rising. But Roman held his hand even before Kinara could stand up straight. Making Kinar stunned, hurriedly brushed him off.

"Sorry..." Roman realized Kinara was uncomfortable. "Start tomorrow, make provisions for me. Breakfast and lunch. I will calculate the price, reduce your debt," Roman said seriously with his words.

"Value how much each menu is?"

"Alright.I agree," Kinara smiled, at least she can quickly reduce her dependents.

Then it moved, towards the loyal ojek waiting for him. Leaving Roman still glued, staring at him until he vanished in the depths of the night.

There was a rush of taste lingering in the recesses of his heart, which he himself could not yet interpret. Maybe the feeling he denies, because he wants a woman without disabilities. Without him realizing he was the only man who had injured the girl's chastity. There was no one else, as he had expected all along.

Elsewhere, Angga meets Jay trying to look at the girl his best friend is looking for. Also sitting next to Jay who was daydreaming lonely on the balcony half-finished the building.

"Tumben you're here?" jay's greeting did not move from his place.

Angga closed his eyes, scooping deep in the air that night. It felt cold, soothing the heat of his heart these few days.

"It's just self-denying" he replied.

"Have you met that girl?" talk without further ado.

"He's been around me, but it's hard to reach him" Jay replied.

"Who's the girl?" angga.

"Kinara.." the answer is clear. Making Angga stunned, his eyes widened, his heart roared violently, leaving pain that rained down on his mind. Sorrow uselessly squeezed his chest, unable to breathe the abundant air that was available infinitely.

"Kinara...? that girl?" trying to assert, hoping something was wrong with her hearing.

"He hides a lot of things. I'll open them one by one, with or without his will" Roman replied.

Realizing how much the figure of Kinara means to Jay, and himself is a person who contributed to the destruction of his self-esteem. Angga chose to leave, without a single word. There has been no readiness and courage for him to tell his truth at this time. Choose the right time to admit it all.

Forgive me. That dwarf has no courage to speak the truth. But I promise I'll find a way out.

While Jay just stared confused about Jay's departure. Just came to ask one thing, then just left. What does this have to do with all of this, inner Jay wonders, feeling strange.

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Before the sun began to peek, it replaced the pitch of the night. Kinara had been struggling in the kitchen, preparing the groceries that would be processed. One by one put yes into a skillet that has been filled with hot oil, creating an appetizing aroma. When finished, it is laid out on three separate rice boxes. One for Evan's school. Two more for Roman, as requested. Of course with a different menu.

After saying goodbye, hugging the kiss on the child, Kinara stepped out carrying a paper bag full of provisions for Roman. After arriving at the courtyard where he worked, Kinara walked towards the security post, leaving the paper bag there. Roman'll pick it up later.

From a distance of a few meters, it appears that someone is watching. His friendly smile made Jay feel furious. Kinara did not want to share it with others.

Kinara looked down respectfully as they finally passed by. Four days back at the hotel, she understands how important Jay's position is to her boss Angga.

"Are you always that way for everyone?" ask Jay suddenly.

Kinara knitted her eyebrows together, not understanding, "meaning?"

"I don't like you sharing that smile with other people" Jay replied flatly, tucked into annoyance there. Who then just left.

Leaving Kinara still riveted in confusion. Jay's attitude. Was jealous of her, there was a sweet smile on her lips, but then it disappeared instantly. When I felt that jealousy was directed at him.