I REPLY TO MY HUSBAND'S AFFAIR

Chapters 70. Salsabila Regret

Salsabila looks more beautiful in her hijab. I reviewed the smile, greeting her warmly while enduring the curiosity that had arisen since seeing the change in her attitude and appearance.

The beautiful woman returned my smile while fixing her headscarf nervously. It appears if he is not used to the cloth that covers his head until it looks tired when wearing it.

"I have prayed zhuhur first in the crossroad mosque there." Salsabila told me without me asking her.

"Alhamdulillah, just in time to pray," I replied, nodding happily.

"Bu Hani must be confused see me like this?" salsabila asked while pointing at her who had hijab.

"Honestly, yes. I was shocked when I first saw Miss Salsabila come looking for me."

The beautiful woman smiled again. "Steel Smell Hani shocked. I just don't believe it's my reality or my imagination."

"Eemm, you mean, Mom?" my question is not to understand.

"I also can't believe I finally tried to change myself, starting from the appearance I used to. Later to learn again others," he explained excited.

"So Miss Salsabila has started veiling?" tanyaku.

The beautiful woman nodded. "I have many friends, but no one dared to honestly rebuke my mistakes like Bu Hani. Almost all my friends, always praising even though they know a lot of my bad deeds."

"Ah, Miss Salsabila is overrated. Sorry if I had a wrong word, at that time I only voiced something that did not fit my beliefs," I said embarrassed.

"But thank you, Bu Hani's spicy words made me reflect afterwards."

I listened silently, giving Salsabila room to tell her about herself, because I was overwhelmed with curiosity.

"Since girls, I've been determined to marry only men with titles and money. She was popular with men who had it all, until I decided to vote for Julio and leave all my adoring men."

Salsabila paused for a moment, as if he wanted to look at the look on my face when he began to mention the name of Mr. Julio in his speech.

"I guess, Julio and I will be a compatible couple, the king of money and the queen of money. Until I was sued by Julio, he wanted to have a child soon. Warmth is more needed, while I still want to be wild free outside the house." Salsabila grinned painfully, fixing his seat by stacking one leg on top of the other.

I nodded, it used to seem that Mr. Julio wanted him and Salsabila to be the king of love and the queen of love, not the king of money and the queen of money and he was disappointed Salsabila. What a pity that man, I murmured in my heart.

Salsabila was still looking at me as if making sure I was still listening to her. "Not that I realized the mistake, but instead felt humbled by the way Julio arranged myself and my heart. If I'm wrong, but he's more wrong for not giving me a chance to change."

Starting to understand where Salsabila's words were going, suddenly there was a fear in me that I would lose Mr. Julio. Sat married Salsabila, the character of the man may still not be as good as now until he failed to knit his marriage. But now, the tall man was very good in personality and almost impeccable. How can I let go of a good man just out of a doubt? I was stuck in being ushered in so many life choices that it was like I had no purpose.

"I'm in revolt, wanting to give Julio a warning if I don't like being set up. I went with a man who could obey and understand the freedom of life that I wanted" said Salsabila, continuing the story of his marriage.

I listened with understanding. It is true that there is no perfect love story. There is always the weakness of every couple in sailing the wedding ark. As William Shakespeare said, "The journey of true love never goes smoothly." Secuil or even a series of conflicts will certainly accompany, testing the evidence if the couple really love each other. While there is no betrayal, the lack of a spouse should be forgiven by seeing the other's kindness.

Like Salsabila, I also experienced a painful failure of marriage. Although it was difficult, eventually over time I was able to accept as a line of fate and reprimand for me became even better. Only one of my weaknesses now, I am still trapped in the trauma of Mas Bayu's betrayal and afraid of entering a new marriage as quickly as Mr. Julio offers.

"Mom Hani? Still hear my heart, right?" salsabila asked to break the anger in my silence.

"Eh, yeah-yes, I heard, really. So why has it been so many years that Miss Salsabila just wanted to prevent Mr. Julio from marrying again?" many nervous.

"Our marriage was actually over because of the magnitude of our ego both opened up a long time ago when we were just getting married, but I only realized that I was more wrong when the divorce was already happening," said Salsabila lowered her head while squeezing the tip of her hijab full of regret.

The more anxiety filled my chest cavity, the clearer if Salsabila wanted to be better in order to be back with Julio. Now, it feels like hundreds of bullets are aimed at me to block the receiving of Mr. Julio's proposal.

"Yes, Mom, yes. Mom knew? Julio doesn't care about me even though I've reached a career and a company that is advancing. After Ms. Hani rebuked me, then I pondered. Maybe my way was wrong, Julio wanted a good wife and I think with a hijab like Bu Hani I could be better. I want to make Julio believe that I've changed well." Salsabila increasingly regretted his mistake.

Salsabila still continues to talk a lot, he did not realize my anxiety to hear his desire to be with Mr. Julio again.

"I've been following Julio's life for a long time and no other woman has been with him. I approached Julio once again, but he didn't seem sure I had changed. My betrayal of another man a long time ago hurt him a lot. Equally, I also harbored heartache on Julio, he broke my heart repeatedly," continued the beautiful woman again.

"Oh ..iya, ma'am," I said briefly withstanding the pain that was infiltrating my heart.

"Until one day, a woman named Dini sent a message through an inbox messenger telling Julio to have a serious relationship with Bu Hani and ..."

"Eh, I'm sorry, Miss Salsabila knows Dini?" I cut the woman's words.

"I don't know, we promised to meet but Dini didn't come. The woman was looking for me through social media, she knew I was Julio's ex-wife.We had a message through WA as well. He understands the heartache that I kept in Julio," Salsabila explained honestly.

Again I was stunned, God has a plan with this long Salsabila speech to me? I bowed, for Julio's sake should I compete with that woman who is learning better? How me? How easily Salsabila was knocked to be good after I rebuked him, then now it is precisely I who will break his good change? My head instantly pulsed, how is this?

Salsabila's face looks honest, I don't find any pretense there. I think the beautiful woman really realized her mistake.

"Bu Hani has nothing to do with Julio, right? Sorry I asked again." Salsabila's voice was slow, but felt to make me swallow the earth deep and short of breath.

"Yes I have no relationship, but just this morning Mr. Julio asked me to," I replied in a trembling voice, very afraid to make Salsabila become desperate and undo his intention to become a more obedient woman.

I lowered my head, unable to see the change in the look on Salsabila's face that must have been disappointed. For a moment he was still confident he would be able to get Mr. Julio again, and now he had to hear if the man he still loved so long had asked me.

"You ..why not talk from earlier, huh? I talk a lot about Julio, tell her about my heart and ...I can't trust anyone anymore!"

"wait. From earlier Miss Salsabila spoke non-stop without being able to interrupt. I'm so glad you got the guidance to turn out well. Rest assured, ma'am, no good is in vain. Do not wish for Julio, let God give you another better good." I hurriedly encouraged Salsabila.

"But Julio has chosen Bu Hani, for what I have trouble veiling," said Salsabila poignant.

Sheikh Ibn Taymiyyah said, 'Grabbing something that is loved often has to bear something troublesome. If you want to feel love for God, be tired of following his rules and stay away from his prohibitions. It was a tired that was a blessing.' The love of God is greater than the love of Mr. Julio, Miss Salsabila." I gave advice, and also advised myself.

Salsabila cupped both hands to his face. After that, he was silent for a long time, causing me to worry.

"Bu Hani received Julio's proposal?" salsabila asked while looking at me sharply.

Somehow my brain was at work at the time, its nerve cells that ordered my head to move nodded, though deep within my heart was struggling with a swelling chunk of guilt, I will definitely break the spirit of that beautiful woman who is just starting to pick up her direction.

"I got to know God more closely as the storm hit my marriage. Since then I have been convinced, how God justly governs the affairs of His servant's life," I said slowly when I saw Salsabila sitting limp.

Salsabila flinching, not getting up to her feet nor raising her face loudly scolded me like last time when anger filled her. I'm afraid, really scared, if the anger is stored and one moment will explode.

"Sorry, excuse me? The day break was over. Hani's gotta work again."

Luluk's loud voice that came to us, made me and Salsabila stare at the same time until our eyes clashed. Is it true that the decision that I had taken so quickly earlier, am I really sure that receiving Julio's proposal and not wrong has hurt Salsabila? My heart breaks the question.

"Include me, that's Miss Luluk my teammate. He's the leader of the Bu Salsabila project team now," I said breaking the ice between me and the beautiful woman.

Salsabila let out a heavy breath a little irritated. "Yes, I already know. I think it's time I got out of here. We'll see you again, Miss Hani!" said Salsabila raucous and upset.

Salsabila's shadow flashed as fast as her steps left me still dumbstruck. Salsabila back in anger? Will he stop being a good person because I just broke his love for Julio? Hani, don't let the devil infiltrate your heart with his whispers, keep prejudicing the beautiful woman, I reprimand my bad thoughts.