I REPLY TO MY HUSBAND'S AFFAIR

SHOULD I SHARE MY HUSBAND

I'm shaking. " Mad Bayu doesn't need me anymore, does he? I'm not going to the clinic! Just call Early. Couldn't she take the time to take care of mom?" I turned around, about to go into the house while strengthening my heart to ignore my mother-in-law.

"Oh yes, Mas. Bring a spare key to the house. When you come home we may have finished packing and left the house." I turned around as I remembered my determination to leave.

"Don't be like that, Hani." whined Mas Bayu.

"Enough. I hurt my heart and Fahmi. Moreover, it's obvious, you admit your feelings for that woman." I didn't realize until I rebuked my husband.

"I'm sorry, Hani baby. I promise I won't be in touch with Dini anymore. Come with me to the clinic, let Mbak Min take care of Fahmi." pinta Mas Bayu while holding my hand.

"Give me your phone, Mas. Unlock the screen, I'll call Early" I said.

"Ngapain called Dini?" tanya Mas Bayu does not like.

"Tells mother dong. Let him prove his great love for you. She'll have to take care of mom if she wants to be her son-in-law" I said.

Mas Bayu stared at me fiercely, He put his finger on his lips, gesturing for me to speak softly. She definitely did not want mom to hear this fierce showdown.

"What do you mean talk like that?" cecar Mas Bayu lirih.

" To make you aware, Mas. A housewife is irreplaceable, a woman who you think is less smart and not beautiful anymore, you already consider low in your eyes, even now you do not mind even though it has been a dozen years willing to just take care of the entire house." I showed myself with a finger.

"Okay, okay, we can talk later. Come on, pity mom." Mas Bayu did not heed my words, he quickly pulled my hand into the car to immediately come with him to the clinic. My words are like the wind. It sucks the attitude of Mas Bayu who only briefly responded to me earlier, but the shadow of the pale face of mother-in-law flashed in my eyes. How could I not take care of it? My little heart can't ignore my mother's feelings for her condition.

No matter how upset my heart is, but the obligation as a daughter-in-law I still have to obey. Maybe it's good to take me to the clinic, after that I'll leave this house tomorrow.

"I love my sincere mother. I'll take you for treatment, but not because Mas promised to stop being in a relationship with Dini, no! Tomorrow I'll leave" I said firmly.

I felt sorry when I saw my mother in the car looking so weak. With a heavy heart I decided to give up. Surviving last night again is okay, the day after tomorrow I was also an important presentation that requires concentration. After leaving the office tomorrow, Fahmi and I will still leave Mas Bayu and this house.

On the way to the clinic the three of us were silent. Mother closed her eyes, her limp hands trembling trying to grasp my hands as if asking for my attention.

"Surya" mother called lirih.

I was surprised to hear my mother calling in a trembling voice, I held her back to the back of the car seat, waiting for what my mother-in-law would tell my husband.

"Listen to Mom, forget it! I heard the commotion you two were in. Hani is a good wife.'

Mother looked at me wryly, didn't she realize my meaning as her daughter-in-law? Or just because she was in pain, so that mom held me back from her son's life? Ish, I'm thinking badly of mom.

"Yes ma'am, we're almost at the clinic." Only that was Mas Bayu's answer, apparently not sincerely agree with his mother's request.

The clinic is not too crowded because it is almost ten o'clock in the evening, we force to register because the patient queue is closed, we ask on the grounds that the mother needs to be treated quickly by a doctor.

Seen in the waiting room, there was only one patient standing in line. We chose to sit in the corner a bit away from other patients so that mothers feel comfortable. Mom sat closed her eyes, waiting with her shoulder on her back. Mas Bayu grabbed my hand, grasped it tightly. Why is he being so friendly? It means nothing to me anymore. I grumbled in my heart, then pulled my hand out of his grasp.

"What's wrong, why are you looking at me like that?" she whispered, afraid to be heard by her mother.

I smiled wryly while shaking my head, lazily answering.

Mas Bayu shrugged his shoulders cuek, making me carried away with the annoyance that I had been pending until I finally threw an answer.

"No need to be friendly to hold my hand. From now on we take care of each of us. The mother I've been taking good care of is also your business now." My whisper is slow but firm.

'So all this time you've not been willing to take care of my mom, huh?" he asked, his face was so close to my ear that it was clear the accusation was whispered to me.

"It turns out I'm not the one who's not smart, but you, Mas! Can't interpret the meaning of my explanation, uh, even misunderstanding" I said.

Mas Bayu exhaled quickly beside my ear so that my cheek felt warm. He's so upset? Let's just say, he doesn't like what I say, I don't care.

Not yet had Mas Bayu chimed in my words, mother huddled and asked to get a drink, it seems like mother knew we were fighting each other's mouth earlier.

Mas Bayu hastily agreed to his mother's request, then headed to the exit of the clinic to buy a bottle of drink at the shop next to the pharmacy clinic.

"Han. Bayu has always loved Dini. You must acknowledge your husband's current behavior. You're almost forty years old, right? What is the best age to be a widow? No need to threaten to leave the house all," shrieked my mother-in-law in my ear, making me wonder with her words still sound painful even though she was in pain.

"I mean mother? I have to share my husband with another woman?" my answer was no less subtle but I pressed my voice so that mother knew I did not agree with her words earlier.

"Yes not that far, just give Bayu a moment with Dini alone. You are no longer the first in his heart." Mother also suppressed her voice as if wanting to affirm my position for Mas Bayu at this moment.

I sat frozen, strange, my mother-in-law was also a woman, why can't he understand the pain of my heart that felt like it was being thrown out of my husband's heart and then having to be replaced by an Early figure that suddenly appeared between us?

"Hani, you understand, right?" my mother-in-law touched my shoulder.

I just kept quiet for a moment almost forgot if you were in the clinic to see a doctor and check on the condition of an unhealthy mother. In fact, my mother-in-law is still able to talk to me like a healthy person.

I turned my eyes to the door of the check room, hoping that mom would go in there soon so I could go home and take Fahmi away with me.

"Hani, are you angry?" mother asked, making me suddenly think of my own mother.

Seeing my mother-in-law look at me without a guilty race made me remember the message of my late mother when I was going to be in boyong to my mother-in-law's house after the marriage contract first, "Take your mother-in-law as your mother, "Watch your mother-in-law as your mother, even if he is bad to you, do not let your good qualities disappear because of his badness. Do not let your patience disappear because of the disappointment of your mother-in-law."

It's too much advice my late mother would have me try to follow now. I took a deep breath, increasing my patience.

"No, Ma. Hani was not angry, just disappointed because my mother-in-law who I had considered her own mother could not understand my feelings," I finally could tell the truth.

"Mother just...."

Mother's words cannot be continued again because they saw Mas Bayu had come to bring the drink that mother wanted earlier. The man I adored so much immediately served his mother. If he could also act like that to me as his wife..huft, why should there be an Early shadow between me and my husband? I'm glad in my heart.