I'm Sure He's My Match

Forever Friend

I really want to reveal my heart to Kiki, but unfortunately I am not ready to accept the fact that Kiki will never be able to return my feelings. Until one day, I decided to end my feelings for Kiki. I want Kiki to know how I feel about her, ready not to be ready I want it all to end, feeling tired of it. At least I've revealed it, whatever it goes and the answer is I have to be ready to accept it.

That night, to me, was a very quiet night, there were no stars in the sky, no moon in sight. I ventured to Kiki first.

"Assalamu'alaikum, Ki."

"Wa'alaikumussalam, Vi."

"Kiki earlier I'm sorry I was so presumptuous to reveal all this. I'm sorry for all the feelings I have right now. I don't know what to do, I just want you to know how I feel about you, I love you. I know you'll never be able to return my feelings, I understand."

"Is this Vi?"

"Yes that."

"You serious?"

"Yes seriously Ki 😬"

"Hmmm... I'm sorry Vi, I can't return your feelings, I don't want our friendship to be ruined because of these feelings, I want us to be friends forever."

"Hehe, yes Ki is ready. We're friends forever😊" I don't want to send these words when in my heart a lot of hurt and disappointed for the answer.

"I don't want us to be different, you don't stay away from me." Reply Kiki.

I was saddened by Kiki's reply, but yes what power, I can't force Kiki's feelings for me.

The next day, I met Kiki in class, I didn't dare to look Kiki in the face because I felt ashamed for my statement last night. I feel sad about this reality.

I tried to share the story with Vina, but I was scared, and embarrassed.

Vina borrowed my phone and saw a WhatsApp notification from Kiki that I hadn't read last night.

"I'm sorry, I just saw a notification from Kiki on your phone, you're the same Kiki why?" Vina asked.

"Why? How do you mean?"

"That's the message, I don't want us to be different, what do you mean?"

"Hmm that, no Na, hehe."

"Vi, your eyes are glazed, why are you? Be honest with me, I won't tell anyone."

"This, Na." I started shedding tears.

"Why?" Vina held my hand.

"That night I revealed my feelings to Kiki, that I love her."

"How come?"

"Yes, Kiki just think of me as a friend no more, you just read the chat." Giving a phone to Vina.

"Hmmmm, that's the story. Yes Vi, you don't think about this better we think about tomorrow. You're ready, right?" Vina tried to comfort me.

"Na yet, I don't seem to go with Na."

"Why?" Vina was shocked, because usually Ivi did not want to miss a moment with her friends.

"Goru... I was confused, at most later. I can't get permission to camp there."

"Well. yeah, I'm coming with you, Vi?"

"Where are you?" Love is coming towards us.

"Gini Ta, Ivi tomorrow seems not to be able to join ngecamp, but he said he wants to follow and I want to join Ivi. I'm scared to spend the night there, hehe."

"I'm coming with you too, can you?"

"Yes can dong, Ta."

"Yeeee..he." Yeah."

The next day my friends left for the summit. In the class group, Ano asks me, Vina and Love.

"Where are Ivi, Vina and Love?"

"Sorry No, me and the others tomorrow. I can't get permission to camp there." I returned the message.

"Well, yeah, not cool." Reply Ano seen in my phone notif.

Besides not getting permission, I'm lazy if I have to meet Kiki, I don't want to meet him, it's a shame. At nightfall, Love and I stayed at Vina's house. Vina vividio calls Ano because they are close. At that moment, I saw Kiki playing the guitar singing the song "shadow-woman paddles in the arms". I'm trying to be careless not to see what he's doing. I just fell asleep.

Morning welcomed my beautiful wake up, I was awakened to the melodious sound of the mosque speakers. After the dawn prayer, Vina and Cinta went after the other friends. Vina told Ano that we were on our way. Arriving there, we are greeted by Kiki and Ano, somehow they have to pick us up.

"Bring a drink, huh? i'm thirsty!" Kiki asked for a drink.

"What Ta?"

"Bring a drink? Why do you keep on talking?"

"Oh, this is there." Giving her drink to Love.

"I didn't ask for Vi, but Kiki."

"Sorry Ta, here." Offering to Ano.

"Yes Allaah, Rivi Anggreani why are you? That's Ano not Kiki." Love Words.

"Why the hell are you Vi?" Vina asked the same thing

"That's why you see the person don't keep nduk, it would be wrong people."

"Yes, Ivi why the hell? Gerogi, see I'm too handsome? Haha." Chirp Ano with confidence.

"What the hell, not." I refute that question.

"Yes, why? You're weird if you're close to Kiki, your face likes to blush anyway, what not-don't?.."

"Don't what are you, No?" Love asks that.

"Drink it, Ki." I gave the drink to Kiki.

"Byok everything we go upstairs, the other friends are waiting." Kiki invited us and stopped our conversation earlier.

On the way to the top, I'm the last way. I feel thirsty while my drinking water is in Kiki. I was embarrassed to ask for my drinking water back, I was silent for a moment while the others kept going. I don't know why suddenly Kiki came when I saw that Kiki had continued the journey with others.

"You thirsty? Nih." Kiki offered a drink.

"Thank you."

"That's yours, why thank you? Sorry, I forgot to return it to you. Thanks to ya."

"Hmm, no papa. You're welcome."

"Capek huh, Vi?"

"That's how Ki, let's go again."

"Corn."

Along the way, I didn't speak anything just silence.

Arriving at the top, friends were gathering to eat.

Kiki and I came both late, the other friends were kissing, I immediately went to Vina and Love who were sitting.

"Where were you?" Ask Vina.

"I'm tired, Na. I stopped for a while and Kiki suddenly came."

"Ahhh sosweet." Chirps Love.

"What the hell, Ta. Nora knows."

After eating, we take pictures. I just stayed in my seat, looking at the scenery around and seeing friends who were taking pictures. Many of my friends asked for photos with Kiki, even Diandra was taking photos together. I just saw it and was actually lazy to see it. I wanted a photo with Kiki, but I was embarrassed. And suddenly Ano called me.

"Vi, here!"

"Yes, what's the matter No?" I approached Ano.

"Shut up there!"

"What's wrong?"

"Ki, here Ki!" Ano called Kiki, not answering my question. Kiki approached me and Ano. He followed her and stayed near me.

"Sip de sip." Ano looked at me and Kiki.

"Ciee. cie..." The other friends made a sound and looked at me and Kiki who were Ano movement to take a picture together.

"Cloak dong Vi smile!" Vina told me to smile, she was happy to see me and Kiki taking pictures together.

After Ano took our picture, Kiki and I glanced at each other and thanked each other. Again, another friend of mine was screaming.

I don't know what we mean by say thank you. I don't even know reflexes.

We take a break to continue our journey home. Arriving at home, I got a picture message from Ano. He sent me a picture of my name on someone's cell phone that someone was holding. With the sight of the settlement lights visible above the peak, that someone seemed to be Kiki. Because there is a mole on the finger of the person holding the phone. I replied to Ano's message "Thank you, No."

And Ano sent a picture message in the class group, there was a photo of Kiki writing the name "Pearl" on a piece of paper with blue markers. I felt sad that it wasn't just my name that he wrote. Even the name of the woman was more meaningful, Kiki wrote with her own hands. While what Ano sent to me was not who made it, even though it looks like Kiki's hand, but it could have been Kiki made just follow people's orders. Because maybe his friends made fun of my name to Kiki so Kiki was forced to make my name. Pearl is indeed close to Kiki, women with round glasses, sharp-nosed, thin-lipped, thin-lipped, the class X child was rumored as someone close to Kiki and he said it was already so, but I didn't care. I fell asleep because I was tired.