I'm Sure He's My Match

Intoxicant Drink

The semester break is over I'm back at the boarding house.

"Eh Ivi is here, why don't you know I'm Vi? I can pick it up." Kaka.

"No need to take care of you, I'm not good."

"Yeah, just Vi. Who were you bringing here?"

"Nobody is there."

"Oh... Here want me to help you get the bag in?"

"Don't do it, I can do it myself. It's not heavy, hehe."

"Okedeh, I'll take my leave first, go to the stall."

"Yes Ka."

After cleaning up everything, I took a break for a moment to open WhatsApp and Instagram. Snap gram Kiki passed by, I opened it. She wrote the words as if she was breaking up with her boyfriend but, I'm not too scared of it. "Just yesterday she showed her boyfriend where they might have broken up." I said.

At night, right after I pray Isya. I want to start the laptop, my phone sounds, there is a WhatsApp message from Ano. He sent me a photo that made me very anxious, worried and astonished. The photo was of Kiki while drinking alcohol. I immediately asked where Kiki was. Ano tells her that Kiki is at his boarding house. Ano gave me his address. I thoughtlessly went to Kiki, I from Cimahi went to Bandung to find out about her situation, and asked her why she could do such a thing.

Without me knowing Kaka was following me from behind. Arriving at Kiki's boarding house, I immediately banged on the door, he was really drunk. Her body smells of alcohol. He's already asleep. I didn't expect Kiki to do any of this. Ano explains the reason Kiki did this, Ano already prevented her from getting drunk, but Kiki did not hear it.

"No why is Kiki like this?"

"Kiki broke up with Bunga, Bunga decided Kiki because he apparently preferred other men, plus Kiki again there is a family problem."

"family problems? What's the problem?" My toot.

"No Vi, he doesn't want to say anything."

"Yes Allaah is very busy."

"Yes Vi. Who are you the same as here? It's already night. Cimahi-Bandung is not a short distance, you are desperate to come here."

"I'm worried about Kiki No." Answer's short.

"Are you sorry about Kiki?" Ano asked, which made me instantly quiet.

"Don't know No, you can value yourself, I don't know if this is affection or anything."

"Tonight you sleep here, Vi, I won't do anything, I'm ready to take care of you tonight, I won't sleep."

"I just want to go home, No."

"Eh it's 22:00 Vi, time to go home, there will be no public transportation either. I'll drop you tomorrow."

Suddenly my phone rang, there was a message from Kaka.

"I'm outside, you can go home tonight, don't stay there."

I opened the door to Kiki's boarding house and it turned out that Kaka was there.

"Why are you here?" I'm shocked.

"Who's Vi?" Said Ano.

"This is my friend No."

"Why are you here? How do you know I'm here?"

"I was following you Vi, accidentally when I wanted to get on the bike to the house, I saw you go in a hurry, so I followed you."

"Hmm. Let's go in first."

"You told me to get in the boarding house?" Ask Kaka.

"Well, not alone, there's Ano and Kiki too."

"Yes, yes."

"This who's Vi?"

"It's Kaka, No, my friend."

"Surely friends?"

"Yes my friend, uh No, it's late, I'm sorry I have to go home. Please take care of Kiki, don't tell me I'm here."

"Why?"

"Why-why. I say No, assalamu'alaikum."

"Despite him being safe, will you take these gini nights?" Ask Ano.

"What the hell are you, I'm a good person, I can take care of Ivi." Kaka.

"I'm sorry, I don't know you yet, I'm afraid you're evil."

"He's good No, trust me."

"Yuk I'm home."

"Be careful Vi."

"No, can I borrow a helmet?" I'm the one who came out back in.

"There's Vi, but Kiki's."

"Well, Dad, did I borrow it? Aren't you going to wear Kiki?"

"No, Vi, just wear it first."

"Okay, don't tell me I borrowed the helmet."

"Ready. Let me take it first."

"More.." Ano thrust his helmet.

Arriving at the boarding house, I could not sleep because I kept thinking about Kiki's situation, I played the recording that Kiki had sent me, the recording of her singing a woman's song in her arms, and I played the recording that she had sent me, with his distinctive voice and his favorite guitar accompaniment. That song has always been a medicine for me when I miss him.

The night was so quiet, in the window I saw the moon shining so brightly. Besides that song, this bright moon has always been my friend when it comes to missing people I love including Kiki.

I thought about why he could do that, if only his parents knew he would scold him. I did not dare to tell Papah Kiki, fearing that Kiki would get angry at his papa.

Maybe for young people now things like that are common but for a Kiki it is not an ordinary thing.

In the morning, I got a call from an unknown number, after I answered the phone, it was Kiki. Can't lie there I feel so happy. Kiki asked for my boarding address, he wanted to meet me he said he wanted something to be done. I gave her that address.

We meet in the afternoon after my college schedule.

Tok.dok... I heard the sound of my door knocking.

"Yes." Yeah." As soon as you open the door.

"Assalamu'alaikum Ivi?" Hail Kiki.

"Wa'alaikumussalam, Eh Kiki." I'm so happy that Kiki can see me.

"Sorry Ki, I can't ask you to come in my boarding house."

"Well, Vi, how do we go outside?" This was the first time he had asked me for a way out.

"May, I'll take the bag for a second."

"Tumben once you immediately want to be invited to walk with me, first when the school was invited home with hard, hehe.."

I smiled and replied Kiki.

"I'm waiting in front of Vi."

"okay."

"Vi?" Kiki called out to me after I sat down as her seatmate.

"You're still rich first, if the distant bonds continue."

I just smiled in response to Kiki.

Kiki took me to the Ampera diner the first time I saw Kiki smoking.

After arriving at the place to eat, I wonder why Kiki invited me to this place.

"We're here Ki?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Why is it here?"

"Pengen only here Vi." Answer's short.

"Mmmmm...."

"Let's go eat it we eat it above."

"Yes a minute."

"You want juice or what are you?"

"Mango juice only."

"She's two mango juices." Kiki said to the cashier.

"Ni mbak." I gave her food to her cashier.

"Total Rp.175.000,00. It's the structure." Cashier said.

"This is the money."

"Thank you mas. Later the food is delivered, please wait a minute."

"Okay, above me."

"Ready man."

We eat right at the table that we used to visit with friends, there is nothing different from that place except the wall paint, looks new in the paint.

"Eh..kamu why? What's it gonna whip?" I started the conversation, I think I can reduce my sense of degdegan chat with him. But, still my face is still flushed.

"You don't have to be red on his face. Hehe, just relax." Kiki said while laughing at me.

"No, it's ordinary. What the hell are you."

"It's normal. You are not!" While giving the phone.

"Not ordinary, wlee.."

At that time I forgot all the events that I had experienced in the past with him, I forgot the pain of my heart because of my own actions as well. I hid the true feelings still the same as before, controlling the emotions so that Kiki did not know the truth if I still expected her love.

The food has reached our table, we eat little by little.

"Vi?" Kiki started the conversation again.

"Yes what?"

"Thank you for everything."

"All what?"

"You went to my boarding house last night, went all the way there to see how I was doing. I'm so grateful."

"Who said? I'm not going to your boarding house." I stopped eating and didn't admit to it.

"Ano told me everything. That night I was wrong Vi, I did it already hurt, broke my heart. The person I love just left me and chose another woman instead. I'm sorry about you too."

"You don't apologize to me, apologize to God and yourself."

"Yes Vi, yes."

"You broke up with Flowers?" My toot.

"Yes, I misjudged him, I thought he was a very good person, who could accept me for who I was, who could accept me for being ignorant, but yes this is the proof, he's not who I imagined."

"Hmmm.... Patience Ki, there will be someone who sincerely loves you Ki, rest assured."

I was confused as to what to say, I could only say that.

"Yes insyaallah Vi."

"I beg you please don't repeat like that again, try to look back on the old you and which of you is better now? I think I prefer the old Kiki, who is calm, not bersawabaran, polite, generous. Indeed I do not know what your attitude is now like, what circumstances you are facing I do not know, but what I heard from your friends has indeed changed."

"It's true, Vi, I feel it all. The more here it's not the better it's getting worse."

"You remember the time you came home with the booklet, I smoked here? In this place?"

"Yes I remember, I was very, very surprised to see that. Why does Kiki smoke? Kiki doesn't like it, right? It's weird that the first time I saw Kiki is that."

"Yes I'm into the Vi company, it's far from my social family getting harder to control."

"As for smoking, I can still understand, but about yesterday, about you being drunk I really regret Ki. I don't want you falling for the bad, you know what the law of drunkenness is? I'm sure you'll know."

"Yes I know Vi, I was solemn, that night it was all very much ruined for me."

"OK, okay. I hope yesterday happened for the first and last.You are now big, you can think which is good, which is bad. Try to be smarter to do something. You came here to study, right? More use your time, more think also how papah you get money to finance you college here, your time does not pity the same papah you. You have 4 younger siblings that you have to fight for as well as his future, you have to be a good example for them." I'm speaking in front of Kiki.

"Yes Vi, ready. Thanks again for everything. I miss your babbling like this."

"Yes, we are both Ki."

Adzan Magrib.

"Vi, adzan. Eat it already, right? Prayers for yuk."

"Come on Ki."

We pray magrib in the mosque where we eat. After that, Kiki took me home. He won't take me too long, especially at night.

Kiki drove me home to kosan. Upon arriving there Kiki said words that really broke my heart.

"Vi, thank you for listening to me."

"You thank you continue. It's yes if you're grateful again I won't respond to it."

"Yes-yes.... Vi?"

"Yes what?"

"This will probably be my last meeting and yours."

"How come? Why that?"

"I want to move to Batam, with my mom." I was surprised to hear all this, indeed Kiki and I rarely met even once or twice after graduating high school but, Batam? Batam is very far compared to Bandung. We'll be hard to meet.

"Seriously?"

"Yes, I'm moving to college there."

"Keep on you?"

"It was Papah who told me to go to college. Later after graduation maybe I'll come back here to continue the papah business."

"Ohhhh, no papa. Anyway you have to keep the spirit going wherever you go to college."

"Tomorrow I go, pray for me. I wish I could come back here, meet my life and my true love here."

"Aamiin, there are more beautiful women Ki, can be your soul mate there." I said, when I didn't want to say that, all I had in my heart was "I'm waiting for you here Ki." What I say is not in accordance with what is in the heart.

I don't know what was on my mind at the time, which must have been very sad. Someone I love will go far, even though he does not love me I remain in the heart of the old, expecting that he is my true love, a love that will make me a better person. I hope too, Kiki will come back to see me later as her true love.