I'm Sure He's My Match

Admire Him

Her.....

High body, thin whiskers, narrow eyes, thick eyebrows, white skin, and a little thin.

Humble, generous, and honest.

He is Rifki Andranata, I call him Kiki.

Kiki was a man I admired while in junior high school. Because we happened to be in school at the time. High school even I one school even one class for 3 years. I'm happy to be in the same class as Kiki, so happy even, hehe.

Kiki's handsome face made all the girls in the class like her. Not just a class, but almost a school. He was like an idol at school.

Kiki was born from a family, sometimes I feel close to him. I think it's very difficult to get close to Kiki let alone be her lover. Being her lover was probably just my imagination. It's not possible, but it's never going to be.

Grade ten I was arguably an avid, quiet student. Perhaps true, people call me quiet because I feel it too. I don't think a short period of time will let people know someone's attitude and character. My friends even called me a mature minded person, but to me I didn't. I am a weak, irritable, pessimistic person. Friends often poured their hearts out to me, including Kiki. Kiki and I still like to talk, although my heart likes to beat fast, my cheeks are flushed when close to him.

On Tuesday there is an English test, the teacher gives us the choice of story telling, singing or giving a speech. I chose story telling while Kiki chose singing. Coincidentally that time for those who choose singing allowed for more than one person, it turns out Kiki chose for the same duet Diandra. Who's Diandra?

Diandra is our classmate who likes Kiki, that's in my view. I can see it from Diandra's attitude to Kiki. Diandra attention to Kiki, her beautiful face, round, a little fat, smart to make me feel closer to Kiki. Kiki calmly plays the guitar with charisma and Diandra with her distinctive voice sings with confidence. They performed the song "John Legend-All off me" Diandra's gaze touched my heart as she studied the song and cast her eyes on Kiki. My little heart was sad to see the two of them "assume I was in the position of Diandra".

Although I know Kiki did not put the same heart as Diandra because at that time Kiki was dating Fitra son XI MIPA 3.

On Tuesday, after returning home from school precisely my schedule picket clean-up class, Kiki drove Fitra home. The position of my class is close to the parking lot of the student vehicle, I saw clearly they passed by both riding a red motorbike of Kiki pride, my heart again said "and I was in the position of Fitra". Fitra is very lucky to be loved by Kiki.

I'm a person who can't talk to Kiki for long, even though we use WhatsApp social media. Starting from wondering about homework assignments or PR and group assignments, Kiki and I often confide in our problems, sometimes sharing knowledge about our religion.

I was more amazed by Kiki when I found out that Kiki is one of the broken home children. His parents separated when Kiki was eleven years old, Kiki used to live in Batam and finally Kiki with papah, older sister and two younger brothers moved to Bandung, the birthplace of his papah. Kiki now lives with her grandmother. For children, the separation of parents is a very bitter reality. No child wants that to happen.

I don't know in previous years what kind of difficult time Kiki passed with. Maybe, if I were in Kiki's position, I wouldn't be able to get through it. In my opinion, at that age Kiki is quite strong with the bitter thing. Now everything he's been up to, never complaining, even though his attitude is a little weird, weird which I think is funny, hehe.

Kiki is lucky to have a very good grandmother, responsible papah, caring older sister, and younger siblings who always support her.

Until one day, when Papah Kiki chooses to run a new household with a new person, Kiki feels heavy, but Kiki can not stop it all, the happiness of his father is his happiness too.

I always remember the contents of Kiki's outpouring of hearts, big things or small things. I don't know why I want to remember anything about him.

I'm glad about it. Once again after knowing the story of Kiki like that, I was grateful, I was still given a whole family, there was still a mother, father, brother, they were beside me simultaneously.

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At that time the lesson time Counseling Guidance or BK discusses the Broken Home, and students are expected to be able to argue about it. Kiki argues in front of the class with confidence. His eyes had glanced at me when he wanted to start issuing his opinion, I don't know what Kiki would say, but his eyes seemed to want to let out all the irritation in his heart. I encourage even though only through the view. "Broken Home is not something to be afraid of, but something that makes us strong, though bitter, yes this is the life that must be lived and grateful. There can be no success without bitterness leading to it." The conclusion of Kiki's opinion made me admire her even more.

Early in the eleventh grade I got word that Kiki and Fitra broke up. Fitra is a good person for Kiki in my opinion, every time I break up that I know the reason for not being allowed to date the same papah or mama Kiki, Kiki, but the same time Fitra reasons their break up because Fitra does not like the same Cuey Kiki.

At that time, the math clock was empty, the teacher did not come in because there was another meeting, my seat was adjacent to Kiki's seat. I'm in front and Kiki is behind me. I heard a conversation between Kiki and Ano. Ano is my friend Kiki

"Ki, are you breaking up?"

"Heem, No."

"Why can? You do not regret breaking up with him, he is not the woman you are chasing until you snatch from Bima right? Haha" Chirper Ano.

"Hmm, you, No. It's not in line, No."

"Aah, that kind of excuse is tai."

"That's a big you, No."

"The story dong story, I'm curious, Ki."

"Ahh, you, No. Biasalah, papah do not give my permission to date from the past as well, and indeed Fitra does not like the same attitude I think gini, he said I was too indifferent."

"Well, it's really the Fitra, you are super cute abis, Fitra's pantesan can't stand it."

"Yes, let's go, No. Do not date first now mah, focus No focus on learning haha."

"Get up, Kiki haha."

I accidentally heard that conversation, but my heart felt like it was joy after hearing that, maybe for my heart there is a chance to be closer to Kiki. Indeed, friends who do not know themselves yes, when his friend is sad I am even happy. I don't know love makes me blind