I'm Sure He's My Match

Misery and the Error of Ano

Tomorrow comes, I again misfortune because my brother's motorcycle has a ticket. On the way to school, I stopped the yellow questionnaire for my school. Arriving at the school, the gate was closed. I forced the security guard to open the door, Thank God the security guard still gave me the opportunity to enter the class.

Because from the school gate to the classroom is quite far away, I walk. At that time, I saw Kiki passing by because of the same misfortune. Kiki just passed by like nothing, not saying anything, as if not seeing me, his classmate, at least he said "first Vi.", but it wasn't. I feel sad, not invited together at least say like that.

Once in class, the teacher is there. Kiki and I went to class. Kiki first and I'm behind her. Friends as usual to kiss.

"Assalamualaik." Kiki and I said hello.

"Wa'alaikumussalam."

"Cieee..."

"Ki's leaving with you guys? tumben Ivi wants to fuck with guys." Ian asked Kiki.

"No, Ian, we just happened to meet up ahead." I answered Ian's question and Kiki just smiled.

Then Kiki and I walked up to Guru's Mom for Greetings first, apologized for being late, and asked permission to follow her lesson. After that, I saw that my seat was already occupied by Ano. All that was left was the usual seat Kiki and Ano occupied.

"Ano you moved!" I told Ano to move.

"Whoever goes first, who has the right to sit here, who sends bad luck."

"Thou No, it can't be. Move you!" Vina told him too.

"If I don't want to, what? You're the same Kiki, what's wrong this day you two sit together."

"Basic." I was upset with Ano.

I relented and sat down with Kiki because Ano insisted on not moving, and I didn't feel good about the other friends. The teacher continued to write on the board, if I continued to force Ano to move, I would miss writing.

After writing, the teacher asked to create a study group.

"There are tasks that must be done in groups. Please make your own group. If there's a group, you write in front."

"Ready Ma'am..."

Ano went straight to the board and wrote "group 1, Vina, Ano, Kiki, Rivi."

"Eh what's No." I commented to Ano who was already sitting back in front of my seat.

"It's up to me to dong Vi."

I just kept quiet and shook my head.

Kiki and I had nothing to say, not a word coming from both of our mouths.

"Secretly bae, chat with you and know. wkwk" Ano chirps insinuated both of us.

Kiki and I didn't listen to what Ano said. Focus on each other's work.

I think Ano wants to unite me and Kiki. Whether he knows or not with my true feelings. If Ano behaves constantly like that, it makes it harder for me to let go of my feelings for Kiki.

I'm trying to talk to Ano about this, so you don't keep acting like that.

The second hour of rest, which is after the Dzuhur prayer. I happen to be an obstacle. Ano came home first from the mosque. Kiki, Vina and the others have yet to come. I went straight to Ano.

"No, can I ask you something?"

"By Vi. What's the?"

"Why do you keep acting like me and Kiki, like you want to unite us? You know what really happened to me and Kiki?"

"Why indeed? Do you like Kiki?" Ask Ano casually.

"You know No?" I'm appalled.

"Yes, Kiki told me everything's the same."

"Why are you acting like that to me and Kiki?"

"Well, I like to see you two, I think you're a good fit too. About Kiki not being able to reciprocate your feelings, it's about Vi's time. You are expressing your feelings at the wrong time. Kiki is close to the pearls, but they're close, cake to you."

"Lied to you No."

"Seriously Vi, Pearls don't accept Kiki, they're just your sister."

"Oh that. But, no, you can't be like that, I want to release this feeling to Kiki, I don't want to keep going like this."

"If you really love, dear Kiki fight dong do not give up just like that."

My conversation with Ano was not finished, the other friends came, I just left.

"No, eat here." It sounds like Kiki is taking Ano to eat the provisions he brought.

"Yokk, Ki." Answer Ano.

I was confused by what Ano said earlier. Ano wants me to fight for my love. Actually, my heart wants to be like that.

Lesson over, we're ready to go home. It was my picket schedule with Vina. Finish the picket, we go home. As usual the road before reaching the angkot base.

Vina invited me to buy juice first, she's the jujanin, because she said taxes soan haha.

"Vi we buy juice first yu, thirsty nih. I am jajanin."

"Well, tumben. What's up? There seems to be some good news."

"Hehe I'm with Ano already."

"Are you serious?"

"Yes, it's this tax, hehe.."

"Thank God, okay. Congratulations, finally the long-awaited come too. May it be lasting, and may you patiently face Ano's attitude. Haha" Candaku's.

"Aamiin, amiain. Haha"

Arriving at the stall, I borrowed Vina's phone, because my phone died. Follow me to tell my brother Dura that he will be home later in the afternoon.

"Na, I pinjem your cell phone for a moment, want to ngabarin my brother."

"Oh yes Vi, please just take it in my bag at the front." Vina who was ordering her juice let me take her own phone.

"Okay Na."

I immediately opened WhatsApp Vina and looked for No. My sister. After I met you I sent the message. I didn't expect there to be a message from Kiki. I was very curious, doubtfully I opened the message, read whatever they were talking about. There was a message there that contained.

"Na, you saw me as a pearl, didn't you? Please don't tell Ivi yes." This message yesterday left me dumbfounded.

"Why Ki?"

"I'm afraid Ivi is crying hearing this news."

"Well, it's not good, he's gonna be a reason to stay away from you."

"Well that's it, I don't want to be away from Ivi, I want our friendship to be like it used to be. Actually I tried to stay away from Ivi just to open the heart of Ivi, if I do not want between me and Ivi there is more relationship than friends. I don't want to be away from good people like Ivi. For this he does not need to know, if he knows he will definitely feel sad and blame himself for still putting the same heart on me. He also does not want to hurt the hearts of others. If he knew I was that close to the Pearl he would be getting away from me for fear of the Pearl of Heartache. Because I know that I'm being close to one girl Ivi is always away from me. Try to understand me Na."

"Okayeh I leave everything to you. But, remember don't make Ivi wish you more."

"Nih Vi the juice."Vina came with her juice.

"Oh yes, thanks Na." I was shocked when Vina came.

"What are you Vi, so surprised? I'll see ghosts."

"Have you seen a ghost?" I try to shift the conversation and make my heart calmer.

"No, just the word people like it. Haha."

"Basar you Vi. Haha." Vina.

"Had you?"

"Na already. It's cellphone. Thanks to ya."

"Yes are the same."

"You want the pesen not to be brought home? Make your mama."

"No Na, enough of this too. Hehe." I want to go home soon, because I feel sad to see the news earlier that I read from Vina's phone.

At night, I'm not allowed to enter the cottage, because I don't feel well. I could only fall asleep in my room, trying to understand the reworked material and do the work for tomorrow.

"Yes Allaah this is a very difficult task, which I have not understood all the material replay, Arghhhh." I complained.

As a matter of course I can do it without dizziness, but because of my circumstances I became unfocused and could not work on it, I kept trying until I could. And it turns out that I couldn't find the results either. I finally decided to continue it tomorrow in class, so I could go to the ones who found the results.

I cleaned all my former study, went straight to the bathroom to brush my teeth, clean my hands and feet, and of course my wudlu because I have not done Isya prayers. After praying Isya, back to the mattress and it feels like you want to fall asleep immediately. But, unfortunately the shadow of Ano's words and Kiki's message had disturbed my mind.

"Why did Ano say that? What am I supposed to do?" I thought about that ridiculous thing, I shouldn't have thought about it.

I wanted to be like what Ano said that was, fighting for my love, but on the other hand I was embarrassed that I had to keep the feelings to Kiki while Kiki did not keep the feelings for me at all.

"Astaghfirullahal. What's on my mind, I'm sorry Ya Allaah."

I just dhikr, I want my sleep to be a blessing. I thought until I fell asleep.

.........

"Vi... Wake up!" Mom woke me.

"What time is it in ma?" I asked my mom.

"Hour 04.30 Vi."

"Back again ma."

"Eh let's get up!"

"Yes ma, yes." I woke up and went to the bathroom.

After I finished all my activities in the morning, I went straight to school.

Actually my body does not want me to go to school, it feels like just want to rest in the room. But, unfortunately that day there was a repetition and the lesson I liked was mathematics. I don't want to be left out of a replay let alone be left behind in maths.

"Ma, I'm leaving first, assalamu'alaikum." While kissing mom's hand.

"Wa'alaikumussalam, be careful on the way, may be a successful child, happy all the family." The words my mother always said.

That day I did not have any luck. Arriving in class, I re-opened the material to be repeated, because the repetition in the first hour. Feeling a little dizzy, but it doesn't matter for my grades to be good.

"Assalamu'alaikum Vi, tumben came earlier than me?" Vina's coming.

"You're very diligent, yes, it hasn't been started just open the book."

"There's a repeat, last night I didn't understand all the material."

"Oalaa, easy Vi, later also know our great value."

"No ah Na, I want to do my own repetition, with the results of my own thinking."

"You are too honest Vi, smart people rank 1 still like cheating if repeated, but you don't want wkwk."

"Yes thank God Na, no papa I can not rank also important my honesty is still I wear."

"Masya Allaah, when will I be like you Vi?"

"When did your dong change? hehe" I said to Vina.

I say it like that because of my other friends that repetitions always work together. Until one day they create a WhatsApp group specifically for replicates, all members of class 12 mipa 11 except me alone. At that time I knew about the group because one of my friends liked to talk about the group and I immediately checked one of my friend WhatsApp and it turned out to be true. I don't feel like I'm missing out on not being in that group unless I feel proud. The admins of the group trust me that I can do the replay myself. And the admin of that group are all 12 mipa 11 students. Including Kiki, Kiki entered the group probably because she is not confident in her abilities, even though I think her abilities can exceed my abilities. Maybe it was because of the innate friends in the class like that, so he was air-tossed. It is true that the environment is the biggest factor in our personality.

Once again, I sat at the front. The deadline is still 20 minutes, but my friends have all collected the results of the repetition live alone.

"Vi, you haven't?" The teacher asked.

"So Mom, two more."

"Oh yes no papa Vi. There's 20 minutes left."

"Yes, Mom."

After 10 minutes have passed.

"Mom this is already." I brought my replies to the teacher's mother.

"Thank you, thank you for being honest.." The teacher said.

I was confused by the words of the teacher's mother as if the teacher knew everything that happened.

Before entering the second lesson. I suddenly got dizzy.

"Na, I'm dizzy."

"Yes Vi, your body is also very hot, your face is pale. Let's go to the UKS." Vina checked my forehead and took me to the UKS.

"No Na, I seem strong."

"Eh Vi, you're the nosebleed."

"Where's Na?" I rubbed my nose, and it turned out to be blood.

"It's Vi!" Kiki thrusting tissue.

"Thank You Ki." Me and Vina said.

"Together." While going to his seat, did not worry about my situation at all.

"Eh Ivi why are you?" Ano came and asked.

"Ivi's dizzy No, this is also a nosebleed." Vina answered.

"Yes, we've just taken it to the UKS."

"No, no."

"You are Vi, it's hard to say." Vina scolded me because she was worried that I was scared.

"Yes Na, yes, I'm going to the UKS."

"Come on." Kiki thrust out her hand and took me to the UKS.

I was shocked, then looked at Kiki. In that moment I first looked at his face in closeness and was very clear.

"I'm the same Vina ki, thank you."

"Ah you're pretty Vi." Ano commented.

"You No, don't do it." Vina advised Ano. I did not refute Ano's words at all, just silence because I feel dizzy.

"Come on Vi, can you stand up?" Ask Vina.

"Na, I'm so dizzy."

Suddenly Kiki took my hand and placed it on Kiki's shoulder.

"I'm sorry Ki, I can't be with you." I said.

"Why Vi? Gini's emergency too." Answer Kiki.

"I'm the same as Vina."

"Vina won't take you strong."

"You're just helping me walk, time isn't strong."

"UKS is far away Vi, how about on the road you fall down Pinsan.. Let's go for it."

"Hmmm..." I walked with a very racing heart because I was near Kiki.

Arrived at the UKS

"Thank You Ki."

"Either. I'm going to class first."

"Yes ki."

"Assalamu'alaikum." Vina came to bring me my bag.

"Wa'alaikumussalam."

"Tok you got my bag?"

"You can go home said Dian."

"Well, don't want ah. I won't be going to learn math if I go home."

"Vi've ya, do I have to call your mama to pick you up?"

"Don't Na, mama I'm old and I'm old when I have to pick me up here, there's nobody in the house either."

"Yes, you've come home, yes, I've got you."

"Eh Na you have to learn. Later I ask who dong dong lesson left behind."

"Do you believe I can teach you?"

"No really. Haha"

"Basar you Vi. Haha.. "

Tutt. Vina vibrate mobile phone voice.

"Well, what's the matter No?"

"Mother Dian will not enter, so can anterin first Ivi, later to school again."

"Can you get permission?"

"It could be one person."

"Well, who's with Ivi, I can't take the bike."

"Just go on Na."

"Don't ah, you will, can you?"

"Hm... Yes, yes, I can."

"Okay awaited in the UKS, I want to ask for a license first."

"okay.".

"Where to No." Kiki asked Ano.

"You're sending Ivi home."

"Oh yeah, be careful No bring the ivinya."

"Ah you're so considerate, what kind of pearl is Ivi?" Ano asked while joking.

"Whoever can. Dindra. Haha." Answer Kiki.

I went home, there was only my mom at home.

"Assalamu'alaikum ma." I kissed mom's hand.

"Wa'alaikumussalam Vi, why is this hour home?"

"This is Mom, Ivi was nosebleed in class, so said Miss Dian can just go home." Ano.

"Oh, why are you, baby?" Ask mama.

"No papa ma, it looks like soy sauce last night was bad."

"Have rested there!"

"Thank you son Ano, already want to take Ivi home."

"Yes, ma'am, I'm saying good to you."

"Shortly, I haven't prepared you to drink."

"Father mother, Ano hastily also because he must go to class again soon."

"Well, thank you again, be careful in the way, son Ano."

"Yes, Mom."

"Assalamu'alaikum Ma'am."

"Wa'alaikumussalam."