I'm Sure He's My Match

Me and Kaka

One year passed, my activities were just busy with the lecture schedule, my days filled with Kaka. My family has known Kaka very close, as well as Kaka's family has known me very close even I was always considered a child by his mother.

Day by day my age is increasing, my mother is increasingly worried about my soul mate who? Mama only knows one man who has always been close to me is Kaka.

Until one night. My mother spoke to me.

"Vi, mama is expecting you to get married, has Ivi not thought of getting married yet?"

"Ma, Ivi really does not like it when it has been discussed or asked about marriage. Ivi has no candidate either. Ivi is not a real ma, not yet able to be a wife. Ivi is still childish."

"Honey, a wife's personality can also be realized when the marriage has occurred. Ivi don't worry about that."

"But ma, the problem is that there are no men Ivi likes and Ivi wants to be Ivi's imam."I'm not being honest about the man in my heart.

"Darling, how's Kaka?"

"Don't you? Gufron?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Mama Ivi and Kaka are just friends!" I raised the volume of my voice.

"You're wrong baby, Kaka loves you!"

"Where do you know that Kaka loves Ivi?"

"He said it to himself, mother, father."

"When? Mama must be lying."

"You don't believe in Mama? Mama to be honest, she's a responsible, brave kid. He doesn't say much to you, but he proves his love directly to mom and dad. He comes home, he reveals everything to mom and dad, he wants to live with Ivi, Ivi is the person he expects. She loves you very much, dear."

"But ma, he never said anything about it to Ivi."

"He is confused to have to state it to you in what way. He finally decided to tell my mom and dad. Now that mama has told me the truth to be with Ivi, it's all so Ivi determines the answer. Mama will not force, just Ivi please do not waste people who really love Ivi."

"Hmmmm. later Ivi thought first ma."

My days with Kaka as usual, Kaka was more attentive to me like he loved me like his own girlfriend when I had not said his decision.

Mama Kaka asked me to stay at her house, she wanted my and Kaka's marriage to speed up. I never even thought that far.

I don't want to live with Kaka's family, Kaka and I are just friends and can never be more, I open up people who are suitable for Kaka, Kaka is too good for me.

Before I had broken my family's heart, for refusing an arranged marriage made by my father with a friend of my uncle, his son was old enough to marry a girl, I felt he was a suitable man for me. Until one day a friend of my uncle and his son came to my house, with the intention of wanting to see me and talk seriously with me. I don't want that to happen, matchmaking I don't think is a good thing. I said that because I saw the experience of some friends in the cottage experiencing it and they failed in running it. Indeed, not all arranged marriages will fail, depending on us who respond to the match. I didn't want any matchmaking from the beginning, just let my heart choose who will fill this heart, without any words of matchmaking from parents. At that time, my father was very disappointed with me, because I did not want to obey what you want, even to meet the young man I did not obey him. I just stayed in the room. After my uncle's young man and friend left the house, I went straight to a very quiet place, a garden that had no idea who it belonged to. I was crying so hard there. Removing all this frustration in the heart, and feeling guilty to the father for not being able to obey his will. After that incident I no longer want to break my family's heart, I put it all to my destiny, maybe the prayer that I have always been saying is wrong, he said, the name of him that I always put in my prayer will be lost and I replace it with the truth, Gufron Putra.

A week later I and Kaka graduated, the next day the Kaka family invited me to take a vacation to Borobudur Temple, Yogyakarta. I came with permission from my mother. Mama allowed me on the grounds that you were closer to the Kaka family. I don't understand why I don't want this to happen, I want to be as close to the Kaka family as I used to be just for friendship. I'm happy to be able to add to the Kaka family, but not to be his son-in-law.

At night, in front of the inn room Kaka just ventured to express his feelings for me, telling me directly after he said it to my mom and dad.

"Vi... Kaka wants to say something to Ivi."

"What Ka?"

"Well dear Ivi, Ivi may have heard everything from mama Ivi, Kaka just dared to reveal this all to Ivi. Kaka is very fond of Ivi, afraid of losing Ivi. In the next month Kaka will go to work in Jakarta, but before that Kaka wants to make Ivi Kaka's life companion for good. Kaka can not force Ivi's heart to accept Kaka, if Ivi doubts Kaka, Ivi can not run this all, Ivi to be honest. Not for the reason that our family Ivi accepted Kaka's proposal. Kaka waited for Ivi's answer from the moment Kaka said the same father and mother Ivi, but Ivi has not yet answered him. Tonight I want to know the truth. Please answer honestly!"

"Bismillahbornrahmanirrahim, God willing Ka, I will accept you." That short answer was actually very undesirable to me, but for the sake of my family and Kaka's family I was ready to accept all of this, and I also had to accept that fate might be best for me, I should be able to forget the person I was hoping for. And accept Kaka who clearly loves me.

"Vi, are you really? From your heart isn't it because of coercion?"

"Yes, yeah."

"Thank you Ivi."

"Together Ka."

"You cold?" Tanya Kaka who saw my hands holding tight and body slightly bent.

"Nega ka."

"That's why?"

"Why-why."

"Jaudah enter gihh, it's cold here. Sleep well!"

"Yes, I went in first, assalamualaikum."

"Wa'alaikumussalam..." Kaka cut off my footprints and I fell silent right by the entrance of the inn room.

"What?"

"Good Night, beautiful dream." While smiling happily.

"Yes, Ka."