I'm Santri?

By ourselves

"Bi Ina's? Bi Ina's? Where is there in the room?"

I looked at Bi Ina's room. But not as usual. The clothes hangers that were usually solid by Bi Ina's clothes were now clean. The things I saw no longer exist. The heart begins to feel worried and guilt appears instantly.

"Could Bi Ina have run away because I've been rude to her? I don't know."

This taste is really not bad. The house is deserted, the best friend will leave, Bi Ina who does not know whether to return, and the family begins to not care.

"Touching knees." The phone in my pocket reads. I saw a message.

"De Aleya, Bi Ina's husband is sick. And now it's being treated. I'm sorry Auntie didn't take a break to De Aleya. Because in a lonely house. But Auntie called Father and Mother. He said it's okay. Sorry Bi Ina yes if while at home Bi Ina often make De Aleya annoyed."

Silent heart. He could not comment anything, his mind was lethargic and lazy to think, his mouth was locked tightly, his eyes could not bear to cry, his body seemed to want to die, weak helpless. Walking to the room alone, my feet felt very heavy. Especially having to climb stairs. Helpme. I want to just collapse this body and disappear temporarily.

Step by step I passed. And finally, I got to my beautiful room. This is the time to lose my soul and body. I want to sleep. Hope when you wake up. My problems faded and disappeared.

***

"Shaa! You sure you're not moving, are you?"

"Who said? I will always accompany you. You are my best friend who understands."

Sasha's sweet smile. It makes my heart even more unsettled. Even the answer made me sicker.

"Sha are you seriously going to stay here with me?" Both of my hands excitedly patted Sasha's shoulders. But strangely, Sasha's face turned into Bi Ina.

"You're evil De. You're evil!"

"No Bi, Leya's not evil. Just ask Sasha. Is it Sha?" I was shocked that there was Mom and Dad next to me. Where did they show up?

"Yes son, here hug Dad too. I love Aleya too."

"You lied! Everyone's lying!!!!"

My screams instantly woke me up from sleep. My breathing was so fast, my heart rate was getting higher, my eyes were glaring one way, and my mind was still fixed on my dream. Is this as bad as me?

The clock shows at fourteen over twenty-three minutes. Because of this dream my mind became fuller. Can't stand to let go immediately and be free. Especially about Sasha. I have to see him now. Maybe he's been home from thirteen.

I rushed to the bathroom. Moistened all over my body. Hoping with this, my mind and body were fresh and not stiff anymore.

***

"Sha are you home?" I went through Wa.

Seen only the message stopped in checklis grey. Usually, Sasha comes home from school and refreshes herself. Although he was a diligent child, but he never abandoned activities that contained to refresh himself. I have to go to Sasha's house. In a moment, he will go to his father's shop, far from the village. But, I have not prayed dzuhur. What happens if I pray first? Ah it doesn't seem. I will pray there. But I forgot this week I had a guest. Even so, I remember Mom's advice.

"In any case remembering God is an obligation."

I will always remember those words. My feet immediately rushed, my hands took the keys of my motorbike and my little hello kitty bag containing several books from Sasha, and not forgetting my body with his spirit pulled me to immediately meet Sasha.

"Oh my God, I'm sorry. I forgot to remember You. I will apologize to You and Sasha. Please forgive me!".

"Criccrete Breem." The typical sound of my motor matic. Don't forget my head I'm wrapped in a protective suit. And "Bismillahi tawakaltu 'ala Allah. I hope Sasha isn't angry with me. And we can be just like we used to."

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