I'm Santri?

Unaltered

The next day, I woke up when the sun was slightly raised. It was the first time I was not excited about the day. Not as usual, when Bi Ina and Sasha were in my day. Now, their existence is far from me. I don't know what I'll be like in the next twelve hours.

I saw the clock was nine in five minutes. I still lay lazily in the basket. Is this the effect of the medicine I took last night?

Time goes on, and I still break my body. There is no intention to do any activity. In fact, my stomach is getting hungry. But I am still enjoying the soft comfort of my bed.

I was bored of showing up. The clock is sixteen o'clock. It was as if time was going so fast. Suddenly my phone rang. Looks like a new message came in.

"Hows it? Have you been drinking medicine yet?" The message was from Farhan.

He reappeared when I was like this. Maybe it's time I quit my loneliness. I want to be happy like last night.

"Not Han. Oiya, where are you going?" My reply.

"Ordinary place. If you have no friends. We're just hanging out here."

"Yaudah, I'll be there Han."

"No, I'll just wait at Pak Deden's shop. Three houses from Ferry's house."

"OKAY. I met you tonight. Love you." - Love you."

I was confused as to what kind of thing to do. If I stay like this, face life with loneliness and sadness. How can I live a happy life if my days are lonely and sad? The last option to end my loneliness, the only thing I'm willing to do with Farhan. I want to be with the people I love, while still bringing happiness.

From this evening my life began to change. I had a hard time getting up in the morning, five prayers my time was gone, my school stopped, my life is now really far from what I was expecting. Even I asked myself, why do I do such a young man activity that I obviously hated him so much?

The days changed, my life began to be far from lonely. I feel like life is so good. My nights were filled with laughter in discos with grown men. My sadness is gone by simply taking anti-thrash capsules. I am free to do anything without being restricted. Everything I feel is so beautiful. No wonder so many teenagers my age love this kind of thing. In fact, I feel more comfortable like this than I have to remember God, or just sit five minutes to read the Qur'an.

Every night I come, I live in a changing world. But there's one thing I don't like the most. That is when Farhan and his friends discussed lust issues with me. They even asked me to satisfy their desires. Fortunately I'm not like women of my own age who humble themselves. Giving up their privileges is just a mere advantage, just for the lust of love, just a pity with someone. I'm not that cheap. I just want to be happy in a different way. Not to lower my pride above the taste of men. In fact, even to kiss my lips I would not. Although I sometimes regret, why did Farhan get to hold my hand. If I had been among those who thought, I would have refused. Honey, I was still a fool at the time. Give what I shouldn't give.

The morning came again, and I was still asleep. Almost every day since my night is no longer lonely. My body will wake up when the sun is up. I even quit school. My friends and school teachers came to my house. But on purpose, I closed the gates of my house tightly.

An online message from Ms. Yasmin I let. Fortunately, the school didn't have my parents' handpone numbers. So, let my parents be busy looking for what they're looking for. Maybe that way, they feel that his life is more fun even though they have to sacrifice the future of his son. I also like my world now. There is no burden, free as free.