I'm Santri?

Me and Bored

Aleya Ibtasamah Hababi, a gift from my father and mother. The name makes a lot of mood. Not for my days though.

My days are so bleak. Every time he just stared at the view of the yard with yellow sunflowers, a pond containing large koi fish, mango trees without fruit even for many years, and the high fence of the house is light blue and green.

My father and mother were known to be rich people. They don't know if a house as big as a palace is just my grandfather's legacy.

My grandfather is gone now. The news about my grandfather's death is so different. But I'm lazy to talk about it. To be sure, since grandfather is gone, my life has become like this.

Boring once alive. Although my breath is surrounded by all the facilities, from wifi, apple laptop, mobile phone, television, AC, and a basket that is so soft and cute. But that doesn't make my days colorful.

Once upon a time, my mother was at home accompanying my solitude. The days are only there for me. I asked him for anything he would give.

I also take frequent trips to the mall. Buying me a doll, is the most beautiful habit that mother always does to make her child happy.

When night came, my mother also always accompanied me to sleep while telling stories of her past. But now, he's so busy out there, helping me take care of Grandpa's company.

Now in this palace-like house, only me and Bi Ina, my housemaid, have been living for six years.

Bi Ina is very good. Even when late at night, he often reminds me to pray isya. But it's not the same as me with my mom.

As it happened today, at dawn came to me who was fast asleep.

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"De Aleya, wake up it's time for dawn prayers. Pray with Auntie." Bi Ina tried to wake me up while stroking my head slowly.

Very heavy body to immediately move from comfort. I know exactly, Bi Ina won't leave before I wake up. He'll keep waking me up.

Upset indeed. But how else, it's because of my father. Dad used to tell Bi Ina to wake me up at dawn. Every day Bi Ina wakes me up. Even in my heart, I don't like it.

"Let's go back to sleep if Aunt stays. The end of Aunt who scolded dad."

"No, just calm down. Tell me if Dede's sick again." I pulled my blanket deep. Until my whole body was closed. I hope Bi Ina leaves soon.

"Don't be so De, this is God's commandment too. If De Aleya does not pray, De Aleya will be sinned by you."

The more days my ears got tired of hearing Bi Ina babbling like that. There is not the spirit of wanting to worship, even the emotions that arise.

"Isn't Bi Ina a sinner?!" I opened my blanket while yelling at Bi Ina.

"De Aleya is not as usual. Is it because Bi Ina is no longer good?"

"It's not Bi Ina's business, just get out there. Aleya is going to sleep again. Today there is a ceremony at the school. Aleya did not want to faint again because of lack of sleep. Bi Ina knew that Aleya had a disease?"

My frustration peaked. God I no longer remember. The annoyance and the rest of the sleepiness made me lose my taste. I started to get up while pushing Bi Ina bit by bit out of my room.

"De Aleya, call it de, call it!."

"Bi Ina came out. Tomorrow don't wake up Aleya again. Aleya can wake up on her own.!" Bi Ina kept me pushing out. Up to the front of my room I closed the door hard.

I realized that such a thing I should not do. Maybe if my mom found out, I'd lose my pocket money for a month. That's very unsettling.

Never mind, fuck that, I'm headed to my bed again. The blanket did not forget I put it all over my body. I saw the phone, the clock still showed four o'clock over fifty minutes. There are two more hours to sleep. I don't want to be bullied because I often faint during the ceremony.

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