I'm Santri?

Bored Who Incarnate the Pain

"Kring! The crane!" My phone alarm sounds. The sign of a shitty Monday has come. But no problem, this morning I felt very different. My body feels fresher. Maybe my sleep effect has increased by two hours. Ah, it's not a problem, for sure, today I should be able to follow the ceremony without having to fall unconscious.

The sky was bright, the little birds were so happy, the fresh air, the dew on the roses sweetened my morning spirit.

People spring out one by one, hoping they will find the sustenance of God that can make them happy. Whether it is the sustenance of a smile, luck, material, long life, or just meet a sidekick. As I am now, God always gives me such a wonderful sustenance in the morning, a friend who always makes me happy. His name was Salsabillah Anjani. I often call him Sasha.

Almost every morning I go to school with Sasha. He's been friends with me since we were in Elementary School. And now we've reached second grade High School.

Sasha is a good friend of mine who always advises me to lose I fell down the wrong path. She is beautiful, her stature is rather high and she always wears glasses.

His habit of reading books. Whenever, wherever, a book never leaves his hand. And he always scolded me, if he knew I was close to the opposite sex.

That's because the driver is so determined not to date. Sometimes I envy Sasha's life principles. But Sasha was, after all, the sustenance that God gave me to cover up my loneliness.

"Sha, I didn't pray dawn this morning." With a small laugh hoping that he would not get angry after hearing my words.

"Why can it?" Sasha turned around with a surprised face.

"The end of Bi Ina makes a sprain of Leya's building. Kan Leya so can't stand it if it continues."

I tried to keep Sasha from getting angry. I know, Sasha cares so much about me if I make a mistake.

"That's your name, you do not keep the commandments of God. You have committed sins. Sasha said it. Whatever it is do good if we're still capable of doing it."

The loud tone, angry face, and eye gaze that I always see when when Sasha is emotional. That's how she is. Always overprotect me if I make a mistake. He was like an angel in my life. Always and always counsel me tirelessly.

"But I can't afford Sha. Hehe." Laughs a little while showing my middle and index fingers. "Piss!"

"Your commandments are really, God's commandment to make a joke." Sasha turned back and left me.

"Sa wait! The oath does not mean to make God. Sa.'s Oath.!"

The one at school.

"Look down upstairs! What time is it now? Ceremony time!" Shouted one of my teachers.

Thank goodness I'm not late. At least today I can attend the ceremony. Plus my body is so fit. Hope nothing happens.

The disciples had gathered and lined up neatly. It was time for the flag ceremony to begin. I want to see Sasha's face, if she looks angry at me. I wait until the part is called. Sasha was often appointed to read UUD 45.

One by one, event after event is done. But I didn't see Sasha. It was his classmates who showed up. Until the raising of the flag, Sasha's face had not yet appeared.

"Indonesia my homeland." Sounded like the voice guide singing.

My eyes are still searching for Sasha. Where's she.

Although I am grateful to be able to follow the ceremony so far. But, I'm not sure if I'll come to the end or not. Sasha's face I haven't found yet.

My head started to get dizzy, my back was already starting to feel wet from sweat, my legs were starting to not hold my weight, my eyes were swaying, and the view was suddenly dark. Sasha forgive me.

****

The crowd was where he went. A few hours ago they gathered here. Will he come back in the same mood? Where they stand facing one direction. Their mouths were silent with great pleasure following one after another the arrangement of events. I also felt his euphoria. But where did Sasha go? Will Sasha come with the same taste?

Change time with the passing of a second. I'm sober. I was in the school car. I was escorted home by my BK teacher.

I was surprised, from the school car that drove me home, a glimpse of my little friend's face first. He was in a crowd with a myriad of differences to what was in school.

The crowd made them cry, bleed, sick, and unmatched disability. Why did my friend turn so cruel? Wasn't that a couple of hours ago so shahdu? Even sadness will not be seen. But now, why did he come with such misery? Did he really want to make them bleed? I just saw how much pain it would be if I went in. Why did he have to be that cruel?

My consciousness is gone again. Until I was finally home. My head is still dizzy. I can't stand to put my eyes to sleep. However, there was a gaffe that made me ask, what crowd was that? So scary I saw. Even my childhood friends are. But I don't know who. Plus the burden of my thoughts about Sasha hurts more, I go home first. Will Sasha ever forgive me?