I'm Just an Ordinary Widow

I'm going !

I headed for a minimarket after, I stayed home a few hours waiting for news of Mas Raihan who never came. I plan to shift my mind now.

I remember a long time ago in college. When I was sad, lazy to eat at home, lazy to meet my family. I came here for one reason only. I don't want my family to see me sad. I chose a large cup noodle with a spicy level of nampol. I must have eaten it while crying, I will pour my frustration on the food. People won't suspect my silliness. Only Adam and Dimas knew of this habit.

I started brewing that spicy cup instant noodles. I'll shut up for a moment. I got a bottle of mineral water. After paying it to the cashier. I was sitting in a chair that was available in front of the supermarket.

I started eating the spicy noodles, and soon I cried. Other than being spicy, I was sad. So sad. I started crying sobbing. The sky was getting cloudy, as if he knew how I felt. Soon, the rain began to play its part. I intend to finish my noodles. Then walk in the rain remembering the past. When I was fragile.

Halfway back home, I crouched down and slumped my head under my hands. I screamed as loud as I could, I was sure no one would hear because the sound of my chimes would lose to the rain.

"Huuuaaaaaaa..... Hiks... Huuuuuu..."

I felt like something was protecting me, I was no longer hit by the rain. Then Takkkk!!!! He's pinching my head. Who else if not Dimas? She's paddling me. He turned off the cigarette that was almost finished then threw it away carelessly.

"Basic stupid ! Get up quickly" Dimas pulled my ears tight. Like a mother who wants to scold her child. I'm not fighting, I'm not in a good mood to argue with him. He took me in the car and took me to a big house. Still in the same complex only different blocks.

"Down keep coming in, spit ! I parked first" I nodded then entered the house. After parking he followed me inside. I was still standing in the living room, Dimas pulled me up and took me to the bathroom. "Bring first, abis it's just me interrogating !" he said and slammed the door hard. Dimas will definitely punish me severely. She hated seeing me do stupid things.

I thought to clean my body, I bathed under the splashing water without stopping my crying. After I finished using the bathrobe carelessly because there are some colors there.

I was out sneaking around, Dimas was waiting for me on the sofa in front of the tv. He put both of his feet on the table while enjoying a puff of smoke from a cigarette.

Without being asked, I sat down directly in front of him. I don't care anymore about the spicy words Dimas later. The important thing is that I am relieved to have my emotions evaporated.

"Wanna eat?" he asked, and I shook quickly.

"Tomorrow work?" I nodded twice.

"That's why don't go !" I round my eyes. What does it mean to forbid me to work?

"I went to Yogyakarta. We play at uti lo's house ! All about my work" he sucked and then smashed the cigarette smoke with a flat face.

"Lo crazy huh ? You want to take this guy away ?" I'm a little emotional on Dimas.

"Gue said the same to Adam. He agreed to my plan"

"Mas Adam? The plans? What plan?"

"Where's the phone?"

"Home at home, why?"

"Hmmm beg*o yes, go not bring a cell phone?"

"To the point, what's wrong Dim"

Dimas compartmentalized his own mobile phone and then showed a photo that had just been sent by the woman. Felicia, my husband's girlfriend.

In the photo it is clear that Raihan mas who grasped his hand is not Felicia.

Dimas showed Felicia a chat to me. I read it slowly.

"Thanks to your prayers, Raihan finally melted also me. He even willingly came all the way to see me in the hospital. Thanks Dim , you've been horrifying me all this time. I made the biggest decision of my life. I'm willing to change my faith to be with Raihan. My parents are allowed. Maybe at this time my status is the most be a wife siri. But I'm sure, Orange will not be strong and finally stay Raihan for me. Again thanks"

"Until stop, please. I'm sorry, I don't know if your reaction would be like this. I'm sorry" I kept crying. I could not face the harsh reality that I had to be combined. I better split up. I don't need a husband who's as strict as Raihan's. He doesn't love me, he doesn't love me. I should leave him. I don't want to meet him. I don't want to hear an apology from him. I don't want to hear Raihan asking permission to remarry. I'm gonna go, disappear from his life for a while. When I'm ready, I'll see him myself. I began to catch my breath again, after Dimas heard my sobs no longer heard. He broke his embrace.

"Dimas? If I go with you. What about Mom? Abah's? and Kinanti?"

"Kalo you agreed to come with me to Yogya. We're allowing them now. The rest is Adam's business. I want to punish him. I want to know what he will do after you leave" I nodded in agreement. Dimas swiftly picked up a set of women's clothes for me to wear.

"Nih wear it" he said, giving the clothes.

"Who's this?"

"Regita, this is her house. I bought it, he said he wanted to deket grandma. Next month she starts living here with her husband. His things have started to be sent here. Including the clothes" said Dimas flat.

"When is marriage? Regita has a husband. Even I've been twice" I quipped as I stepped into Dimas' designated room.

"It was me mah. Stay waiting" I who had entered then took out half my body to answer.

"Wait what?"

"Wait two things. If you are happy or if you become a widow again let me marry you" not Dimas name if you do not have a hobby teasing me.

"Foolish base !" I went back in and changed my clothes in the room.

When it was over, Dimas invited me back to Mom's house. It was afternoon then. We went into the house and sat in the living room.

Adam, who knew this, immediately grabbed my mother's hand and sat down. Kinanti was playing with Abi in front of the tv.

"Oh there's Dimas" said the mother with a smile and then sat down.

"Yes mom, are you healthy?" ask Dimas

"Alhamdulillah healthy wal afiat. What's up? how tense are your faces" she glanced at me, Dimas and Mas Adam.

Adam decided to tell it slowly. I seem to understand, I'm not angry and listen to Adam's story carefully.

"So that's ma'am" said Adam

"It is our fault, it is our fault that the parents impose the will of their children. Mother and Abah think that Raihan will accept you and love you because a little bit of Mother and Abah know their family well. If so, what can we do? Let God show you the way. If the reason is because Orange wants to calm the mind, please stay in your utu for a few days. But mom dropped the pesen. Take care and be careful. For Dimas? Mother drop off orange yes. After all he is Raihan's wife" said the wise mother, she rubbed my back. I shed haru's tears. I thought mom would scold me. It turns out my guess was wrong.

I called Kinanti and held her in my arms, I gave her understanding so as not to be disappointed about her roads which had to be postponed again.

"Mother's got work out of town. I have to go with Dimas now. No papa huh? Mommy promises that coming home will definitely buy Kinan Doll who besaaaaaaaaaaar once" Kinanti who had been moody finally showed her sweet smile. He nodded happily and hugged me.

I packed my suitcase and left the house after saying goodbye. Adam took us to xx airport. Raihan booked the flight that left the earliest.

"How much Dim?"

"Kepo. Just take a ride, I do not ask you to pay for your own plane ticket just calm hahahaha" Dimas Embracing my shoulder as usual.

Now we're on the plane, business class with the earliest flight.

Dimas is from a family. His family's efforts at LN were highly developed and successful. I have heard that they started to open their subsidiaries in major cities in Indonesia. Yogyakarta is one of them.