I'm Just an Ordinary Widow

Accepted work !

"So, how was the interview today?" mother asked as she fed my little elf Kinanti.

"Alhamdulillah everything is smooth, mother doain Jingga yes. May luck be on our side this time" I replied, then I kissed Chubby Kinanti's cheek.

"Eat a lot ya dear" while rubbing darling long hair Kinanti

I went into my room, put down my bag and took off all my clothes. It was so hot today, that it required me to take a bath in broad daylight like this. I walked to the bathroom in my room. I cleaned myself of the sweat that made my body feel sticky. I really hope that my tiredness today will pay off because for me this is the craziest day. How not? early in the morning I deliberately woke up so as not to be left behind the box car ice cube that belongs to my neighbor that I call Uncle.

Last night Uncle promised to take me to J town. I don't want to be late for the company I've been wanting for a long time. But unfortunately, it seems like God ordered me to spend a little money on online taxi drivers, even though it was only 10 minutes late, it turned out that Uncle had already left. Damn it was my fate.

Today's my job interview after I went through several stages. At the company where I applied for the job, there were only 3 candidates left, and all were women. I'm just one of the lucky ones out of hundreds of applicants, even though I'm already in the final selection stage, I'm still not sure because from the company itself still hasn't given me any news.

To be honest I was a little bit inferior because both of my rivals looked more fashionable, even though it seemed like we were the same age but at least they were not a single parent like me. I can only surrender to God, because I have tried. Let the decision be in God's hands.

I did my worship this afternoon, I grabbed a long robe or so-called mukenah from my closet.

In my worship, I always leave prayers for the deceased and all my family members. But today my request to God increased by one

"Oh my God, may I be accepted into that company. Even though my rivals are the ones who are more competent in their field. But I'm sure everything will be possible if you will. Aamiin's"

That is the kind of prayer I pray.

*******

At night, our family was in a simple dining room.

"Today the chef mba Ayu loh" said my brother mas Adam as he glanced at his young pregnant wife

"Oh yeah? is Mba Ayu well?"

"Alhamdulillah has improved, so it was maksa asked to cook the deck" said Mas Adam again

"Mother, Kinan does not want to use vegetables" the chubby cheek continued to whine as I stuffed his mouth full of vegetables. Of course I persuaded him, because Kinanti was very fond of vegetables that were actually good for his growth.

"Kinan had to eat vegetables, to grow tall like mas Abi" Abi was the first child of Adam mas age difference 4 years from Kinanti. Currently, Kinanti is 5 years old, and tomorrow is her first day in Kindergarten.

"Okay mother, add more vegetables, Kinan want higher than mas Abi" I nodded happily. Honestly, I feel sorry for Kinanti, since my husband died I chose to continue my education until I finally became what I am now. Good thing you're always on standby to keep my only daughter.

******

After eating, we used to watch television or do our own activities. This time I chose to accompany Mba Ayu who is currently pregnant young.

"What is mba?" I grimaced at the pregnant mother who was eating young mangoes these nights

"Don't you want to try? nih" mba Ayu teased me by thrusting a piece of young mango in her hand. Immediately I shook my head, seeing that Ayu's mba had made my mouth become sour instantly.

"Bw, Mba. Orange take Kinan to the room first huh. I think it's like this" I told them, then I took Kinan to the room and laid him on the bed.

I can't seem to sleep fast tonight, I purposely didn't check my email after the interview. I decided to open it tonight before going to bed. I grabbed my laptop, and then I started reading the top emails sent from where I applied for a job.

Twin Jaya Group

Bismilbornrahmaanirrahiim . I said before I lay my finger to open the message.

"Ah ? Is this really ? This ? Me ? Accepted? Alhamdulillah O Allah" with twinkles of happiness, I immediately ran out of the room and then down the stairs to Mother's room to tell the good news, then I continued to knock on Adam's room and tell him.

Everyone in this house is happy for my new job.

"So when does it start?" ask Adam

"Tomorrow your first day of work, Mas will anter you deh" said mas Adam excited

"What will be Mas Adam's job?" much

"You can get permission, late a little bit is okay" replied Adam lightly. I also nodded, quite able to reduce the cost, after all, the place of work is in line.

"Tomorrow all looking for a kost loh nduk" said Mother as she rubbed my shoulder

"Mother....." I began to shed my tears, I finally had to stay away from my family this time. My mother held me tight, and so did Adam.

"Kan Deket, only 2 hours" he said, trying to calm me down.

"Yes, if you leave early in the morning blind, do not use traffic jam" Mba Ayu chimed, I also wiped my tears.

"The desire is at the pace, but later wasteful fare yes ma'am. Insha Allah 2 weeks once Jingga try to go home to meet Kinan and all of you" Mother nodded and looked at me softly

"When will you be home?" Ask about Adam

"Next week Abah just got a day off son" replied Mother

"Wait for the mom who told you, huh?" I said to Mom, Mom nodded.

*******

The atmosphere of the haru enveloped that night, Everything rested quietly. I kept peeping Kinanti's cheek, to be honest I was sad to leave her. But this is all for the sake of pursuing my ideals, as well as for the sake of giving a better life to the future Kinanti. I've been a widow since Kinanti was in Obat, my husband suffered a disaster while he was on duty. He was shot right in the heart and head, causing him to have to leave us all. 1 year, 2 years, 3 years was hard for me. Until I finally let go of my burden. I ventured to apply for a job in the Capital. Before I applied for a job, I visited my husband's grave to tell him. Even though it was just a headstone I spoke to, at least it calmed me down.

"Look for Ridho's replacement son, Kinanti also needs a father figure" My in-laws' words always ring in the head but unfortunately I have not intended to find a replacement at this time.

******

This morning I woke up early, I took a shower and worshiped as usual. Last time I peeked at Kinanti's cheek.

"Dreams mother, wake up yuk"

Kinanti just squirmed a little without opening her eyes. I decided to leave it, I would not be able to face the morning drama with a cry of Kinanti. After that I put on my face thinly not forgetting to spray expensive perfume gifts from my college friends, he said as a memento. But where is it really possible to be remembered? so I decided to just use it, about memories? Let me keep the bottle as a memory.

I brought my suitcase, containing my personal belongings. Adam put it in the car and we both said goodbye.

"Pertain yourself to take care of your health" That's the message of Mother that I will always remember.

We arrived in front of KJ Group at 7:30 , Me and Adam have not had breakfast. We decided to have breakfast chicken porridge in front of the office.

"Where's the suitcase on the deck?" ask Adam

"I tipped the security guard aja deh mas, embarrassed to bring in kayak kayak people stop hehehe" I chanted make mas Adam laugh a little then rubbed my head affection. My age and Adam's age is quite far, adam's 35 years old and I'm soon 25 years old while the youngest Muhammad is 19 years old. Currently she is continuing her education in Yogyakarta living with Eyang Uti. Since the death of my husband, mas Adam really replaced the role of father for Kinanti, even Kinanti called him papa while mba Ayu with the name mama. I'm happy, even very happy. I'm not afraid of the lack of affection anymore.

After Adam said goodbye, we hugged him tightly. I was crying, and so was she. Many times Adam kissed my forehead, and wiped my tears.

"Now no one is taking care of you, Mas hope you can take care of yourself. Remember Kinanti, she's your spirit so you can get here" he said, and I also tightened my arms.

"Too dating don't be here dong!" Someone shouted at the man beside us. Adam immediately replied

"What's the same thing?" I ignored the man, then let him pass.

"Yes, Jingga went in first afraid late" I saluted Adam by kissing his hand and then entered into the company where I worked.