I'm Just an Ordinary Widow

He doesn't love me

After an impromptu family meeting at the mall last night. Mom kept calling Abah asking him to come home soon.

The next day Abah came home, the night after the Isya prayer we all gathered in the TV room except for the children. Abi and Kinanti were playing at Uncle and Aunt's house, the owner of a box car near the house.

Family gathering this time is not something ordinary, rather it makes me like a suspect in a crime case. My family's gaze made me awkward myself.

"Till how?" ask Abah seriously

"What about Bah?" I pretended not to understand where the conversation was going.

"The family of Mr. Sulaiman intends to propose to you for his son" I dare not look at Abah. I want to refuse but is it possible? I just want to marry the man who loves me.

"Does Orange have a choice of sump? If you want to hear Jingga answer yes. You shouldn't need to be the same orange" I said withstanding the tears.

"Alright Abah assume you agree nduk."

"Well, can't you love time? Adam did not have the heart Bah." said Mas Adam held back his crying, Mpa Ayu and I can only remain silent.

"Listen to my children. Had it been that time mas Sulaiman did not donate his kidneys to abah. You may not be able to live with your brother until now" said Abah as he grabbed me into his arms. Instantly my tears broke.

"Huaaaa hicks.. Abah never told me anything like Orange. Hix.. If you know this. hiks.. Oranges receive them from the beginning... Orange dear abah. Hicks.."

"Tomorrow, Mr. Sulaiman, the family came here to talk about your marriage. Abah sure you'll be happier after this" you rubbed my long hair.

*****

The next day, Sulaiman's family came without Delisa. I make myself as beautiful as possible, I obey the orders of Abah and Mother. I don't want to disappoint them.

I went down the stairs and towards the living room, I kissed the back of my mother's and Sulaiman's hands.

I shook Raihan's hand like a business partner. But Zayn didn't accept my handshake, he brushed it off and hugged me tightly. I gasp.

"Until now you don't have to call me brother anymore ! But if Raihan refused this marriage. Let me marry you" said Zayn to tears, I was moved by Zayn's words even though it was a joke. "Let's sit down Orange" Abah ordered . "Lepasin Orange Zayn ! Later asphyxiate him." Mommy grumbled to make Zayn take off his embrace.

I sat next to Mom and Adam.

These two families started talking about my marriage and Mr. Raihan. Everyone seems happy except Mr. Raihan . I know he already has Felicia in his heart. But for Abah's sake I do all this, I will win your heart Mr Raihan !

"Well the sooner the better, two more weeks in our hotel, Rus?" ask mr. Sulaiman.

"Just as kang mas, we are manut" replied Abah. So my wedding will be in 2 weeks? Bismillah, O Allah, I do it with sincerity to make both parents happy. Bestow happiness in the household that I will build with Mr. Raihan.

"Raihan tomorrow pick up Orange fitting dresses in Louboutique . Look for rings and gifts to carry. You married in Javanese custom. Because your future in-laws are from Yogyakarta" said Mami

"Yes mi okay" Raihan sir with a forced smile.

"I think the meeting this time was quite Rus. You should be quick to tell your mother Rus. Tell me we're gonna be besan !" mr. Sulaiman is very enthusiastic. I can't imagine if I turned it down at the time.

"Of course, I'll call Mom as soon as possible. When necessary now. Hehe"

Mr. Sulaiman's family said goodbye, then Mother and Abah took turns to me. Adam and Ayu cried while occasionally smiling at me. I don't know what's on their minds that obviously I have to try to live happily after this. I can't make them sad because of me anymore.

"That's a Kinanti ya" I said slowly

"Where's the win?" asked Abah raising her eyebrows.

"Just go to bed." I replied

"Of o'm, we go first huh" Raihan sir kissed the back of my Abah hand. Then we left, I opened the car door for myself. The basis of bod*oh is what you would expect an orange ! Of course open this door yourself unless Mr. Raihan loves you ! I said in my heart.

"Where are we going?"

"You know the answer, don't call me sir. I don't want to upset me because you still call me father"

"Certainly? what do I call dong sir?"

"As for you, names are okay"

"Not polite ah sir"

"It's up to you Airin" I thought of what a proper call for my future husband. Looks like Mas suits him.

We reached Louboutique, after which we entered and the boutique owner recommended some dresses for me. I tried it one by one. Starting from the dress that shows the back of my back.

"Where?" ask me to rotate my body in front of my future husband.

"Replace !" then I put on the second dress, which showed me my shoulder.

"This is how mas?" my future husband looks shocked by his new call. "Replace, are all the dresses here open like this?!!!!" snapping Raihan mas at the boutique owner. "Actually we have some pack" he said with a frightened face.

"Wear Airin's hijab, let it be more comfortable" she asked me gently, I nodded. I used the last 2 dresses that matched the hijab. "Yaudah Rin is good" said Raihan lifting one thumb. "Not fittings?" I asked Raihan. I have to get used to calling him mas.

"I was here before" he replied flatly

We continue our journey to a jewelry store in mall xx . "The most expensive wedding ring and the latest model, now!" raihan's orders to the jeweler's waiter. Soon the manager approached Raihan and me. "Good afternoon you have not been here for a long time, we bring the latest model for Mr. Raihan" said the manager snapped a finger to make the waiters show his latest collection.

"Select what you like" Raihan told me. I chose it right away, I don't care about the model. What I choose is the price. THE CHEAPEST !

"It's a mas" I said showing a pair of 24 million rings.

"Airin don't make me ashamed, what mommy said later. Don't look at the price, just choose the model" he said . Though I just don't want to burden your family mas !

I just choose a model that I think is good and then show it to Raihan mas.

"This is a mas" then Raihan mas tried the pair of rings "Wrap this one" With a swift shopkeeper brought it to the cashier's table.

"So 792 million rupiah sir" WHAT ? Is that true? that little ring???? I see it made.

My husband-to-be took out his wallet and he took out a black card. After making payment we came out. "His ring was omnipotent" there was an uneasy feeling after hearing the price of the ring earlier.

"Already Airin, my money will not run out if only to buy a rich ring earlier" he said flat then gave the black card to me. "Buy lingerie, any clothes, Muslim dresses, shoes, skincare, and all your needs, I wait in the food court after finishing" I nodded because I knew Raihan wouldn't want to accompany me that long. He doesn't love me.