
《I've been in the hospital parking lot.
I deliberately sent Reza the message so that she waited enthusiastically for me - waiting for every second that accompanied my footsteps that led me to her.
But who would have thought, I saw Alfi and Salsya in the park in front of the hospital. I who originally wanted to meet Reza immediately in the ward - even turned towards the park. Mayra and I had intended to eavesdrop on their conversation, but baby, there was little I could hear.
"It wasn't my fault, Fi. Nara is wrong. Try if he doesn't hurt Reza, Reza can definitely protect himself. It won't get this way. Reza almost died because of Inara, not me."
I don't know how I felt at the time, I must have been quiet. I want to be angry at Salsya's words, but I can't either, because my heart justifies her words. For I am Reza wounded, for Reza is careless and weak.
"We'd better get in, come on." Mayra pulled my hand back to Reza's ward. "I didn't go inside, I just wanted to make sure you came back here." Then Mayra hugged me. "Take care of that poor guy, all right? He has no one but us."
I nodded even though my brain and heart were not in sync. I was suddenly like an idiot who had a hard time digesting every single thing and every word I heard back then.
"Wait for what else? Come in, gih."
Oh my God, if there had been a criminal who wanted to plunder all my things, I might have just let it happen. In fact, if Mayra hadn't dragged me and led me to the front door of the ward, I probably wouldn't have gotten there.
When I went into Reza's ward, it turned out that Erik was with her. They're discussing something.
"Sori," I said.
I was just about to turn around and get out, but Reza immediately prevented me. "Where are you going? Here," he said. "You don't have to go out." Reza immediately told Erik to continue their chat at a later time. A subtle language to tell the young man to come out and say goodbye.
Damn, I still can't control myself and still stare there - near the door.
"Darling?"
"Emm?"
"here."
"Oh, yeah. Yes, Mom," I said nervously, then I approached.
As I sat in front of her, Reza held my hand tightly. He seemed to be saying something. Gently, yet wholeheartedly, Reza placed both of her hands on my face. She held me like that, her gaze so sharp, as if she was photographing me with her inner eyes. There -- on that handsome face, there were faint twinkles of peace that manifested a wide, gentle smile.
"I love you" he said. "You know that, right?"
"I love you too" I said after nodding.
"thank you. Thank you for saving me from death. I owe you my life."
I looked at him -- with dilated pupils plus both furrowed eyebrows, astonishment.
"Why didn't you tell me I lost a lot of blood and you gave me your blood?"
The sentence made my mouth round, I wanted to say oh-a natural reaction after understanding the meaning of his words, but no sound was heard.
"Alfi told me," he said.
"Yes, equally," I replied while nodding. "It's my fault anyway, right? I caused everything. If I hadn't hurt you, you wouldn't have been hurt, wouldn't have let my guard down when those people attacked you."
Reza smiled, almost laughing. "Who blames you? Did anyone say that?"
"Salsya," I said frankly, without covering up, but also not meaning to complain. I just answered honestly and as is.
Reza raised my bowed face, a face that implied guilt that made me not dare to look at her. That's why I hid my face by directly slamming into his embrace. "It's not your fault" he said. "It was my own fault. Do you remember the first time Salsya met me in Bali? That time you slapped me because Salsya hugged me. Remember?"
"Yes, I remember" I almost laughed, because I knew where we were going.
"It's not just a slap you'll receive" I said, reconnecting his words - my own words.
"Well, that's what you remember. So, you're innocent. I was wrong. I hope I don't do it again, otherwise - maybe you'll kill me."
I straightened my shoulders, breaking out of his arms. "I'm not gonna kill you, you know!"
Reza smiled a naughty smile. "Then? What are you gonna do?" ask her in a seductive tone. For sure he hoped and thought I would react the same way as he did, answering him mischievously.
Yep, I approached him, to his face, I looked at him with defiant eyes, then I touched his chest with one finger. "I'll show your heart how it hurts when your lover is hugged by another man."
Reza's face instantly turned sour, but his eyes remained sharp. "You are not a cheap woman, and you should not try to be cheap" he said.
I took my face away from her and I gave her a wry smile. "It's certainly not like that." I stood up, about to go to the toilet, but I stopped and turned around. "Maybe I'll change my mind, maybe a friend's love will be more beautiful than a lover's love. After all, the future with a doctor is much more promising, right?" I left him and went straight into the toilet.
I don't know how much it hurt to hear my words. I also don't know if Reza will be jealous or not. What if he's jealous? That's good, that's what I was hoping for. So that he may know how sick I am whenever he sweetens in front of Salsya.
Reza was standing at the end of her bed when I came out of the toilet. He looked straight at me. "Why did you get off the bed? Going to the toilet?" I asked as I quickly approached her.
He nodded, but did not answer my question. When I took her back to the bed, she pulled me by wrapping her hand around my waist. While one more hand was raised -- he put one finger on my face. "Never leave me" he said.
"Can you talk softer? That was an order, not a request. It's like a threat" I protested.
Haha! Succeeds. I like him begging me. Reza grabbed and put my hand on her face. "Please, don't ever leave me. I beg you, I don't want to live without you."
I smiled, this time a sweet smile. "It depends on you, Mom. If you are always faithful and never hurt me again, I will always be here, by your side. But, just once, or just a little bit you hurt me, I will never want to survive. I will never hesitate to leave you. You must always prove that you are worthy of my defense."
Reza nodded wordlessly, she immediately hugged me tightly. But I was sad, because Reza said nothing, he did not promise to be faithful and did not promise not to hurt me again. As if...
Without saying anything, he put the earphones into my ear. When I heard the music, I understood, he wanted to dance with me. Really ridiculous patient.
"Slow down and don't carry me" I said, reminding him of his surgical scars.
He nodded --understanding and agreed not to be hyperactive. We danced on the floor of the hospital room, while Christina Perri's voice was melodious in A Thousand Years. Reza stood tightly in front of me singing along, her arms hugging my waist. Suddenly a strange, somewhat surrealistic feeling permeated my body, all of this felt so natural. Had an angel come to me at that moment and give me the option of spending all eternity in Reza's arms, listening to her sing close to my ear, and feeling her warm breath on my cheek, I will do it without a doubt.
Reza smile. "I love the smell of apples in your hair" she said, just after the song ended, while I was still in her arms.
"I like it too" I said.
"I like your face back fresh."
"Mmm-mmm...."
"I'm sorry I kept you here for days."
"It's okay, I like being with you. You don't have to feel guilty."
"Thank you, you're willing to dance with me, a silly patient."
Jiaaah.
"Thank you, because you always accompany me through every difficulty."
Well, I nodded. "What else?"
"Thank you for coming back here so quickly, because I haven't eaten. Suapi, huh?"
Hmm. spoiled base. Meal time should wait for me?