Heart Diary

8

Why is my life so often so miserable?

Pensive and constantly pensive. From morning to evening, I was pensive.

"Sir Zura! The phone!" Atie's sea surprised me from daydreams.

Immediately I headed to the living room to answer the call.

"Hello!"

"Zura, Normah here. Tomorrow comes work?" ask Normah for certainty. I've been on vacation for a week, Normah asked.

"Why? Much to the toughest work?" I returned without giving any more answers.

"That's a lot but Mr. Shahrul told me to ask Zura," tell Normah honestly.

"Whoa until the message? The phone in his office was broken into?" I asked along with a satire.

"It's not so, Zura. Actually this evening Mr. Syahrul was directed to Langkawi for one week. So he ordered that Zura would come to work tomorrow, he told Zura to come with Mr. Nordin. Mr. Nordin will come and send Zura as long as Mr. Syahrul is not there" said Normah at length.

Whahuh? To Langkawi? Why not be honest with myself? She upset? Or maybe he feels it with my attitude? Brother Shah! Forgive Zura.

"Thank you, Normah for delivering Mr. Syahrul's message. Change it, I'll talk to her myself," I replied and continued to put the phone handle to where it came from.

I was back at the window. What I was thinking increased. Shall I call Abang Syah asking how is the news or just message Normah?

After a long thought, I continued to the living room to call Abang Syah. I haven't gotten my handle up yet, the phone has been ringing aloud. I just keep lifting it up.

"Hello!"

"Dragon!" It was hanged as soon as I heard Abang Syah's voice.

"Well to call my brother, why not call? It is not good to lie" said Abang Syah began the conversation.

"Zura didn't lie. Actually..."

"I'm not bad at excuses anymore, Zura. I know, Zura is still angry. But not why. Oh yes Zura, tomorrow want to come to work?" Pintas Abang Syah before I could explain the real thing.

My heart is back. I tried to get better again but it seems that Abang Syah did not give me that opportunity. Lost the joy that just wanted to start.

"Son" I replied a word. Why does my heart suddenly feel different. I'm heart-eating again. Too soon this soul is touched. True said Abang Syah, as early as the meeting first, I feel the person but why did he not try to understand?

"Okay, Zura. Brother tell Mr. Nordin now. Hye!"

I haven't had a chance to quibble yet, the phone's handle has been placed. Hollowly.

This morning I went to work with Mr. Nordin.

"Why Mr. Shahrul, Zura?" About Mr. Nordin that morning. On the way to work.

"Why anything else, Mr Nordin?" My problem is not understanding back.

"I noticed that in a week two, he was engrossed in a bad mood. He has a personal problem with or Zura fighting with him?" Mr Nordin was clearly with a question

"Why associate with me too Mr Nordin?" About me again.

"Without. Hasn't Zura been the closest person to her. Zura's cuisine doesn't know" Nordin said.

"I was in a meeting with him, but there was something closer to him" I explained. In the subjugation I showed you there was actually another feeling present.

"Entah Zura, but recently there I saw a woman coming to see him. But that's all I see once. At the sight of my eyes, the woman was not as friendly as a lover. Mr. Syahrul is, too, "tell Mr. Nordin without question.

"If ye, too, would not want to be loved by his affection, Mr. Nordin," I replied appropriately.

"Zura this looks kind of jealous. Anything to this?" Allegedly Mr. Nordin.

Without me knowing, Mr. Nordin has read my heart. Malunya.

"No is, Mr. Nordin. Only! After all I know who that woman is," I said creating an excuse. Lucky came the idea. I can also hide my shame. Mr. Nordin just smiled at my excuses. Whether he believes it or not, I'm not sure.

The place that was taken has arrived. As soon as the train stopped, I saw Normah waiting. Quickly he helped me get out of the train. The weirdo! Before this there was no one who helped other than Abang Syah. Presumably Normah just want to show well in front of Mr. Nordin who has been married and has two children. Is there a heart for this Normah slave to be the number two wife of Mr Nordin? The feeling of laughing!

"Eh, Normah! What dream are you? You never helped me before like this?" About me as soon as we got into the store.

"Can't I make a virtue, Zura?" About simple Normah.

"Can't not. Nice what. But why do you think so now?" Aboutus back.

"It's not important to answer, Zura. More importantly, the accumulated work please prepare quickly. The master wants to come take it today." Normah's pretext while directing me to prepare the photostat work buried in my desk.

I continued my work as usual.

"Assalamuayla!" The voice of the customer greeted me outside.

"Vaalaikumussalam. Want to get that photostat paper last night?" Ask Normah to the customer.

"Yes. I'm the one who's not coming back, brother?" About that customer.

I emerged from the water chamber. Just got out of the toilet.

"What's up, brother?" About suddenly.

"There's nothing. Just a long time no see, right," replied the customer was friendly

"Delayed to?" Joking.

The customer is shy.

"The blackmail!" Normah Rubbish.

I'm a little chuckle.

"Yes, why?" Back then.

"I'm amazed by the talent that sister has. What name... Village Rose?" I want certainty after I have researched his work.

"The Rose of the Village is my pen name. My real name is Mashitah Abdullah, but close friends call me Dik Roses" the sweet girl explained.

"I don't call Dik Rose Jelah. Name of akak Azura. Call aje Kak Zura. I'm the one with the fly under the nose, it's Normah, call Kak Nor." I know the Rose.

Normah seems to be cheating on me.

"Sister Zura has no interest in writing the rhyme?" About the Rose to Me.

"Interesting that interest as well, Dik Roses but I don't think there is no talent," said I humble myself.

"Talent no, it's okay Kak Zura but the important interest," said Dik Roses again encouraging.

"It used to be school, I never wrote, but only halfway. My work has only ever been published in school magazines," beeitahuku recalls the school age.

"Unfortunately, brother. To become a writer, you must not give up, Brother Zura." The Light of the Roses again. I'm very interested to hear it. Almost the time of rest has arrived.

"Eh! Have this break, let's go eat Dik Roses. Kak Zura shopping. After all, Kak Zura is still interested in wanting to know more about the world of this writing." Ajakku.

"Oi, I'm definitely getting a new friend, so don't invite me once," nosy Normah.

I was able to sneak up on him before circulating to the diner next door.

I made a new friend.

I am very friendly with the Rose. It's fun to hear his chatter. Since meeting him four days ago, every day the rest time starting at Dikir Roses must have come. We share stories together. It just so happens that his workplace is not far from here.

Overnight Dik Mawar came with the poetry notes obtained through the writing workshops he had participated in. I am no longer silent. My interest in the world of writing is growing. He added again with the spirit and encouragement of DikRawar which earnestly gave instructions.

Today why did the Rose not appear again? The clock shows at 12:45 noon. Presumably Dik Rose is too busy today. Unwhy.

"Hi! The sister hasn't come back?" About Normah all of a sudden.

I jerked.

It won't come every day, "I try to make my own heart come.

Normah just shook her head.

I'm continuing the work. New work. Does not use a lot of energy but uses a lot of sense and mind.

Soon I heard people greeting me. Quickly I looked up.

"Vaalaikumussalam. Oho! You're Dila. Remind me to come with Abang Syah to Langkawi," I said.

"Are you saying this, Zura? Brother Shah is not my lover. Why would I want to go with him anywhere?" Reply Dila firmly. Another right I heard his tone.

"I am angry at you." Usikku's looking for his reaction.

"Indeed I should be angry, Zura, if that's your accusation to me" Dila replied again. Seriously his face looked at me.

"I'm not accusing you, Dila. You're tu..."

"What are you, Zura? Why isn't it frankly aje that you're jealous of every time I'm with Brother Shah?" Reply Dila connected my severed words.

I heard the words coming out of Dila's mouth.

"Dila, I think you're making accusations too much, not me!" Loud say.

"Zura, I have come not to fight but to be sure. What have you said to Mr Nordin?" Dila asks for certainty.

Once again I was shocked to hear his statement.

Oho! So before you come here, you go first to Abang Syah's office? Presumably when there, of course Mr. Nordin asked. I forgot to tell Mr. Nordin to keep what I said but to do what, the rice has become porridge. I have to face this issue.

"Jawab Zura, answer me!" Silent Screeks.

Is it true what happened? It's true that Dila wanted to make a calculation with me.

"Alright, Dila. I did tell Mr. Nordin that you are closer to Abang Syah than I am. That's all," I replied.

"About? Won't that be all?" Dila is not satisfied.

"After that I have assumed that you are the son of Abang Syah! Satisfied?" My reply started to catch the wind.

"You have no evidence to accuse me of that, Zura. You don't know what the truth is!" Dila was still angry.

"Already, Dila. You remember I didn't know your close relationship with Abang Syah?" Steady again.

"Zura, you'll know everything later" Dila replied before retreating. This time the tone was slower and emotional.

I looked at Dila's words. There was a mistake behind his words. I wanted to disentangle the meaning of his words but Dila was gone before me.

You will know everything later...What exactly do you mean, Dila?

Brother Syah. Before this, never once did Dila and I clashed with apatah tongue again with face. Is it already? That is if you have lust. Severely so.

"Already, Zura. Not because of men, you and Dila are face-to-face. It's not nice that way. Don't cry anymore" said Normah.

Unbeknownst to me, tears were already streaming down my eyelids.

"I didn't expect to be like this, Nor. I am the guilty one. Too emotional, "I regret it.

Uh! What am I supposed to do now? I don't want Brother Shah to know. The shame! Worrying even more, if Abang Syah knows for sure the secret of my heart will be unraveled.

Nay! No!!!!