Heart Diary

2

The day that perit with the problems that hit me was forced to go through. In silence I began to acknowledge and persuade myself that this life was never promised with extended sweetness and bitterness. Cloudy is not always marching, bright is not always peaking. Today you're happy, Airi.and I'm hurt. When you laugh I cry. When you dumped my love, I suffered. In the time you partied ria, I was burned by a miserable fire.

The pain begins to feel. I realized I had been in the hospital for a week. During that period, only once did my stepmother come to visit. It came after Doctor Rashdan's message to send clothes.

During my stay here, I was often accompanied by Doctor Rashdan. In silence, I admitted that the young doctor was a kind and gentle doctor. It can also be noticed by his service to the patients here. In addition to Doctor Rashdan, other patients also occasionally come to talk to relieve their loneliness.

Ibu Rasidah, the patient placed next to me is also a kind and helpful person. His hands were wrapped, but both his legs were still functional.

"Zura!" One voice in my ear. Although I have not turned to the direction of the voice, but the voice I have always heard. It's not wrong, Doctor Rashdan called. When I looked at him, a smile flowered on his lips.

"Hey. Zura, I noticed Zura is like a person in distress for a few days now. What's...Is Zura tired of staying here or is Zura waiting for someone who hasn't come"? Guess Doctor Rashdan in a joking tone.

I was surprised to hear that question. Immediately I tried to relax. I don't want Doctor Rashdan to suspect something I've been hiding from him. I glanced at Doctor Rashdan's face before me. From the reaction of his vow, I noticed Doctor Rashdan as if waiting for an answer from me. I can't bear to let Doctor Rashdan wait.

"I don't wait for the doctor to get ready. I only remember my fate. Doctor look at it for myself, almost the week I stayed here, no one came to visit. Others, I noticed that there were guests who came to visit but me..." The heartache in the soul I can't hold anymore.

Immediately my memory of Dila, my closest friend who is now continuing his studies in America began to drift. Once upon a time when Dila was still here, she was a friend of the deceased mother's bride and she was also a true friend, a place to pour out all trouble.

It's been a year since Dila I didn't take it. Did Dila also forget me, people who are often in loneliness? Dila, why do you keep sidelining yourself when I need you so much? Is it your boss, do you hear the moans of my heart every time? My heart whimpers to itself.

"Zura, I understand and understand how Zura feels. If I were in Zura's place, I would be, too" Doctor Rashdan told me a few times.

Uh! Doctor Rashdan, you definitely won't feel the way I feel right now.

"Zura, there's actually something I want to say. Before that I hope Zura can be patient in hearing this decision. Break Zura's heart in the face of everything." said Doctor Rashdan while researching the file in his hand.

I was speechless at Doctor Rashdan's words.

" Is he a doctor? Explain it. God willing, I will try to strengthen myself to face whatever the doctor's decision," I said to give guarantees. Even so, my chest started to choppy.

"Zura, actually your legs can't work for now. You can only move with the help of a wheelchair. Your feet can be healed but it takes a long time. It's just through training and..."

Not yet had Doctor Rashdan finished the words, my tears started to wet my cheeks.

"No need for the doctor to explain

any more. I am not willing to listen to everything. I know I am now disabled. Let me be deformed for ever, "my reply sobbed.Tangisku decided the words of Doctor Rashdan.

Morning is again.

With the help of a wheelchair, I am now moving there and here in a limited state. I was pensive to hear Doctor Rashdan's question. I don't know how to give an answer. I am in a dilemma now. To be told to the mother, worrying will add a burden. If not told how to get home.

Seeing that I didn't respond, Doctor Rashdan spoke again.

"Zura, I know it's hard for you to give me an answer, how about we send you home？I can also meet your family." Doctor Rashdan Spare.

Again I was surprised. Why did Doctor Rashdan take the trouble to bring me home? I know it's Doctor Rashdan's job to take care of patients, not to carry the burden. In the wrong situation, I quickly spoke.

"No why..." I don't know why I can't keep up the words. My mind is getting bigger.

"Zura tomorrow afternoon you're ready. I'll send you home. Don't you worry, I sincerely helped." after speaking those words, Doctor Rashdan continued to pass leaving me in a state of thought.

After Doctor Rashdan left, I was still there. While treating my feelings, I threw my eyes out the window. Seeing people passing by and watching the panorama of nature that is so beautiful.Once when it is seen the two men together with their respective partners are making out and clapping, the memory and then back to mind. Oho! Memories, how hard it is for me to forget.

"Eh, Zura!"

Suddenly I heard a voice calling my name. I immediately turned around. It was not Doctor Rashdan but who? I saw the young man who called my name looking right at me. I tried to figure out who that guy was.

"Abang Shah!" Suddenly it came out of my mouth that name. No kusangaka Abang Syah, my foster brother whom I knew ten years ago is standing in front of me now. Back to memories with Abang Syah in school ten years ago. Between happy and moved feelings are now united in my heart.

"Zura, forgive brother for not contacting Zura all this time. Since the end of school, we have never met directly.But believe me, Zura.abang never resembles Zura in the life of brother."

It was only when I heard the explanation of Abang Syah that I never forgot in the arena of brotherhood between brother and foster brother. Only when I was first seen Abang Syah earlier, I could not condemn it. After all ten tahum.pastinya have many changes that occur.

"Abang, Zura didn't expect that after ten years of our separation, we were destined to meet again."I express what I am feeling right now.

"Yes, Zura. Brother came back here to fill the work vacuum, "admit Abang Syah as his eyes could not be seen in my face. Probably because they haven't seen each other for too long.

"Well, what's the big brother here for? Want to fill the void here?" I asked in a joking tone.

Brother Syah smiled welcoming my joke. What a sweet smile you have, Brother Shah. Who can have the heart of Abang Syah, must be lucky, my heart said.

"No is, Zura. Actually, my brother came to visit my mother. He broke his arm in an accident a week ago. Brother actually just found out because when my mother had an accident, my brother was working abroad." explained Abang Syah while pointing a finger at Bu Rasidah who was placed next to me.

After hearing the explanation from Abang Syah, I know that Bu Rasidah who has helped me a lot is the mother of Abang Syah. After I told everything that had happened to me so that I was abandoned here, Abang Syah also understood.

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