Heart Diary

9

The rose is again.

"Sister Zura, I look at Kak Zura like people in anxiety today, why?" about Dik Roses.

"There's nothing, Rose," I replied trying to hide the real thing. I'm sorry, you know, because I can't share this story with you.

"Sister Zura, is Brother Zura unwell? Pale aje I look at my face." Clearly ripples of worry were emanating on Dik Roses face.

"No," I replied succinctly.

The rose is looking at my face.

I became wrong. What reason should I give that the Rose Dik will not continue to ask?

"How about the work that Kak Zura created? Ready or not?" about Dik Roses.

Fortunately, the question asked no longer revolves around the first question.

"Oh, that rhyme. Ready, brother. Nah! Please be kind if something is wrong. If there is an inappropriate word, please replace it with another word" I asked.

The rose reached the paper I was pointing. Then they examined one by one the words I wrote.

"Oh this, Brother Zura. Keep working. If Kak Zura wants to re-examine the process of making a poem or short story, Kak Zura can read the work of famous writers. Perhaps with a lot of reading and studying, Zura Kak can produce the best work." The Rose Spare has given me a burning spirit.

I just smiled hearing the Rose Reserve. The words of the Rose have given me the courage to continue working. Thank you, Rose.

"By the Rose, Brother Zura will continue to strive to be an accomplished writer." My promise to Dik Roses, my interest in the world of writing is growing.

"Oh yeah! Brother Zura, if Kak Zura can register to become a member of the author association. Many activities that Kak Zura can follow later are related to this writing field, said Dik Roses again.

"Where's that, Rose?" about me not understanding.

"This is how, Brother Zura. tomorrow or the day after I will come again to bring the form of expertise. Later after being ready to be filled, Brother Zura can leave it to me to be sent to the official of the Terengganu Literary Association," spares Dik Roses again.

Your heart is good, Rose.

"Thank you, brother. Let's go out to eat, "take me. Immediately I, Normah and Dik Roses went to the diner to fill the stomach.

When I arrived at the dinner table, I ordered food.

"Nor, I'm lucky to know our sister. Since I was exposed to the writing world by Dik Roses, I think the time of luangkubdah is filled a lot," I told Normah.

The Rose smiled shyly. He feels appreciated.

"That's it, Zura. But ever since you started writing this, I've seen you getting stronger pensive" Normah replied.

"Waiting to find the idea la tu Kak Nor," until Dik Roses too.

I'm breeding.

"It seems that his style increases that another writer who colors the world of writing the homeland," praised Normah also in a satirical tone.

I know Normah insinuated me.

"If you are also interested in increasing another person," I should reply to the insinuation. Face-to-face!

"Sorry, Zura. I'm not the jiwang-jiwang kind," replied Normah bluntly.

"Rug you, Nor. Dik Roses said this author can make money," told me while turning towards Dik Roses.

The rose gave me a smile.

"No matter what, I'll have you later, Zura" Normah replied again.

As soon as the food we ordered arrived, we started to taste. While engrossed I faced sustenance suddenly my eyes felt like looking back. The friendly voice that was heard then next to me had stimulated me to make it so.

Be worthy! Dila, you're cruel!!

My eyes stared intently at the face of Dilah and the man next to him. Until your heart, Brother Shah! Go home without telling me a word That's it, purposely come here to ponder the romance with my best friend. Intentionally to hurt my heart!

"Sir Zura!"

"Sir Zura! Brother Zura tenung who is that?" The sound of the Rose.

Shaken me from the daydream.

"Encik Syahrul and Dila!" Normah suddenly made a sound. Maybe because the sound of Dik Roses that surprised me from the daydream forced Normah to suspect I was looking at two lovers.

"Shy!" I immediately motioned to Normah that it would not be brought to the Rose. Shame that this is known!

"Why Zura? Like there's hiding something from me aje?" about the Roses after that. The natureak! What am I supposed to say?

"No is, Dik Rose. Uh! Forgetit. It's close at 2." My excuse is not a ruse. Let the. Whatever comes out of my mouth, I say it. In order to save the situation.

"There's nothing, Brother Zura. I see Kak Zura nervousness aje looking at those lovers? What... They're gonna have to hit the. with Kak Zura?" tanya Dik Rose wants certainty.

I'm trapped again. Regret me according to the will of the heart. Now what's it going to be? Should I tell the Rose?

I was silent not answering. Norma is too.

The rose is still waiting for my words.

"Dik Roses, forgive Kak Zura for not being able to tell a long story about this situation. But enough, Brother Zura said that the lovers who were next to our table had something to do with Kak Zura's life." There was no other answer I gave besides that. It is up to the Rose to understand it for yourself.

"Did you? What does the Rose Understand?" sujurus after that

"I understand the feelings of Zura. Surely that man had appeared in Kak Zura's life. And now Kak Zura is certainly disappointed with his attitude." Tafsir Dik Roses.

I don't know what kind of Dik Roses easily really catch what's playing in my mind. True said Dik Roses! Brother Syah astrasy as ever.. oh no! I'm ashamed to confess! Embarrassed. Shame because I am a woman. A woman does not have to make up for expressing love to a man. I have to hold on to those words.

"That's it, Brother Zura. Just forget him. In this world, he is not just a man. A lot more, right? Yes, it is true people say. flowers are not a flower, beetles are not seekilor," said Dikir Roses.

I know the words of the Rose are only for the sake of my heart. Forget it. indeed the expression forget is easy to pronounce but to be practiced instead of happy.

" Thank you, Rose. Right said Dik Roses, other men are indeed crowded in many of that we rarely find men who are really sincere," I reply to give release.

"Alah Kak Zura, I am happy to introduce aje Kak Zura with my brother. Fortunately later, Brother Zura became my brother-in-law slapped." The Rose tried to joke.

"Isyy.. that way, Dik Roses here," I said shyly. There to deserve! The rose was about to wear me.

"What...Brother Zura wouldn't want me to take Kak Zura as my sister-in-law?" Allegedly Dik Rose.

It is true he seems!

"Dik Roses, Kak Zura is not unwilling but. able to Dik Roses see later brother Dik Roses rose a guarantee with a disabled person like Kak Zura ni," my words express what I feel.

"What's wrong, brother. Honesty lies in the heart. It does not lie on the feet or physical deformities. After all, I am sure, Kak Zura's legs can be healed if Kak Zura tries to meditate or always practices walking," said Dik Mawar anyway.

"Who's the son of a bitch, the Rose? Brother Zura is not the son of the people. Let Brother Zura continue like this. If there's a soul mate, go where," I reply again.

"Sister Zura, Brother Zura, want to know? My brother is a doctor. If I introduce my brother to Kak Zura, maybe my brother can help with Kak Zura's problem" said Dik Rawar.

Uh! How could a doctor be compared to someone like me.

"That's a big place, Zura. People want to introduce you, lose if you sell expensive." The trash of Normah that has been silent since. Just being a loyal listener.

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The silent morning.

"Zura, why silence aje ni?" about Abang Syah as soon as I was in the car. Indeed, from Abang Syah until now I did not say a word. Only.

"Don't you ask me about the place you went?" Abang Syah still wants to lure answers from me.

I remained silent. This is my attitude when the heart is hot. Instead of clashing my tongue about something I am not satisfied with, I would rather be quiet. Elak tension.

"Zura, it's fun to know that you've been in Langkawi recently. But if Zura is with his brother there, it's fun. A week there, miss also brother to Zura," said Abang Syah.

Be true or just take heart! It is said to persuade that. Sorry, bang... Zura isn't the kind to eat pejuk fast. Once my heart burns deck of your attitude, ten times this heart harbors a sense of.

Abang Syah no longer spoke but occasionally by me next door. Smile. What's the matter about this brother Shah, no wind without rain, suddenly smiles at me. This must be nothing! Soon my memory flew to Dila. I think Dila told me what happened three days ago. Uh! Maluny. Shaykh should be engrossed in a smile every time he looked at me. Proudly presumably..

"Zura, has it happened when you were in Langkawi recently?" about Abang Syah again.

I've kinda! This is Dila must tell me. Otherwise Abang Syah wouldn't have asked that.

"Don't pretend with Zura, bang. If you know why you don't know anymore?" My anger erupted suddenly but I was trying to control the voice so as not to be too loud. I still know who I am talking to.

"Zura, why is that? Why not go out with your brother?" about Abang Syah again. This time the questions asked really challenged my feelings. Frankly, what do you mean Syahrul?

"Abang, Zura does not tell that brother wants to choose anyone as a special human in the life of his brother. But is it wrong that Zura just wants to know it from Dila? Is it wrong that Zura wants to care about Zura's foster brother?" my words let go of the rasa that I have in my heart.

"Dark..." That's all that came out of Abang Syah's mouth.

"Abang, believe me Zura considers brother to be nothing more than a brother!" Really it? I had to say so to defend my face. I can't say hunter. Love hunters in the pancaroba forest. Competing also with people who both want to taste romance.

I saw Brother Shah jerking. His face immediately turned pale.

"Zura, forgive brother!" The sentence was lethargic.

"There's no need to apologize to Zura because Zura has forgiven you forever. May your relationship with Dila be maintained."

"Zurais... Zura had mistaken."

"Zura, Zura was not mistaken anymore. If there was a brotherly soul mate with him, Zura was overjoyed."

My words seem to be ignored.

"Zura doesn't understand" replied Abang Syah slowly.

"Zura thinks Zura's been understanding for a long time." You're the only one who never understood my feelings.

"Zura, Zura will know everything later" said Abang Syah.

Validly! You and Dila are keeping secrets. The same words I heard from their lips.

The journey has arrived at the destination. Before getting out of the belly of the carriage, I first relayed the order.

"Repair later brother does not suck to invite Zura to eat. Zura has an appointment with Zura's foster sister. After all, Zura doesn't want to disturb his brother's sister with his baby brother," pesanki.

Brother Shah I noticed only shaking his head. Face-to-face!