Heart Diary

15

Sweet meeting that day.

For the first time, today I went to work by bus. I don't want to trouble Abang Syah anymore. Do not want to disturb the relationship between Abang Syah and Dila. I really hope that the actions I take will strengthen the relationship again. Let me sacrifice. Sacrificing for my own friends and foster brother.

I arrived at work today a bit later than usual.

"Why are you, Zura? You're fighting again?" about Normah of the water.

"No is, Nor. I just want to take the bus once in a while. Wrong to?" my answer.

Normah. Hurt it! Believe it or not, but for sure, I lied. No need for me to be blunt. If I had been straightforward though, Normah wouldn't have understood. I'm sorry Nor, it's about heart and feelings. I continued my work as usual.

"Oh yeah! Zura, did you read the newspaper today?" about Normah back.

"Yet, why?" I keep questioning.

"Why what? Make-up do not know sharp," replied Normah selamba.

"You mean, my rhyme?" about me wanting certainty.

"Know too. You are, Zura I always see a problem. Even if you're not being straightforward with me, I can dive into your heart and feelings so much that the problems you're having get carried away in the rhyme you produce" Normah said at length.

Pensively hold me for a moment. What else is my real problem.

"I'm surprised you're here, Zura. You have succeeded now. Whatever your dream is done now. You used to not walk, now you're ok. You used to be interested in becoming a writer, now it has been achieved. What else do you want, Zura?" Keep Normah up again.

"True Nor, the dream that I wanted to achieve first has now been fulfilled but in part. There is still something unfinished" I replied weakly

"You're weird, Zura," Normah concluded.

"Indeed people often say I'm weird. But people never understand my heart and my feelings" I said.

"For you are a soldier, Zura. Because it's hard for other people to understand your heart and your feelings" Normah replied again

You don't understand Normah either. Everyone doesn't understand.

Immediately I looked for the newspaper that Normah intended. Just as I wanted to reach the newspaper on the table, Abang Syah appeared.

"Zura, there's something you want to discuss with Zura. Can we get out for a second?" pinta Abang Syah's.

"But this is work time. Can't!" my answer is to make excuses.

I intentionally avoided that meeting. I told you, I don't want to disturb the harmony of the relationship. Dila is my best friend. Betraying his name if I constantly disturb Abang Syah. I want to see your happiness, brother! Not destruction.

"Simmed up aje Zura, please!" Rayu Abang Syah after being silent.

"Can't, bang. Sorry, Zura. Zura's been working a lot. If you have something important to tell Zura, you can say aje now." Subject again.

"Can't be here, Zura," said Abang Syah.

"But why? Shame on Normah?" about me firmly.

"It's not a trivial matter, Zura. It involves..."

"Involving what, bang? Involving heart and feelings? If it involves heart and feelings, Zura is not the one for her brother to express." I don't know why my feelings were suddenly attacked by sudden emotions.

Abang Syah heard it. There was no way such words would come out of my lips!

I can feel, surely the heart of Abang Syah terkuris because of the volume of those words. At least far away in the corner of his heart must have felt.

Brother Shah passed by without a word. Guilt was drawing my eclipsing soul ever more.

"You shouldn't be acting like that, Zura. Don't you know with your attitude it has destroyed the feelings of a man who has been very virtuous to you?" Angry Normah anyway.

Oh God! What have I said just now? How guilty I am for following my heart too much. Without me knowing, tears started coming down my cheeks and I sobbed.

Too much in this life.

"Eh! Brother Zura. Why ni?"

I was shocked to hear that voice.

"The Rose apparently," I said when I saw the Rose being intercepted in front of me.

"Sir Zura's crying?" about Dik Roses soon.

"No is," I answered lying.

"But Kak Zura's eyes are watery. Brother Zura has a problem? If you don't mind, tell me" Pinta Dik Roses.

"There's nothing. Only Kak Zura is calmed by Kak Zura's past story," I replied still quibbling.

May the Rose not ask any more. It is enough that I feel it myself.

"If there's nothing, I want to take Kak Zura out of the trap" said Dik Roses.

"What's wrong?" about me not understanding.

"The queen married my cousin's sister. Umi told me to come pick up Kak Zura. Brother was in the car, too" tell Dik Roses.

"Why take Zura anyway?" about me again.

"Alah, Brother Zura. Zura is already an Umi child. What's wrong with being friendly with my relatives anyway," replied Dik Roses.

I thought for a long time. Didn't go anything Umi said...

"All right, Rose. Brother Zura is preparing now," I said in agreement.

"Nor, I'm out for a second. At 2 o'clock I'll go back in, "tell Normah.

Normah shook her head at my steps.

"How are you, Zura?" greet Doctor Rashdan as soon as I arrive at the parking lot.

"Alhamdulillah. What kind of rash is it?" my reply was friendly.

"Sort of like this, Zura," replied Doctor Rashdan grimly revealing his pure white teeth.

After Dik Roses and I were in the belly of the train, the journey continued to the destination.

Even though I feel cheerful when with Dik Roses and his family but the guilt to Abang Syah still surrounds my feelings. I tried to throw it away but failed.

Forgive Zura again, Abang Syah. It was not Zura's intention to spread love between us but a compelling circumstance for Zura to act in such a way.