He's Not Mine

64. Palau

I opened the phone, koh Benny deliberately approached, wanting to see what was visible on my phone. It turns out that Lita's profile picture is my picture with Lita. Hard code.

"He has a picture with you, you don't want a photo with him?"

"When is the photo? Oh yes, Fleet day." I'm talking to myself.

"Mam too, make sure you meet Mam!"

"Why what?" I hung up my phone and kept it on me.

"You give me jewelry,"

"Even, not all women love Koh jewelry!"

"Sokay know you! Resti same Lita both buy a doll that looks a lot like her son Dimas, meaning their taste is the same."

"Together I'm the one they like," I burst out laughing triumphantly.

Suddenly my phone rings, Lita calls.

"Yes Ta!" i answered.

"Tractate it Sir! I haven't eaten."

"Yes, you're here. I happen to eat with me. I share loc."

"Oh same temen huh? Tomorrow again."

"Why? I'm just the two of you, I just happen to want to know you!"

"Again males out, so I asked to bring food here!"

"OK ready to slide princess, what will you eat?"

"Come on, the fruiting, anget."

"Rawon rice yes! Wait a minute, the order will be delivered soon."

"Kok delivered? The Imam didn't come here?"

"Son, once you break through your heart!"

"Well, you can do it, hunt it!"

"Ashiab!"

"Sorry Koh, I'm ahead. There's a call!"

"Yo, good luck!"

A serving of raw rice glides lovingly. 

In front of the boarding house, Lita was waiting with a cup of coffee and a glass of tea.

"Sir, how do you buy only one?"

"I ate, you ate."

"What really sir? You must have eaten a plate together, right?"

"So, I'm full. You eat it!"

"Well then, good-bye!" Lita ate voraciously, occasionally offering me a meal.

"Sir, thank you. Actually I want to eat with Father, but you don't want to, so I'm all abisin."

"Father, let you be a little fat, not too thin like gini!"

"Thin? Paper thing?"

I smiled waiting for her deadly battle cry, but Lita just kept looking at me.

"Mother why? I think there's something important to say, huh?"

I snorted violently and then threw my face away. "Sir Priest!" Lita called me slowly.

"Ta, I'm about to move errands," I lowered my head, reluctant to see his disappointed face.

"Where?"

"Far off, maybe we can't be together anymore."

"Where are you going to work?"

"SK hasn't come down yet, I don't want to be rash."

"Who knows if he's going back to Lampung again."

"It seems that now it is further away Ta! You're gapapa, aren't you?"

"Just deket the same Imam, the time will be left."

"State duty, unsolicited, undeniable."

"Boy, aren't you serious, are you?"

"The risk of the state servant, must be ready to be assigned anywhere."

"Father does not honestly want a task where, it means that it is only a discourse. Not sure!"

"Ih, how did you say it was like that anyway! I don't want to be left out. Later if I have graduated, I am ready to go where Mr. Office."

My heart was filled to hear it, how important am I to her? 

***

Members' readiness exercises to be sent to Natuna were held. Some soldiers have been chosen. I was only asked to train, not be sent for assignments there.

Almost every day Koh Benny asked me, often he told me about his readiness for Resti's application.

It feels lazy to listen to his chatter, but maybe his vent makes koh Benny relieved to be remembered, or just makes me sultry. Yeah, the longer I've been sultry about their closeness.

"Mam, yuk's coffee!" suddenly Suryo patted my shoulder from behind.

"Eh, yes. Since when are you here?"

"New aja. To the canteen yuk, the mouth of the hook, want to coffee."

We walked together to the canteen. In the subscription canteen there are several visitors, quite crowded. But my eyes were fixed on the figure of the woman sitting alone facing the laptop with the headset on.

"Resti is there," Suryo told me without asking.

"Yes, I've seen. We sat a little far away, he seemed to be busy.

"Koh Benny wants to propose to Resti next Sunday," Suryo started the conversation.

"He told me yesterday."

"He asked me to drive him, Haji Abdullah was also asked to take him."

"Good then!"

"He asked you to come too?"

"No, I also didn't want to. But it's like he won't take me either."

"You're a gap, aren't you?"

"Father, from yesterday koh Benny always story step by step procession her application."

"What aja?"

"He proposed to Resti in person at the Sheraton, romantic dinner. Resti has accepted his proposal. Tomorrow is the official family event."

"Kok him the full story with you, just like me?"

"Yes, obviously, he wants to make me sewot. He thinks I'm jealous? No way!" I spread five fingers in front of Suryo.

"It is also so!" Suryo laughed a lot at me.

"From a long time I've said the same to Benny, I don't want to be involved again with his business as Resti. The recipe, too, I've permission not to come."

"Can you join?" suddenly Resti came hugging the laptop standing near our table.

Suryo allowed to sit in front of him, beside me also means. When he put his butt in the chair, I immediately stood up and sat next to Suryo, it was nice to sit next to me. Let's be single, I also have my pride.

"I think Suryo was very happy!" resti.

"Yes, congratulations on the proposal!" Suryo extended his hand to shake. Resti received a handshake from Suryo, "thank you! Is Suryo coming home next week?" ask Resti.

"Yes, God willing I will come" Suryo replied steadily.

"Mas Imam?" Resti turned to look at me.

"No, Suryo. I think that's enough" I replied, sipping coffee.

Resti nodded his head. 

"When the Imam comes along, you are confused again, which one will accept his proposal," Suryo said as he followed my arm.

"Look, I won't be coming!" I stood up and left Resti and Suryo.

***

Three months passed very heavily. The news of their happy day seemed to be very fast. I'm getting bad, maybe it's called jealousy. I tried to find a replacement by approaching Lita, but she was always busy with her lectures. Stay me alone who will be left out of marriage and can not get attention from a boyfriend.

Another month of their wedding day, I'm getting whistled. Back when Resti was married to Irvan, I didn't know, so I couldn't feel anything like this. Now Resti wants to get married in plain sight, god ..., is this fair to me?

My feet were walking somewhere this afternoon, suddenly my shoulders were hugged from the side. I turned to the person who was embracing me, the Teguh collenel.

“Healthy Mam?” ask colonel Teguh.

“Ngak Ndan, a bit dizzy not feeling well!” my answer.

“Have treatment?” asked the stern colonel again, I replied with a clench of my head. “Ke my room aja!” 

We walked casually to the Danyon room while having a light conversation.

“Resti wants to get married on twenty next month,” colonel Teguh starts serious talks.

“Alhamdulillah, hopefully smoothly until the day H,” I said as relaxed as possible, it feels reluctant to hear this conversation.

“You are gap, right?” colonel Teguh's eyes scanned my face.

I smile stiffly, “gapapa Ndan.” In front of the commander this time it was hard to hide feelings. Let him capture the turmoil I am currently feeling.

“Nand, if I may ask, I would like to be assigned to a distant place and not come back here!