Halal Me With Your Parent's Ridho

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As usual, night is the time for us to klaumpul, like the night before. We were all sitting in the living room so many things we were doing, watching the tv, chatting jokingly and even mocking each other. It was our usual practice that made us more and more familiar with each other. Even though it's raining outside but it's pretty warm in here.

I don't know why I arrived - I wanted to get out, but outside was drizzling. It was as if something was pushing me to step onto the terrace. I saw the land in front of the dormitory that was flooded at some point. I stood for a long time so my body felt a little cold.

" Mom why is it here ? " Say Wardah while patting my shoulder slowly.

" Just looking for cold air. "

" Ouwh, yes I've been upstairs first huh mbak. "

" Well, I'll catch up with you soon. "

The skinny girl always worried about me, behind her little installment nature, she was very considerate of others. The wind was suddenly blowing as hard as blowing my face,

Seg ..... deg .... deg .... deg ......

What kind of a leaflet is this, why is my heart like this. I tried to control my heart as if it was coming out of its place. As I stared at the side door, there were two figures coming towards me. A woman and a man were beside her, but their faces could not be seen from where I stood. The woman kept walking towards me, but the man stopped in the courtyard.

" Assalamualaikum, Tar why are you still here ? "

" Walaikumsalam, Ms. Lenni. "

Finally we entered together but before I reached the door I looked back because there was something stuck in my heart. I was surprised when I found a face silhouette that was not familiar to me, even I knew him very well.

This morning was quite a surprise I accidentally spilled hot water into my hands. To be honest last night made me a little nervous, and it made me less comfortable.

And it wasn't enough here when I was about to leave for work how surprised I was when I found him sitting on our dorm couch. I'm not okay, but I try to ignore it as if I don't know him. Even I had a chance to throw a smile when we accidentally met our gaze.

Don't ask me how I felt at that time, for half a day I went through with a chest that felt very tight. The wound that I thought had dried up seemed to be back open. As much as I can hide my tightness from everyone.

It is not that I have not revealed the destiny that Allah has set for me, but that I am only a human being. Memories are sweet but too bitter for me to taste right now. Time cannot remove it.

We used to have a story, almost 3 years we were close. Until one day we both agreed to bring the relationship to a marriage bond. Though at that time I had just graduated SMK, our age distance was quite far I was 18 years old and he was 28 years old. But that doesn't hinder our desire to be together.

We had a long distance relationship only occasionally, but our communication was done every day for almost 3 years. Many dreams we built together, beautiful plans about the beautiful life after the wedding. And I realized how naive I was at that moment, who only looked at the world from my side.

I remember very well in the morning - once I went to Kediri with him to introduce me to his family and ask for blessing. It was the first time I met her family that she was nervous and not confident but she always assured me that her family would accept me.

But reality told me differently after I met his family it turned out that everything wasn't what we expected. His family was against our relationship, arguing I wasn't worth it. They told me to go home, and at that time I still remember I was given 50 thousand as my fare home.

It was not enough to treat me like that, just a few days after the incident, he came to my house with his family I thought that his parents would respect our relationship. I was very happy because I really hoped that our relationship would continue.

However, her parents came just to warn my parents to know the quality and quantity of her daughter. Must know themselves they said first, people like this are the soul mates of people like this. Both my parents just bowed down with all the words they said too hurtful that my parents were unable to hold their heads up.

The wounds inflicted were not only for me but for my two angels. The lesson was invaluable, which will serve as a reminder to me at every step.

But this chest is still claustrophobic remember it, this heart also seems to betray by not knowing he was pounding uncharacteristically when every met him. Suddenly my head hurts so much yes, this is the usual thing that happens when I think of things too heavy. It was painful, like a nail stuck in there. Sleeping may be able to get rid of this pain, before I had taken my medicine to relieve this pain.

I woke up in the middle of the night, apparently sleep can not eliminate this tightness. I immediately purified myself, I titled my prayer mats and then I spilled all my Kelik kesah to Him as good as a place to complain.

O Allah, Most Merciful, Most Merciful, I know You will never give more trials than Your servant. Servant believes You always choose the best path for Your servant. This meeting made me a healer of the pain I had been feeling all along. Eliminate prejudice between the two of us so that we can mengikhlaskan each other.

I stood up again, I prayed istikhoroh 2 rakaat as a reinforcement of my heart. To whom else do we complain but to Him because He alone has the answers to all the questions we have. After that my heart began to calm down, and my chest was also no longer feeling tight.

A few days passed after that incident, we were reunited, I was already not as nervous as before.

'" Are you going to keep quiet like this. " Said Mbak Lenni arrived - arrived.

I did not answer him, and I had no intention of discussing the past with him. For me we are really done.

" What should I talk about ? "

" Len please, watch your talk. " Setyo Mas said loudly.

" I'm not pretending, and I don't think there's anything I should talk about. "

" You must speak, for his feelings have never been resolved upon you. " Mr Lenni looked at Mas Setyo with disappointment.

" I'm sorry Ma'am seems to be completely misunderstood. "

A few minutes later Mas Fahmi came, he asked me to come with him to check my head. As if he could read the circumstances I was going through so that his orders this time I could not refuse, so we left the two couples.

" I can be a good listener if you want to tell a story ? "

" The past, rediscovered. "

" Want to repeat the past ? Ask while looking at me ? "

" Not at all, "I answered for sure.

" Smart girl, learn from a mistake and make it a reminder never to go back if in front still lies another path. "

" Of course you are. "

It's the last week I teach because next week is already on a long holiday at the end of the semester. Because I teach playgroup education (TK) so my school is off a week earlier than the level of education above. Since that incident, Ms. Lenni never wanted to reply when I greeted her. But I didn't put that in my heart, maybe he didn't know what the big thing was.

I was surprised when I found him standing at the gate with a little girl. I greeted him kindly as I grabbed the hand of the little girl he was holding. When he arrived at home, he was already in the yard, smiling on his face to pick up his nephew. It's just an excuse or he's that good. It happened for a week and there was no conversation between us. I greet him just as amiable as I do to all the guardians who take or pick up their children.

When the holidays arrived, I went back to my Blitar home where I went home.The house that I haven't stopped for a few weeks because of my busy life. A home that always brings tranquility, a place where I feel safe and comfortable. I did not dare to tell my two angels what I had experienced, I was afraid that it could make the wound that had closed open again.

I was amazed when I got a call from a new number.

📞 Assalamualaikum.

📞 Walaikumsalam.

📞 How are you doing ?

📞 Alhamdulillah good.

📞 Didn't you ask me how I was doing ?

📞 I think you're much better than you look.

📞 We have to talk, for this to be resolved.

📞 It's done, it's all done.

📞 It's easy for you to say that, you don't know how devastated I was after that incident.

📞 Sorry it's night, Assalamualaikum. "

I closed the call, because I was embarrassed why we walked backwards when the road ahead was more beautiful I thought. Although honestly we never know what will happen in front of there. After a series of messages entered my phone, I had no intention to open it.

Today Gus Reyhan called me to ask me for help, I was willing to ask him to accompany his wife and son while he was out of town. I stayed at her house for 4 days, just taking my mind off her. But he was unrelenting - he stopped texting me. Which infuriated me when he threatened to come to my parents if I didn't listen.

" What should I do Ma'am ? "

" Meet and explain all, that's the best thing. But remember not to meet yourself at least invite a good friend who trusted. "

That's what Rina said, everything I told her because to me she knew a little about this. Then I called Wardah to ask her whereabouts she was already at her parents' house. It just so happened that I asked him to accompany me, without asking anything he immediately agreed to my request.

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