Give me back my happiness

Pulse Stopped

Hania who was chased out by the nurses kept crying. Though only a few minutes ago he was happy to find Gaka was aware, but suddenly Gaka's condition was worrying. The man was convulsing with bulging eyes. What had just been witnessed made Hania very scared.

"Oh Allah, save Mas Gaka. Don't let anything bad happen to her." Hania covered her face and continued to cry. His worries grew as soon as two nurses arrived with medical trolleys. He wondered what was going on with Gaka.

Remembering Gaka's words was so strange. 'We don't think anyone knows, do we? I was conscious, but one hour later my condition was weak and my pulse stopped. Don't you want to hug me either.'

What that sentence is a sign that Gaka will .... Uh! He shook his head strongly. Throwing away the bad thoughts that scared him even more.

"If you realize this time, I'll hug you, Mom. I'll hug. I thought you were just kidding me," he murmured. He wiped away the tears that were constantly falling.

"Lord, don't let there be a breakup anytime soon? Our story has not yet begun. Don't send fate painful. Give us a chance to understand our feelings. You know how my heart, my race begins to grow and you don't prune it with separation." Hannah spoke in her heart.

The door of the room opens.

The surprised Hania immediately turned to the doctor. The middle-aged female doctor put on a sad face. His heart started beating.

"Dok ...." Hania had not finished her words, but the doctor responded to the headband. Oh, what sign is that?!

"Sorry, we've fought as hard as we can. But God wills another" said the doctor with a sad face.

Deg ....

Hania immediately looked. His impulsive brain continued to reject reality. The doctor must have misreported the patient.

"No! The doctor must be wrong. The doctor should check again. B-just now he's conscious, and .. and he's talking to me. How could my husband now ...." Hania shook her head. He's getting sobbing. It felt so hard to believe the doctor's diagnosis that Gaka could not be saved.

"Steady one, Miss. A disaster can happen to anyone and in a time that we ourselves do not know."

Hania's body turned back. He did not want to believe the doctor's words, but the doctor's words undermined his belief.

A nurse was seen coming out with a medical trolley. He looked at the doctor and asked. "Doc, are all medical devices removable?"

The doctor nodded. "Several times we check Mr. Gaka's pulse, but it's completely undetectable. Mr. Gaka might indeed want to give up." The doctor glanced at Hania. While Hania continued to shake her head and looked weak. Both of his hands were shaking, straight with shoulders trembling with tears.

Without a word, Hania passed through the doctors and nurses and went into Gaka's ward. In the middle of the room he stopped. Even his heart was almost stopped to see Gaka's body covered until it covered the entire body.

"M-Maaas Ga-ka?" He stuttered in place. His body almost collapsed because the whole body felt boneless.

"Bag!!!" He dragged a step to get close to Gaka's body. With her hands shaking violently she began to open the white blanket that covered Gaka.

"Nrank ...." Her tears broke as she looked at Gaka's pale face as if asleep in peace. But who would have thought that man slept long in peace.

"Our separation is too bad. You didn't say anything to me. You just asked me to hug you. Now I'm gonna hug you, Mom. I'll hug you." Hania turned down on the chest of Gaka's field.

The crying broke again. Tragically, it reoccurs when a story that has not yet begun must run aground. But this time it was more painful because the breakdown of their relationship was caused by death.

"Yesterday I said farewell, but not farewell in this way, Mas. Not like this!" Hania squeezed the blanket firmly. Emotional evidence that really falls.

"Why does God always separate me from the people I love. I haven't even had a chance to say what I told you, but you left so quickly. I'm sorry, Mom, I'm sorry I was late expressing feelings.

I was selfish to think about returning you to Gea, so I was free from the complicated situation and with my guilt. Putting aside my feelings for you, but with this situation, I was sorry. Sorry for not fighting for my feelings.

I am the most regretful person because I was late to realize and reveal the feeling. I'm sorry, Mas. I'm sorry." Hania was endlessly crying by continuing to say long sentences about her feelings that had been harbored.

He was confident in his feelings, but he was not sure of the circumstances. Moreover, the relationship is too complicated and many considerations about love or friends, and after the circumstances like now it feels really sorry.

Regret cannot save both relationships. Even between Gea, the relationship is difficult to repair. While Gaka, he actually lost his love that has not even been spoken.

Hania continues to dive into her grief, until she is unaware that Vara and Tuan Haru have just arrived.

"Name ...." Vara runs towards her son's gurney. The middle-aged woman roared incoherently. "Oh Allah, Gaka! Mama can't believe all this!" hysterical shouting. Mr. Haru rubbed his wife's shoulder. The teary-eyed man changed his head to shrink both corners of his eyes.

"Papa also can't believe you left so soon" he said.

"God, get up, kid. Don't leave your mom this way. You can't leave so soon. You're our favorite child, we can't accept your departure." Vara hugged Gaka's body from the right. He ignored his painful hand, continuing to roar by calling out Gaka's name.

"Pa, Gaka, Pa. Gaka our son, why does he have to leave so soon, Pa."

Bruk ....

Suddenly Vara's body relaxes and faints in Mr. Haru's arms.

"Ma ...! Mama ...!" Mr. Haru changed his panicked face, then asked the nurse for help to move him in another room.

Hania was very shocked, not even had time to say a single word in front of her two in-laws.

"Your departure surprised us a lot, Mas. O Allah, Astagfirullahaladzim ..even in a dream I never imagined this would happen quickly," said Hania who felt unable to stand on both feet. His body was very limp and he landed his body on the sofa chair. Both of his hands did not turn to hold Gaka's arm.

"God, no one knows the age of man. But death really did happen even in unexpected ways." Hania lowered her head and went back to crying on Gaka's arm. "Strengthen my heart and help me to heal."