Give me back my happiness

After I'm Like This, Do You Still Want to Be With Me? (Abian)

"Maesaroh, you're done yet?" Gaka stood in front of the door of Hania's room while incessantly banging on the door of the room impatiently.

"Prophey, Mommy, people are patient in the love of God." Hania opened the door, her ears buzzing as Gaka kept shouting.

"What kind of a toy is that?! You think I'm a kid. God will never love me." Gaka shrugged his shoulders.

"Where God wants to love, Mas people don't want to be loved either."

"Udah yet? Long time anyway, hunt bete' first me."

"anytime soon. Go in first." Hania took the man into her room. "Leave a liptin pack and neaten hijab."

Gaka followed behind Hania, then chose to sit on the bedside. Watching Hania who was busy putting on makeup in front of the mirror.

"What event is there Mama trying to get us there, Mas?"

"Don't know. They said they were missing, and wanted to have dinner together."

"Okay, it's done. Yuk, go." Hania took out a small sling bag and attached it over her shoulders. They both went out of the room.

About 45 minutes, Gaka's car had stopped in front of his parents' house. Before long the car engines die, Vara and Mr. Haru are seen out to welcome their arrival.

"Hi .. dear," cried Vara gladly. The middle-aged woman approached Hania and immediately gave a hug.

"Assynolt, Ma. Mama's healthy, right?" Hania welcomed her mother-in-law's embrace with pleasure.

"Greetings walaikum. Thank God, Mama is healthy. Mama is very confused with you. How many days have I not met her kangen stack."

"Uh, lebai," muttered Gaka, turning the eyeball upwards. Luckily Vara and Hania did not hear.

"Pa, Gaka is really kangen. Yuk, we hug," said Gaka by imitating the style of the women's centile.

Mr. Haru squinted and shuddered. "Well, it's so ticklish that you're talking," he responded.

"Ha ha ... I'm kidding, Pa."

"Come, let's go in," Vara invited by embracing Hania's shoulder.

"Ma, did he say there was a surprise?" ask Gaka.

"Oh that. Yeah, the guy's inside."

The four of them went inside, Hania was behind Gaka's body.

"Hay, Ka."

"Yin?! It's elo? Crazy ... bad crazy, lo!" Gaka approached the man and punched his arm in their style first.

Hania was now lined up with Gaka, when her face looked up, instantly her body petrified.

Cc .. deg ....

"Han-Hania?" The man reacted just like Hania. Surprised and helpful.

'Mas Abian?' Hania's lips spoke without sound. The corner of the eye has begun to stagnate clear fluid. Once you blink, those tears will wet your cheeks.

Gaka noticed Abian's gaze that did not turn away from Hania. "He's Maesaroh .. ups .. I mean, Hania. Her cake you already know, 'kan,' he said.

Abian nodded slowly. "Gue knows." Even Abian was still fixed on Hania.

Hania often looked up, it was done to dispel her tears that wanted to rush out.

How long did he wait for the arrival of an Abian, and now he was reunited with the warm man. Unfortunately, all circumstances are different.

Wh why? Why only now does God give him the destiny to meet. Not meet in happiness, but meet in sorrow. Sadness because they can't have each other.

Vara invited everyone to fill the dining table. Continue the conversation while enjoying dinner.

"Yan, how are you!"

"Alhamdulillah, God still loves my chance to live. Even though I'm turning into an ugly man." Abian smiled bitterly.

After his last meeting with Hania, he was involved in an accident that caused his condition to be quite severe. He lost consciousness and his parents took him abroad for treatment.

Both of Abian's parents did not know about his plans to crush Hania, so they did not send people to tell the bad news.

Until Abian realized from the coma, then the man told his wishes to his parents. And once Abian's parents came to Hania's house, unfortunately Hania had moved to Jakarta. And they couldn't find Hania.

After completing the tightness in the chest, Hania re-joined the Gaka family. He took a seat to Gaka's left and faced straight with Abian. Even so Hania only lowered her head, not daring to look at Abian directly.

At the dining table, the most dominating is the voice of Vara with Gaka. Hania only answered when someone questioned her. Actually Gaka was a little suspicious of Hania and Abian. From the radiance they seem to be hiding something.

"Han, did you forget me?" After a long silence, Abian could not help but say hello to Hania.

"Prude, Mas. I don't forget" replied Hania stiffly.

"Do you mind if I want to talk to you alone?"

Hania turned to Gaka. How the man reacted to Abian's request.

"Ma, Pa, Mas, I'd like to talk to Mas Abian for a minute" Hania said.

Gaka frowned, his guess getting stronger that they were hiding something. But wanting to ban it was impossible, Abian looked serious.

The backyard near the pond became Abian and Hania's preferred place to talk. Abian put a stick on his left side. Seemed pain when bending both knees.

"Maas ...."

"Han ...."

After the silence, the two called out simultaneously.

"You go first" said Abian.

"No, it's the first one." Hania was still bowed by squeezing both her hands.

"I'm looking everywhere for you, Han. I'm surprised, it turns out you live with Om Haru."

"Han, I've lost you so much."

"Yesterday I lost you too, my mother. I was waiting for you but you never came. And, what exactly happened to you?"

Abian began to tell the fateful events experienced. Hania listened carefully without interrupting or cutting. Tears jostled out knowing the truth, he immediately wiped.

O God, did You really not match us together?

"After you see me like this, as a disabled and bad man, do you still want to be with me?"

Deg ...

Hania looked quickly. Whatever your circumstances, I will accept you, Mom. But now, I'm no longer the same Hania you know. I've been with someone else.

This time Hania's back shook as a result of holding back the cry. Why can't he wait for Abian? Why did he decide to leave without thinking that Abian would come even if it was too late? If he wants to be patient for a while, maybe at this time they can still continue their feelings.

"I've never looked at your physique, Mom. Do not be inferior. But, sorry, I can't be with you anymore." Hania said softly.

Wasn't it! Actually this is not his desire, he still hopes to be with Abian regardless of what happens to him. But that's no longer possible.