Give me back my happiness

Cannot Forgive Completely

"I've said, don't touch me carelessly," said Hania lirih but full of emphasis.

"Gue just nenangin Gea. He was angry because I left him that way." Gaka explained the meaning of his conversation with Gea, but Hania did not ask for it.

"I'm not asking for any explanation at all. All I ask for, please take your hand off."

Gaka slowly took off his hand from Hania's hand. The woman walked away.

"We're husband and wife, don't be stiff. By the way just let it be good to hear," pinta Gaka. The man followed Hania sitting on the sofa.

"Yes, later I ...," the remark came to a halt as Gaka glared his eyes.

"Yes yes, next me, you," Hania errat.

Both of them were silent for a moment, dissolving in each other's minds.

"Why don't you go to Gea's?"

Gaka. "Lo told your husband to go find another girl?"

Hania's forehead is wrinkled. "Our relationship is the last, while you and Gea have a relationship first."

"If I'm with Gea first have a relationship, but our relationship is more legitimate."

Hania looked at Gaka, figuring out what the words meant. But Gaka looks serious. Hania disconnected first and lowered her head.

"Lo really likes the types of men who are destitute like the security guard?"

"So I was clear, I'm the same Mas Al just friends."

"Lo call him that friendly!"

"Well, how friendly? I'm just calling Mas Al. Where's messaging?"

"Lo called me in front of Mama as Mas. You also call that bastard mas. I don't want to call me equal!" gaka Strict.

"I'm used to calling anyone a man Mas. If you don't want to be the same, you have to find another name."

"I'm not the one who should be replaced, if you can not meet again the same old man!"

"Our meeting from the first time was never planned, as well as this afternoon, suddenly Mas Al stopped in front of me. And we're just talking regular."

"But why pack an ice cream meal?"

"The weather's hot, and he's buying ice cream, the sustenance can't be denied, right?"

"Rezeki what! I can also buy only ice cream, all ice cream factories can also be bought."

"Believe you can buy anything. But you weren't there this afternoon."

"Gue exists. You don't know!" Gaka grunting.

"You go with Gea, I think you spend time with her." Hania smiled faintly.

"Gue was worried you were straying, so I took off to find you. Tomorrow again if you go anywhere to ask for a driver. Lo newcomers in this town, don't go off on your own."

Hania smiled and glanced at Gaka. "You worried?"

"Huh? Sneezing. Who is worried. Don't get big heads!" Gaka covered the nervousness. "If you get rough, the end will be me who bother nyariin lo. That's, I mean," he said.

Hania nodded. "Please, as much as possible I won't trouble you."

"I was about to give Gea a surprise, but she was more surprised by your arrival." Hania plays the tip of the shirt to find busyness. In addition, he did not want to be carried away by the atmosphere that made him sad again.

"We both don't know." Hania shrugged her shoulders.

The silence for quite a long time made Hania awkwardly sit with Gaka. "Can you move to your bed?"

"What?"

"I'm going to sleep. You move out of here," drive out Hania.

Ah, Gaka forgot that they slept apart. Even Hania since moving into her house did sleep on the sofa.

"Don't your back hurt sleeping on the couch?"

"Better back pain than sleeping in fear."

"Gue will talk to bokap nyokap for us to move house. At home, you will be free to do anything," said Gaka.

"Not that. Can I ask you one thing?"

Gaka raised his eyebrows. "What?" He was made curious by Hania's request which seemed to be very serious.

"Can I work again?"

"For what? Don't be tired of work. You just say how much you want to earn. A week a hundred million I can."

"Start snobbing," muttered Hania raising her lips. "I believe you can afford to give me a fantastic living. But that's not the problem. I want to work because I'm bored there's no activity.

"And, one more. You don't have to give me a living."

Deg ....

"What do you mean?" Gaka leaned.

"As long as we don't engage in physical contact, that means you don't have to give me a living."

"Can't be. I keep giving you a living monthly money."

Hania shook her head hard. "I will sin if I accept it. Kabulin my request, let me work again."

"OKAY. You can work in the office again. Tomorrow I confirm the HRD to move you to another part, not as a cleaning service."

"Don't! Let me still be a service clening. It'll be people's question if I suddenly move to another part."

"Okay, handover."

~

The morning routine is the same. Gaka goes to the office with Mr. Haru, while Hania stays at home with Vara. Doing cooking, gardening and watching television together. That was so much fun.

"Han, Mama is glad that Gaka can marry you. Mama believes, slowly Gaka's attitude can change. You can change it."

"Don't expect much, Ma. Hannah can't change anything. If Mas Gaka changes better, it's all because of God's permission. Allah is the One who turns over the hearts of men."

"You're so soft, Han. That's what makes Mama sure you can soften Gaka's heart. Please be patient to know Gaka's heart. He actually has a good attitude, only to change since we rarely have time for him. He became a rebellious and delinquent child. But Mama knew, she was so just because she wanted to be considered. It was wrong that we didn't notice. He felt we didn't love him. We regret, we indulge without giving guidance." Vara shed tears. She was sad to remember that her son's bad attitude did not escape her failed role as a mother.

"Don't be sad, Ma. Insha Allah, Mas Gaka can change. We're both patient."

Vara grabbed Hania's body and hugged her. "Mom didn't think God would grant Mama's prayer." Vara took off her embrace and wiped her tears. "When Mama saw you, Mama always prayed that God would be kind enough to bring you and Gaka closer. But unfortunately you are united in a bad state. Sorry Gaka, yes, dear."

Hania grabbed her in-laws hand to hold. "God willing, Ma."

'Maafin Hania, Ma. What Gaka did was hard for me to accept. I can't fully forgive what he did to me. Because of her mistake, I had to lose my prayers to meet the person I liked. I also have to give up my hope, there is no chance to be with the man I'm still waiting for.'