Give me back my happiness

Painfully

"Mas, wake! It's six o'clock, you'll be late for work." Hania shook her shoulders over the sleeping man.

"Diem!!!" said Gaka while shaking hands in the air to drive out Hania.

"Mas, there's a call from Gea" said Hania glancing at the phone on the table that was ringing. She knew who was calling her husband that early, was her best friend because the name 'Gea' was there.

"Thank you and activate the loudspeaker" Gaka ordered without opening his eyes. Even the man did not change position.

Hania sighed and did as Gaka commanded.

'Honey, where are you going, anyway? It's hard to call you now. I feel like you've changed, Ka. Even very different from the Gaka that I know first.'

"What the hell, Ge, early in the morning talk is not clear, just digress."

'Gue spoke seriously and I digress! I'm not sure you still love me. It changed so much! You also rarely touch my body, rarely**** with me. You can be like me, Ka!'

Although his eyes closed, but Gaka squeezed the end of the pillow firmly. "Gue hasn't changed, Ge, I'm still the Gaka you know. I am a man who loves the same. Those who are just***** are the same as your body. Don't think weird. I'll take your place tonight."

Deg ....

Hania involuntarily clasped tightly onto the phone she had in her hand. Gaka's words prove that their marriage is not a great relationship. Maybe for Gaka himself the marriage had no meaning at all.

•

After returning from the office there was already a private driver who picked up Hania at the usual place the woman was waiting.

"Sir, stop by the supermaket first, yes," ordered Hania.

"Yes, Miss."

"Sir, sir, call me, Ma'am."

The man behind the wheel scratched his back neck. "I don't dare to be presumptuous by calling 'mombs'. You're my employer."

"Be ordinary, sir. I'd rather you be ordinary."

"Good, Ma'am."

The car started to slow down and entered the parking lot. Hania almost opens the car door, but is undone when she sees Gaka walking out with Gea. Although Gaka had changed into casual clothes and wore a hat and mask but Hania knew very well it was Gaka.

"That's Mr. Gaka, Ma'am," said the driver named Pak Arya. Pointing the same point as Hania noticed.

"Yes, sir," Hania replied bitterly. Some time Hania pounded as Gaka and Gea walked towards the car she was riding in. Do they know and will see him? What about Gea? What will be explained with his best friend is about the driver and the car he was riding.

But, finally it can blow a long breath when Gaka turned to the parked car not far from his car.

Hania again smiled bitterly about her life's destiny. Her husband and best friend look very happy, while she is so difficult to bury the past that has just been revealed.

Before his eyes, he saw the two kissing in the car. Hania closed her eyes for a moment to calm down. He did not understand why his heart was hurting.

•

He hurriedly finished his meal and went to his room. Want to go to bed early so as not to imagine things that are not important.

But just standing up, he found the house bell ringing. "Bi, let me just open it," said Hania. He thought it was Gaka, but why ring the bell. Usually the man went straight in, or banged on the door.

Czechs ....

Hania nodded at the door. "Mas Abian, why are you here? I'm sorry, Mas Gaka is not home, I can't let you in."

Abian nodded. "I saw Gaka and Gea enter the apartment together. They're both in one room, we know what Gaka did to Gea. Han, I'm confused, what exactly is the reason you married Gaka? While Gaka is still in a relationship with other women."

"Mas, did you come just to say this?"

Abian nodded.

"I know tonight Mas Gaka is with Gea, I know what they're doing. But it's not my right to ban. I can't explain why I accepted this marriage either. Please, don't interfere."

Abian widened his eyes, very surprised to hear the words of Hania. Even the woman knew of her husband's affair. He was becoming more and more clueless about their relationship.

"How can I not interfere. You're a precious woman I'd love to have, so lucky that Gaka could marry you but unfortunately that stupid guy just wasted you. I can guess what kind of marriage you're having.

Han, part ways, you are precious to be humbled like this. Take me back and I'll make you happy. Although my physique is not perfect, but my feelings are still perfect for you."

Hania looked down with trembling shoulders. He sobbed at the sound of every sentence Abian spoke. Surely the feeling was still there for the man, but even parting with Gaka he could not be with Abian. He just felt inappropriate. His confidence is lost when Gaka takes something of value from him.

"Mas, go. Your existence here could lead to slander."

"Defamation? We stand from 2 meters away, then what about your husband who ...."

"Mas, please. Don't talk about them anymore. Let me take care of the marriage and my feelings."

"Han, part with Gaka and marry me, I promise to make you happy. I don't want you to get hurt, you're precious, Han."

"I'm sorry, Mom. Please don't see me again."

"Han, don't ban me. You're still the same woman. I am so happy and love you."

"Don't cultivate the wrong feelings, Mas. I can't return your feelings anymore. You will get a more perfect woman that you can admire and love. I pray for your happiness. I'm sorry for that."

Brak ....

Hania closed the door. He leaned there and fell on the floor. His sobs rang out again, even Abian could still hear them.

"My feelings aren't wrong, Han. I can see you're still the old Hania, still have feelings for me. Don't say that. Because whenever I will love you. I'll wait for you, Han. I love you so much."

Hania could still hear Abian's words, even her chest was getting claustrophobic holding everything back. She squeezed the hijab that covered the chest, venting pain and tightness.

This situation is more painful than Abian's departure without news. They were reunited in different circumstances and positions.

For a few seconds he still heard Abian say he still had feelings for him, until slowly the voice disappeared.