For the Love of

14

"I've met my lawyer to take care of all our divorces" I said, breaking the silence.

Mas Aji instantly stopped the speed of the car and turned his head towards me quickly. "You ..." He hung his words.

I nodded as if I understood. "Yes, Mas. My resolve is round. I want us to stop here."

Mas Aji shook his head weakly. His eyes look at me. "Son, honey! I don't want to."

He grabbed my hand then. I'm letting.

"Aren't there second chances for you, Mom?" tanyanya.

I let out a breath. "Sorry, Mas. This is the most mature decision."

"Don't you feel sorry for the kids if we split up? Stopped?"

"We just quit as husband and wife instead of quitting as their parents" I said, "please accept, yes?"

Again, Mas Aji shook his head. She then hugged me tightly and hid her face on the peck of my neck. Her body was shaking, she was crying.

I rubbed my back just as firmly as the first time we met. "As long as the judge hasn't knocked on the hammer, I'll take advantage of the next few months with you and the kids. I'll make some memorable memories before we part, Mas."

***

3 Months passed. During that time I was busy dealing with the divorce papers with Mas Aji. While Mas Aji, like deliberately busy themselves with his work, in the office. Coming home always showing a tired face as well .. sad.

I am currently with my three children. He plays while occasionally joking.

Mas Aji was also among us. Incidentally, today he is on a working holiday so he can be present in our midst.

He didn't do anything. Just be quiet with his eyes constantly staring at us. With the look I hate and avoid the most. His look was beautiful and fragile.

Tomorrow might be a historic day for us. Therefore, tomorrow the judge will knock out the hammer sign that we are officially divorced.

"Mother, when are we on vacation again?" Aksa asked suddenly. "Randi my friend yesterday spent the holidays with Mama Papanya to the Beach. We when?"

I tried to smile at Aksa. It's true, it's been a long time since our family went on vacation together.

Kuelus his head, soft. "Later if there is time, Mother, Brother Zayn, Brother and sister Adek holiday, yes?" I said.

"Dad?" ask Aksa astonishment.

I glanced for a moment at Mas Aji. Then smiled back at Aksa. "Dad's busy, got to work," I said trying to give him a reasonable understanding. Because it's impossible if I say that we probably won't be like we used to be, vacation together for example.

Because, anyway, after we divorced, it is not impossible that Mas Aji has a new family.

But I see, Aksa was pouting. Not accept my words.

Mas Aji then approached towards us. He was sitting right behind me. Then without excuse, his hands hugged my stomach from behind. So tight. Forgetting the children between us.

"Dad, you want a vacation, can you? I don't work, do I?" Again, Aksa asked.

"Yes. Next week we are on vacation to the beach," replied Mas Aji late relaxed.

"Promise, Dad?"

"Yes." Yeah."

Aksa cheered happily.

I looked towards Mas Aji. Because his face was on my shoulder, making the distance between our faces both very close when turning.

"Mas!"

"Yes?"

"Never talk about anything uncertain, never promise to the children" I said slowly.

"For sure, baby. I'll take you out for a walk next week."

I let out a breath. "Tomorrow we're official. Next week I will be in the village. So it won't, Mom."

Mas Aji took off his grip. Distance between our positions. He rubbed his face rough. "Mas doesn't want to! I don't want to separate, honey."

After saying that, Mas Aji went to his study. I followed, having previously spoken to Zayn and Aksa.

"Mas ... try to understand and accept" I said after arriving.

Mas Aji was sitting with his eyes closed. His body rests completely on his chair.

"Tomorrow we're officially divorced, please you have to accept everything. It's the best decision for both of us."

Mas Aji did not heed. Still in the same position. It's just, I see her breathing is hunting a little now.

A second later, he got up. Uncommanded she hugged me tightly. Even so tight my body almost staggered.

I don't know what he said until he was able to hypnotize me. Kiss my lips softly. Stamp it friendly.

Still the same, the kiss she gave me successfully floated.

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