Distance to Heart

P a r t 5

"But once you get to Puskesmas, you should go directly to the pharmacy, directly take contraceptive drugs so you don't get pregnant, Kay," said Mariana.

"I also thought about it, Na, but-,"

"But what, Kay?"

"You know what the Puskesmas were like at the time? Boro-boro I can go to the pharmacy right then and there. Once there, the patient has grown. Because of the accident.

"Well, I was there, too, taking care of the patients. At that time the situation was very chaotic, due to too many patients,"

I immediately put my baby back to sleep at its original place. Very carefully I put down her tiny body.

"But I salute you and this baby,"

"Wrap, what does that mean?"

"You can hide this pregnancy until the end. Until this baby can be born into the world,"

"That's good, I can still keep working as usual. When this baby is in the stomach. Emang, do not fuss this child, do not ask for anything, "

"I don't think I've ever seen morning sickness?"

"Four ngalamin really, but only for a moment, and if about food never ask for anything. All food, I eat. As long as it is not illegal food," I explained and was greeted with laughter Mariana, but immediately closed my mouth for fear of disturbing the comfort of the baby.

"Then, what about Windy?

"So, until now I have never been in contact or even met the woman again" I replied with a shoulder.

"I feel like what you're saying has something to do with Windy. Like all this has she planned?"

"I also thought so. When the biological father of this baby is still diligent in contacting me by phone, even though I am actually lazy to respond to it. He also said it was like that,"

"Until something happens, Na. Something I'm afraid of. I pregnant. I originally intended to abort her, but my instincts as a doctor and a woman. Makes me undo that evil intent,"

"But not that Andra has promised to take responsibility, if anything happens to you, Kay,"

"About that, I have also told you about the state of this pregnancy as well as her and she also promised to meet me here. We have arranged all plans about the future of this baby I have, but until the day of the meeting even to this day. He disappeared like swallowed up by the earth, Na,"

I returned to shed tears, it hurt so much to the heart. When I remember all the events I experienced alone. Heavy phases during pregnancy, hiding them from people, until I gave birth. It felt so heavy that it almost gave up.

"So, you didn't try to contact her?"

"Udah, Na. Many times, but the phone is not active. It seemed like he had indeed deliberately shied away from this responsibility,"

"Basar guy emang average all bangkek, shithead. Ask in the slepet," said Mariana.

As for me who heard his curse, I can only smile bitterly. A calm and gentle Mariana could say so to vent all her emotions for what I was going through.

"I'm sorry, about what?" cut me while scrunching my forehead.

"As for me who sneaks into this room often,"

"You sneaked, how could you?" many wonder.

Mariana's head nodded then smiled as she closed her mouth.

"Do you laugh, anyway?"

"I slipped into this room, because I wanted to check on you. As a midwife, obviously I know about this change in your body. You always hid it from me. I did not intentionally ask about this. I thought that someday, you would want to tell me about this pregnancy, but in fact it is only today that you want to tell me all this. That's after you gave birth, too,"

"To be honest, I'm ashamed, Na. Want to tell me about this situation it's the same for you. It's a disgrace to me. From that dark night until I finally found out I was pregnant. My life has been messed up, ruined, and ruined. But I'm still thankful that this baby is stronger, healthier, than I thought,"

After knowing that Mariana also cares about my situation. It feels right to me thank you for everything. For what he's been doing all this time without me knowing.

"Then, how did you sneak into this room?'

Mariana smiled and whispered to me.

"Mistake it yourself, why are you sleeping like a kebo and careless? Often forgets what doors are locked. Until I can go in to check the condition of your stomach while uncovering the negligee you wear, slowly to check your pregnancy. It's like you don't know, either,"

I shook my head while commenting on the smile and was moved to hear the explanation from Mariana. Co-worker and one house who has been very good, caring, and never wanted to know or interfere in the affairs of his friends. Even if he really wanted it.

"Then, how did you get to know Nurbaiti, and what would you do with him?"

"Nurbaiti was a patient who had been treated at Puskesmas. He had been depressed. He almost committed suicide. He lost his son twice because he was born prematurely,"

"I know that from her husband's story. Therefore, I plan to give this baby, to be taken care of by Nurbaiti and her husband, to make them his adopted child," I added while putting my baby that I have been in bed.

"Are you sure, Kay? This baby is your child, you know, you've only been with him for a while, do you really have no affection for him even though this baby you didn't expect,"

"I love her very much, Na. What else after I had a hard labor. The stitches are also still very sick, but soon I want to go back to Jakarta and gather with family. How do I explain this child to my family? What else my mother has a history of weak hearts,"

Mariana could not see my sadness, spontaneously hugging and rubbing my back. Mariana and I ended up crying together again. Mariana asked me not to give this baby to Nurbaiti and her husband. As long as I am still in this village let the baby stay with me what else he still really needs exclusive for his growth for the next six months.

While Nurbaiti will be used as a babysitter during my work and I will give a wage every month. It was of course welcomed by Nurbaiti and the husband who was ready to become a baby adoptive parent who has not been given a name by me.

I, as a mother, can take care of her. For nine months, I was pregnant. During that time I hid this pregnancy. Honestly, it feels hard to go through this phase, but I am grateful for having a small and tall body. So that my stomach is enlarged is not obvious what else I usually use loose clothes so that my stomach can be disguised during pregnancy.

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Hi, everyone who read this story.Greetings, sorry yes, if this writing is still typo. hopefully you can understand and read the story until the end, yes.thank you, thank you, greetings Yellow Bucket 🙏