Distance to Heart

P a r t 17

I will never forget this night for the rest of my life. A historic and happy night. Because for the first time, I interacted with Andra and Razka. The three of us had a small talk. However, full of cheerfulness so that invites laughter. Between us so it just flows. To the extent that I forgot if actually the drowsiness in my eyes that had been very felt, even disappeared swept away by the laughter that had echoed earlier.

"When are you going to the hospital to see Razka?" said the five-year-old boy mimicked his father's words.

As I was flabbergasted, my heart was filled with the words that the little boy had just spoken. It felt like these tears just slipped from my eyes when I heard the word "Mama" spoken from her little mouth, even though his words were just imitating the word for word that came out of his father's mouth. But it can make my eyes tear up. I'm happy, I'm happy. When the baby I was born with a life gamble. Now growing up to be a good, smart, and obedient child to parents..

"Mama" said the words from her little lips. Able to make my heart tremble until the flow of blood flow so swift. I asked myself again. Do I deserve to be called by that name? Is it worth it that I am still waiting for her arrival?

While what I did to him earlier could have hurt his heart later on. Yes, it's true that I'm her real mother. The woman who fought for her life to bring her into the world. However, I am the mother who willingly gave her to others. To be cared for, protected, and given the livelihood that parents give to their children. React back my mind struggling, felt so pain, even felt so tight to breathe..

"Mama, why are you dumb?" said again.

"What the hell are you thinking, you?" andra timpal.

"Oh no, don't be dumb, baby. Just Aunty again happy because Razka told Auntie. Eh means Mama," I said as I wiped a speck of clear grain that finally escaped also from my two eyeballs.

"Mama, cry?" said again.

"Dear, Mama is so happy. Mama's happy, because Razka's healthy. Maybe Razka can come home from the hospital tomorrow, too,"

"Mom tomorrow pick me home, will you?"

"Dear baby, Mama will pick me up," I replied that of course I can not refuse Razka's wishes.

After ending the conversation, I began to feel drowsiness again, as my mouth was constantly yawning. Now comes the time to close my eyes while smiling happily because the chat with Razka made me happy. Moreover, the boy now called me Mama. The words I wanted to hear from his mouth. Different than this afternoon. When I first met him. He called me a aunt. Honest when the word came from his little mouth. My heart feels torn, painful and bloodless. When Razka said that.

***

Today I didn't practice at the hospital, because I was going to pick Razka home from the hospital, I just went alone. No Andra was accompanying. Because the man was busy with his work. So early in the morning he told me, couldn't accompany me to pick up Razka.

At six o'clock in the morning, I was driving alone, I left early so as not to get stuck in a long traffic jam so I could be on time to my destination. But thankfully, only once did I feel a bottleneck, so that I could get to the destination even though I had a slight delay

Upon arrival at the hospital, I saw Razka was well dressed, she was sitting on the sofa watching a television show. While Nurbaiti is busy taking care of the needs so that Razka can go home. The woman did not need to bother with the cost of treatment because everything had been fully borne by Andra. He only came to take the drug after the doctor gave a little consultation and prescribed the drug to be taken at the pharmacy.

I chatted with Razka while slightly joking with her. Before Nurbaiti came after returning from the pharmacy. Seeing the sweet smile on his face certainly made me happy many times. I didn't expect that I could meet and chat this close to my own son. There was no revenge, he just gave me a smile that made me drunk. I love him so much. Even though the boy had once refused his presence.

The distance between the hospital and the Nurbaiti house only took thirty minutes, the three of us got there before Zuhur time arrived. This is the first time I've been to the new Nurbaiti house. Besides living with Razka, the woman. Apparently also lives with Siti her biological child and Nurhayati her sister who is still in high school.

Although now Nurbaiti has become a widow at a relatively young age, because her husband died. But I saw no more sadness on his face. He told me a lot in the car. If her children and her sister are the ones who keep her excited, run her life. If they were not there, it might just be sadness that continues to mourn the twenty-seven-year-old woman's life.

During the trip, Andra also monitored our position. The man made a video call through Nurbaiti's cell phone. Interacting with Razka. So that makes the little boy not bored during the trip home. We also had to find traffic on the way home. While Razka was joking with Andra through a video call accompanied by Nurbaiti in the passenger seat. I also drive a vehicle.

"Where is the road of Mama's car. Fast what's slow?" ask Andra in the chat.

"Obsolutely normal. Not fast nor slow, Pa" he replied.

"What kind of turtle deer is it, Mas Razka?"

"Turtle anyway, but so tortoise, Pa"

"Okay, Doctor Ma'am. What the hell, Mom. Denger no tuh, complained the same Mas Razka," said Andra joking.

"Be quiet, Mr. Andra. Don't let me ride on the ap!" I said that pretended to be annoyed while continuing to drive.

"Pa, what's that apogee ride, anyway? ask Razka.

"Rise the apitam.., try Razka to tell Mama. It was Mama who said, after all Mama Kana was a doctor. So Mama Kana is smart," Andra explained.

Yes, yes, Mom. Mama Kanaya is a doctor" she asked Nurbaiti. Nurbaiti nodded.

"Horry...,"

Seeing the nod from Nurbaiti, Razka's eyes sparkled, his smile was no less sumringah. He was happy because the woman he had only known for a few days was a doctor.

"Razka, what's wrong with you, son?" tanya Nurbaiti continued with the glare of my head,"

"I'm happy, Mom. It turns out Mama Kanaya is a doctor. So, if Razka is sick, treat her with Mama Kanaya. No need to go to the hospital anymore. Razka is upset when injected," he explained.

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