Distance to Heart

P a r t 29

It was getting late, but my eyes were hard to shut, but this mouth had repeatedly evaporated. Right now I still sleep alone in the main room while Andra still occupies a smaller room. That man still doesn't want to sleep with me. Maybe, he's still giving me time to adapt to living with him or I don't know! I was still trying to understand everything he planned.

I decided to get out of the room and intend to go to the balcony to look for fresh air and views around while enjoying the flickering street lights from the fourteenth floor at night. When I opened the door. I saw Andra doing some work with her laptop at the dinner table. His face is serious. Many times the man yawned. However, he remains focused on the laptop screen and has no intention of stopping his work.

I go to the balcony and prefer to go to the kitchen. Wanted to drink and make a warm drink for my husband. Seven minutes passed the drink was ready I gave it to him.

"Thank you" he said as I put down the glass for him. However, his gaze remained fixed on the laptop screen.

I then shifted the chair in front of me, then sat down while sipping the cold water that I had taken earlier. Hearing my voice gulp down water made Andra glance at me and to sip the drink I served her.

"Cock milk anyway, Kanaya?" he said when he saw the drink I made in white.

"Have a drink, don't comment much" I replied casually.

With a slightly forced face, Andra took the glass and sipped the milk I had just made.

"Ih, tasteless again," he said, sticking out the tongue of a sign of dislike.

"If I make you coffee, then you can not sleep, mending drink milk, but do not use sugar. Be healthy,"

"It's hard, if you marry a doctor,"

"Who told me to marry me,"

Although misuh-misuh, Andra still drank the milk until only half a glass.

"You yourself say gini day has not slept as well" he said.

"I can't sleep. The same thought happened last afternoon. That day, I was found by a patient who was pregnant. Uh, I don't know if he's Erwin's wife,"

Andra who was drinking milk, immediately choked because of hearing my words. Spontaneous I also hurriedly thrust the water I took earlier even though only a quarter of a glass. He took it and drank it.

"Kok can Erwin's wife come to the hospital?"andra asked after finishing my water.

"Yes, don't know. The guy suddenly came. I think he's the same patient as everyone else. Want to check the content. Do you know him too?"

"No, just know. Erwin was an exemplary employee, quite prominent in the office.so, everyone who worked with him. The average person knows about their status?,"

"Why don't you tell me, Ndra?"

"You know what else, Kanaya. Yeah, I just know too. If Erwin was married. I know it's fitting that the company again conducts a trip with all employees and their families. So he took his wife with his kids, but that was three years ago. Yeah, now I think he's divorced. That's why he wants to marry you,"

I just quietly heard all the ravings of Andra while tapping slowly on the table using my fingers to ward off loneliness at night.

"She told me that she married Erwin and she is now pregnant,"

"That means you've been tricked 'dong, same Erwin,"

I then nodded

"Kok can, a Kanaya Nadhira, a beautiful and smart doctor has a specialist title as well. Deceived by a guy like Erwin," Andra quipped while laughing.

"Well, I'm an ordinary man too. The guy I knew Erwin for as long as he lived with his mother. Yeah, I thought, she was single. Her mother's side didn't say much about her son's past, either,"

"Well, it's 'tuh whose name is mode. Where did you know Erwin?"

"In the hospital canteen, Erwin again waited for his mother who was treated. Alah, but you yourself are also my mode of marriage. Yeah, right?"

"That's the mode, but I mean it well, but Papa you've also given me your blessing,"

"Where do you know Papa?"

"At the company party of our business partner.at that time, I already know Papa, but 'do you not know who I am?"

"So, before the party, you knew Papa?"

"It's just knowing that Papa is your parents. About you and your family it's easy. Just a match of information to Windy,"

"To be honest, what's your goal is to find out is that I'm with my family. Are you not responsible for me and my baby six years ago?" I said with a high tone.

Andra then tidied up all the papers, files, and closed the laptop. Perhaps, he realized that there would be a commotion. Andra moved the chair and sat down. While I was silent while staring intently and my finger was playing at the end of the nightgown I was wearing. Andra cleared his throat and said,

"For everyone, once again I'm especially sorry about you, Kanaya. But honestly, this is not what you imagine. For God's sake! I did not forget you and our future child at that time. I can explain all this, but not sek-,"

"What's wrong, Ndra? No need to talk for God's sake. If in fact you also choose other women rather than being responsible for what you do with me, Ndra!!" I said wrathfully as I shifted the chair, took a long step into the room while slamming the door again and locking it.

I'm back in wrath, every time I bring up something that happened six years ago. A dark incident with Andra. What I really want to throw away, but in fact the universe seems reluctant to predestine me to be away from it. Now that guy I want to stay away from. It turned out to be my husband, even though behind it all there was something he wanted to make happen for my son Razka.

***

I still didn't talk to him this morning. I was more silent while doing my duty as a wife in the morning. If I want to talk to him, I'll just talk as necessary. Andra was not trying to melt the atmosphere. The man was more silent, only occasionally looking at my face which made me want to scratch his face. Without trying to ask what I really want from him?

To be honest I only want this man who has become my priest. I want to speak with four eyes and heart to heart with you to explain what happened to her six years ago. Why break up contact and disappear no news? It's like forgetting everything we planned. I want him to tell me about it in detail, not half as much as what he did last time. So it's like a puzzle that I have to solve by myself if I want to get the answer.

Seriate...