Distance to Heart

P a r t 4

After being examined by the officials there, it turned out that I was unconscious so Windy told Andra to carry me to the inn where they were staying, because the distance of the inn with a restaurant is not too far, it is quite a walk.

My body was placed on the bed upon arrival in Windy's room. She took off the skate shoes I was wearing. He looked at Andra who was like a panicked person.

"Lo why, Ndra?" windy asked as he touched his forehead which was already sweating a lot.

"Don't touch the cave, Win," he panicked.

"Lo's sick?"

"No idea, Win. All of a sudden the cave got this way, better cave,"

"You're here, wait for Kanaya. Let the cave look for medicine for you, let you quickly fix it," Windy told Andra not to go out of the room.

Windy rushed out, leaving Andra and I in the room. A minute passed. But Windy did not come. No more seeing his nose. Where did the woman go ? Looking for a cure for Andra who is not feeling well.

The hot air felt in Andra's body was getting worse. As strong as the young man tried to restrain his lust. He tried to stay away and leaned behind the door. However, the heat was increasingly becoming-so that made Andra was no longer able to hold back.

"Where are you going, Win? muttered.

Until something uncontrollable happens. Andra really did something inappropriate. The young man vented all of it on me. Doing a profane deed to an unconscious girl. Moreover, this girl only a few hours ago he recognized. With ease Andra touched the area that I had been protecting. Yes, that crown, it's been forcibly snatched away tonight. Andra really can't control herself. Exploring as he pleases to all corners of this body. Like a starving beast that has no conscience.

***

And when I opened my eyes, my gaze circulated throughout the room. I realized this was not my usual room. There are different flavors that I feel . Starting from dizziness, the body feels sore, to my lower area that feels sore. Out of curiosity, I then revealed the blanket that wrapped my body. I realized I wasn't wearing the clothes I was wearing last night. My body is currently plain and only covered in this thick blanket.

While I looked to the side. It turns out that there is an Andra who is sleeping and is only wearing ****** *****. The fear began to appear and I did not feel sobbing, crying over this misfortune, I never imagined. If something like this would happen to me. I'm a good girl, from a good family, and an honorable one. So what if they find out that I, her son, was corrupted by a young man she had only known a few hours ago? Perhaps, hearing my heart-wrenching cry turned into a thunderous roar, making the young man wake up, but not until he opened his eyes.

"Don't be noisy, don't disturb the cave again to sleep," he said.

He was aghast, when he realized I was beside him roaring, lamenting what had happened to me and to him. Andra started to get confused and panicked by this situation. I don't know who wants this to happen? Having realized his condition was as apprehensive as me. He then aligned his body with mine, and his hand tried to touch my shoulder because my position was leaning on the head of the bed. However, it hastily struck me harshly because what she had done last night had smeared, destroyed, and damaged my dignity, and my future as a woman.

I was crying all the more so, unable to stem the many tears that came out of both corners of my eyes, while Andra tried to hug me even though I refused many times. His mouth kept begging me to forgive and forgive what he did a few hours ago, he confessed his mistake that happened to me. The man promised to take responsibility for what he had done to me.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Kanaya. I admit to this mistake, but I'm actually also confused as to why I could do that. For God's sake this is the first time I've done it and it doesn't seem to be in my control" he said, holding his head.

"WHAT'D YOU SAY! PARDON ME! FOR CHRISSAKE!NOT KENDALIMU! SO WHO DID ALL THIS TO ME? IF IT WASN'T YOU, WHAT A GHOST, HUH!" I said wrathfully while pounding Andra's arm with strength my emotions could not control while the man just silently received all the blows I gave without retaliating in the least.

It felt like since tonight, I wanted to end myself, free-falling into the vast ocean. I failed at being a girl. For not being able to protect what is his honor. From tonight on, I assume my body is dirty.

I then went to the bathroom to clean myself, so that no seeds would grow in my body even though I had to spend hours in the bathroom. However, damn a nurse called me to ask me. To come to Puskesmas immediately. This morning the patient at Puskesmas boomed because there was an accident not far from Puskesmas.

"Hello, Doctor Kay. Can come to Puskesmas, we need your help immediately. Please, Doc," he said.

I want to refuse hard. But the soul of my humanity is called, my heart says, that I may help it. This is an inner conflict that I cannot feel. Even though my heart is breaking. I need to help people who need my help.

I cleaned myself very quickly and put on my clothes. Andra did not wash herself and put on her clothes. I don't know what he's gonna do. I went out of the room without saying goodbye to her.

I was feeling a mess when I left the hotel. After this happened, what should I do other than apologize to God. Because I have committed a great sin. Breaking religious orders, as a servant I felt really dirty and worthless.

I hate myself so much, so negligent because I'm not good at taking care of myself. The tears fell again. I really don't care about my current situation. I walked towards the ojek base, so that I could hurry to Puskesmas. I don't know how many times my phone rings. But I no longer respond.

"Come in, let me drop off" he said.

I just kept quiet and threw my face away from her, but Andra got out of the car and got me in her car.

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