Distance to Heart

P a r t 35

Not yet complete my anger at my husband, even though Andra herself had the initiative to follow me and Razka to my parents' house. There he reasoned to feel also staying at my house. Since marriage until now. The man had never stayed at my house as a temporary daughter-in-law for my troubles he was not even willing to reveal what the real reason was.

Although upset, I do not want this fight to be read or guessed by Papa and My Mom. My husband and I tried to hide it as if nothing had happened. We behaved like happy and harmonious newlyweds in the early days of marriage.

Just last night for my little family to stay at my parents' house as a form of child service to both parents. In the afternoon we decided to go back to the apartment. However, while on the way Andra took me and Razka to stop by at one of the Mall near the apartment. There the man was able to please his wife and son. She and Razka chose to visit the gaming venue while I shopped for monthly necessities and some clothes for Razka on different floors.

***

The day off is over and I'm back at my job as an obstetrician. The first day of entry alone there were two patients that I had to deal with running the "racing section" and other routine activities that I used to live. I feel tired, of course. However, upon arrival at the apartment looks like the room is already bright with lighting lights when I saw the clock on the wrist just stepped on at half five in the afternoon.

I then stepped towards the sofa and sat my buttocks with my feet in the side. Shortly afterwards Andra came out of her room and sat down before me in neat house clothes and a fragrant smell striking the nose.

"Tumben's coming home fast, where are you going?" my many.

"Yes, today all my work is done, so I can be free, "he replied with a big smile.

I frowned and asked in my heart. What does it mean to be free ?Is he willing to," 

"Keep, what about Razka's birth certificate?" my many.

Andra smiled, she did not answer just give the blue map that was originally on the table to me.

I received the map. It's not because of my feelings. If true, this blue map contains Razka's birth certificate. What that means is, this is the end of the separation between me and Andra. My heart was pounding as I opened the map and it was right inside that Razka's birth certificate. Wasn't it because this paper that was the main purpose of the man before me was willing to marry me.

"Are you happy, Razka has finally become our legitimate child in accordance with the laws of the country," I asked again.

"Surely I am happy. Int means, one more wish I realized," he replied with a smile.

While I was still moved, but there was a tightness in the part of my heart that was as strong as I could cover.

"And here's another one" Andra said, handing a brown envelope from her hand.

As soon as my face turned pale, what I feared would happen as well. It turned out that he was really going to divorce me. And we also had a disagreement because of this problem. On the other hand I want to keep the marriage but Andra instead if. Is it possible that Windy, Carlina, and Papa just said to please my heart?

"Why bengong, Kanaya. Let's get the envelope open quickly?" his words while my whole body trembled.

"Ndra, did it just get here? Is there no other way, can we not try," I sneered as I melted tears before opening the envelope.

Andra frowned, and then rushed to squat in front of me. His finger rubbed the tears that kept falling down my cheek.

"You are, why? Wouldn't it be nice if I gave you something you wanted, Kanaya?"

Andra sighed, then moved my limp finger and grasped it .

"I'm tired of making this happen so you're happy, but you're just kind of sick, I'm confused. What do you want, Kanaya?"

"Do you really hate me, what a little you don't expect this marriage to last for a long time, ap-,"

Andra suddenly kissed my lips and that certainly surprised me.

"That's not a divorce?"

"It's open first, don't judge a book by its the cover" he said.

Andra then gave the envelope that fell into my hand again. Slowly and carefully I opened it. I closed my eyes before my eyes opened wide and my smile began to expand. Because I finally found out what was inside that envelope. Apparently, two tickets return honeymoon trip to five countries in continental Europe.

"I want us on vacation, all on our honeymoon. Later there I want to invite you to watch the ball directly. We can go to pizza country, to Queen Elizabeth country, to the Eiffel tower, Monte Carlo beach and windmill country. Yeah, even if it's only been two weeks we've been there,"

"Eat him lately I often overtime even to stay up late, so we can vacation, baby. I love you so much, Kanaya. Don't ever think you're gonna leave me" he concluded.

Me and Andra then embrace each other, forgive each other, and cry together to express the feeling that has been buried in each other's hearts.

Since that confession, my relationship with Andra has grown closer, the two of us are no longer sleeping separately, even though the inner need has not been implemented, because Andra still gives me time.

***

A few days before departure, I packed up the clothes to be used during our honeymoon while my husband was working with his laptop on the bed.

"Well, what will it be after we finish our honeymoon. You want Razka to stay with us here?" my many.

"No, Razka stays with Nurbaiti, no,"

"But Yang, Razka's our son. We're her real parents,"

"Let Razka be there, she's comfortable with her mother and foster sister" he explained again while keeping a close eye on the laptop.

I who was upset could only shut up and choose to avoid going out of the room rather than causing a commotion that could stain the honeymoon departure plan that was in sight.

It is better to choose to be alone on the balcony while enjoying the breeze and the lights that illuminate the city by digesting the words spoken by my husband earlier. Suddenly a pair of hands were already tightly hugging my waist and smelling my scent.

"I also want to be like you, Razka to stay with us, but what about Razka who's been comfortable living with them all this time?"

"When you've taken care of your personal data for Razka. At that time, I was hoping that we could be one whole family like any other,"

"Yes, I know, honey. But don't you feel sorry for Nurbaiti or Siti? Because they have to be separated from their children and siblings. Because I have to live with my biological parents . Razka considers Nurbaiti and Siti to be family. So there is an inner bond that cannot be separated" he said, turning my body upside down.

"Even if we live apart, Razka is still our son, our flesh and blood. Can't we still visit it whenever we want. Razka can still stay here on her school day off, too" Andra said, hugging me tightly while I only cried bitterly, regretting what I had decided.

Andra then carried me and took me to my room. While putting my body to sleep, he glanced at the kimono I was wearing, my heart was racing as he looked at her, as well as her. We both looked at each other. Without permission the man stuck his lips to my lips deepened until Andra began to dare to open my kimon hook.

I just let him start exploring every inch of this body, touching all over the skin to create stings that cause a sensation of pleasure that makes me feel like exploding. But this is something I have only consciously felt and have wanted before.

Let it be tonight as our unification night. To meet the legitimate inner needs of a married couple. With awareness, love, and sincerity in the heart. In order to fulfill the obligations that are commonly performed by couples who are legally bound. To make it clear that I am his and he is mine.

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