Distance to Heart

P a r t 38

Andra and I were surveying the location of the house we were going to live in, as well as the school that would make Razka a place to study for the first time. Indeed, entering it in kindergarten school like now is a little late considering Razka's age of more than six years. But for me it's a problem. Razka's unplanned presence and the life that the boy had to live was not easy and different from other children in general.

It hurts this heart, if you remember those memories. Where I had to accept the consequences of the misunderstanding that caused the one night mistake to occur. I therefore had to fight alone, hiding this all until the time came. The pain of having to bring Razka into the world. Maybe not worth the pain if one day he knows why he exists?The life in his path is different from his peers.

Has two mothers, two fathers and does not live with his biological parents. Indeed, both I and Andra realized, if all that happened was destiny and the mistake made us both know and are now trying to improve ourselves, become good parents, and we are now trying to improve ourselves, forget what has happened in the past, and become a loving and responsible family.

***

Before going to bed usually me and Andra do pillowtalk first. This is done to maintain our intimacy as a married couple instead of heavy chatter just a small talk discussing how we both move outdoors in a day? And this was done when I allowed Andra to sleep one bed and one room with her.

"We're on vacation, yuk" Andra said.

"Holiday, where to?"

"Near by, the suburbs. Not too long, at least a day a night,"

"It's just the two of us,"

"Yes, no. We take Razka, Nurbaiti and his family. Your family too,"

"You mean, we're on a rame-rame vacation?"

"Yes, it must be exciting, right,"

"Yes too, anyway. Surely Razka would be very happy. Where do you want to take us on vacation? Do not suddenly like that time," I said as my lips pursed.

"No, I've been thinking about this for a week, I've been preparing everything, too,"

"Where do we want to go on holiday?"

"To the Peak of Bogor. We rent a villa for one day, two days there,"

"No rent, Yang. Later I said to Papa, we borrow the villas. Papa certainly can, besides my family also take a vacation there. As long as you haven't hired anyone, yes,"

"Keep, when are we on vacation?" my many.

"Weekend, this week,"

"Okay then, tomorrow I have no practice hours. So I can play home. I'd like to say about this holiday with Papa and Mama. So if we're moving to a new house and school for Razka, how, Yang,"

"If it's about that, let's just set everything up. You want to buy or rent a house, up to you. My job is to pay and if it's about Razka's school. Find something important near home. Let's go later if Nurbaiti takes Razka. He's not a fuss, " explained Andra.

Hearing the explanation from my husband, I just nodded.

Andra and I were planning to move from an apartment to a regular house. Actually Andra already has a house relics from both of his late parents. However, neither I nor Andra wanted to live there. We even want to live in the same housing as Nurbaiti.

Although the housing was just ordinary housing and was in the suburbs, but me and Andra chose it because we both wanted to live close to our son Razka. Moreover, two more months for the first time he will go to school in kindergarten.

Not only did Razka feel happy about being a student at school for the first time, but also me and Andra as her parents. Especially during this school registration. There's been a state-sanctioned letter proving that Razka is the biological son of me and Andra.

***

Like I said last night to Andra, if today I have a practice holiday so this time I use it to visit kindergarten school which will be Razka's learning place for the next year. The six-year-old boy over that I will enter the kindergarten school class B because of his age of six years and above.

It should have been from last year, Razka was in college, but because of that time there was no official document from the state about his origin. Andra as his biological father had argued and banned Razka in school by Nurbaiti who incidentally as his foster mother.

It's not about Andra not being able to send her son to school. Even if Andra wanted to he could send Razka to the elite and leading schools in the country. However, this is not a case of money but a legitimate recognition if Razka Fadillah is his biological son.

But on the other hand, Nurbaiti also has the right to determine the future even though Razka is not his biological child. Not since I was a red baby. It was the woman who took care of and nurtured Razka. Even the name Razka Fadillah is the result of negotiating himself and his husband with the meaning that the presence of Razka in the middle of their small family.

It is the ultimate gift from God. After two times Nurbaiti experienced sadness considering that she had to fail to become a mother because she had experienced a miscarriage and had to experience the birth of a premature baby and unfortunately the baby died.

***

"Assalamualaikum" I said before entering the parents' house.

"Walaikumsalam uh, so you came. Mama thinks it's a joke,"

"What the hell, Ma? People my age are still joking, especially the same parents," I said as I reached for Mama's hand.

"No, Ma. I've finished listing Razka's school, and look at home. God willing, in two months he's been in kindergarten,"

"Oh my God, my grandson wants to go to school. Where was he not invited here?"

"No way, Ma. I'm ajakin. But he was happy at home. You only get new toys from the Papa yesterday purchased when we go to the Mall.

"So, do you want to move to a new house?"

"So Ma, but for a while I'm the same Andra want to rent it there first after comfortable and at home stay. There's a chance we'll buy the house,"

"Why don't you live here or in our house which is usually rented? It just so happens that last month no one is renting out his time, "

"If about the house in Jakarta, Andra also has Ma. Relics of his parents, but all this time only in the residence of ART. You see Andra prefers to live in an apartment he said more practical. Papa's coming home, Ma's resting,"

"What's all of a sudden 'kok you say, Papa?"

"You need to be the same Papa and Mama,"

"You said, what. Is it about happiness. Are you pregnant again?" guess Mama while smiling happily,"

My mother's smile returned with a twitch.

"That'll make you laugh, Mama's guess is correct. You're pregnant again,"

"Who's pregnant? My guy's not pregnant yet 'kok,"

"Keep making you laugh like that" replied Mama sewot.

"Yes out, Mama was compact with Mama's favorite daughter-in-law. Si Andra's. Ask me to get pregnant again,

**"

"Eh, what's going on. Mother-by-day with the child in the storm?" said a man who suddenly drowned in my chat with Mama.

"Father!" seruku compact with Mama.

"Finally can have lunch at home with Papa," I said happily.

"Tumben, just go home for lunch and bring a bag of everything, Pa," said Mama.

"Yes, here. Papa all go home, because Papa's body is sore and unpleasant,"

"You want to get us to the doctor, Pa?" my spoken.

"You're funny, Kay. Your man is a doctor, why would you even take Papa to the doctor?"

"It's different, Pa. I'm an obstetrician. This papa, how is it?"

"Yes, but at least you know the medicine that Papa should take. Lha wong, Papa is just not feeling well,"

"Well, if so, I'll buy Papa the drug online only, yes,"

"Why do you look for Papa there must be another meaning, isn't it just kangen?"

"I'm the same Andra wants to borrow Papa's villa in Bogor. You can't,"

"Make, what? Do you want a second honeymoon with your husband?"

"That's good, Mama agreed," said Mama who suddenly nodded at the chat.

"No, I'm the same Andra just want a vacation. Not only the two, but there are Razka, Nurbaiti and family, all of you also want to take Papa, Mama, and Kamila, vacation with us. How, Pa, Ma. Agreed no?"

"Well, it's 'that we agree!" exclaim Papa and Mama compact.

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