Distance to Heart

P a r t 34

It's nine o'clock in the evening and Andra hasn't come home from work yet. The man also did not reply to the message I sent three hours ago. It's actually not the first time she's been home this late since we got married. It's just that usually Andra, will send a message to tell if he'll be home tonight. Indeed lately, he was busy with work.at home only after eating and praying Isya, he would dwell with his files and laptop until early morning.

I often remind him, so do not stay up often because it is not good for health. However, Andra was still Andra even though his mouth said Yes, his ears heard all the explanations, but still he would do the same activity and that made me shake my head while stroking my chest.

While watching a television show to reduce saturation, there was a sound of the door being knocked, I immediately turned off the television and rushed to open the door. Suddenly I was surprised to see Andra standing in the doorway while carrying Razka who was asleep in her carrier. He looks so troubled. Because his two hands carry two bags at once, his backpack and briefcase.

Seeing that I immediately took the initiative to take over holding Razka. Andra refused. He even thrust his backpack and work bag that is heavy like a stone that is put in a bag.

"Must stay up again" I said in my heart as I took the two bags out of his hand.

I gave her a way in, locked the door and walked behind her. Andra went into my room to put Razka to sleep while I wanted to go into Andra's room to put down her bag. However, he forbade me to put it on the dining table as usual. Hmmm, if this is the case, you can be sure Andra will work until late at night again.

After putting the bag on the table, I turned to the pantry to warm up the food for her the dinner I had cooked earlier. Mumpung Andra was still cleaning himself and changing clothes in his room. However, upon hearing the stove button is turned on. Andra suddenly opened her bedroom door, she was already bare-chested.

"Don't warm the food for me, but if it's for you to eat. Yeah, it's okay. If I just want to make some coffee,"

"Drinking coffee at night, you want to stay up again" I said a little annoyed.

"Tomorrow's a holiday. Why not tomorrow, overtime? Tonight, you went to bed earlier in the room, three of you," I said.

"No way, Kay. This is deadline. I said it, husband. I don't want to fight with you anymore,"

Even though I was a little upset, I still made him a drink. The drink was finished within seven minutes and I immediately placed it on the table near the bag I had placed.

Ten minutes later, Andra left the room. He approached the table and sat down and sniffed the sweet smell of the steam, but he looked suspicious because it was not the drink he wanted.

"It's not coffee, Kay,"

"Try to observe again. What drink, is that?"

Andra then tasted a little drink using a teaspoon that I have prepared.

"You're wrong, Kay. It's chocolate instead of coffee. This drink isn't what I asked for,"

"So you don't want to drink the chocolate. Yes, it was thrown away. I know I don't like it when you have coffee at night,"

"Yes, no, Kay. I'll drink 'cock '" replied Andra while putting on a pouty face.

While I smiled triumphantly. Innocently I rushed to the room to see Razka sleeping soundly. His snoring and smooth breathing made me feel comfortable being around him. The more the day becomes clearer. His face was not much different from his face.

"She's handsome 'is kayaking me, '" chirped Andra who suddenly stood beside me while I sat on the edge of the bed watching Razka's face.

"Hmmm, even though it does not make it planned, but kok can look very similar to his Papa, where his mother is not designed anymore on his face," I said.

Andra smiled and answered.

"Maybe Mama misses her Papa, Razka's time in the belly,"

I was getting annoyed at Andra's words and pinched her shoulder tight. He complained quietly while rubbing his shoulder that was hit by my pinch. Andra squatted her body with me and her face looked at me. He turned my face towards her.

"For all that has happened. Again I'm sorry. I was wrong to leave you with no clarity, Kanaya," he said, sticking his forehead to my forehead

"It's night, you rest, tomorrow you'll go for a walk with Razka. I will complete the tasks that are still piling up at home" he said again. After that he kissed my forehead long enough and then passed while closing the door.

My heart suddenly beats. This is not the first time I have been treated like this by a man. There used to be Erwin who had done the same thing like that, but why did it feel so different? Is it because Andra is my husband?

***

The knocking of the door suddenly broke my daydream before going to sleep. Andra went back into the room. It seemed like something was left behind so he entered my room again while I had started to lie comfortably while hugging my son's body.

"Oh yes, this is a credit card for you. Tomorrow you can shop what you and Razka like. Do not forget to also take Razka to the playground," explained Andra while putting the credit card on the nightstand.

"What else do you want?" I asked as my heart was beating again.

"No, just want to cover your body with Razka" he replied as he repaired the blanket that began to fall apart.

***

Andra then stepped outside while closing the room door very slowly. While I looked at him with a pus. While continuing to think why my husband has not yet expressed his true feelings and intentions to marry me? I got up from sleep and rushed out to meet him.

***

"What do you mean you gave this card to me, Andra?!

"You mean, what's 'sih, Kanaya? I don't understand why you're suddenly so angry!

"Are you bribing me with that credit card. Yeah, Ndra!"

"Slowly by the way, Kanaya later Razka can wake up,"

"I don't care, you're clear now. What does it mean to you? Is it true after Razka's birth certificate? We're getting a divorce!" my words are accompanied by tears.

"That's not what I meant, Kanaya. We just got married, but you've been talking about it, I just want you to be as happy as a wife and the mother of my son,"

"So that's it, there's no other reason. Ok fine, after Razka's birth certificate so. I'm ready to follow all you want.if you want to take care of the divorce papers, please.later I stay signature," I said as I wiped my tears violently and then stepped into the room and locked the door. While Andra just shook his head seeing his wife suddenly angry.

***

The next day, when the sun was not so high, I took Razka away. The plan was that I would stay at my parents' house and reflect on myself there. Why would I be like that to Andra?

I have been his wife for almost a month. But the man is still the same. Only an apology is thrown when it alludes to the events of six years ago, there is no confession from his mouth. Confession of love or romantic things from him though from what I know. From the stories of some who knew him. Andra loved me, but why when she was with me that confession never came out of her mouth.

"Honey, tonight we sleep in Oma's house with Opa, yes" I said while in the taxi.

"Oma-Opa, who, Ma?" ask Razka.

"Oma-Opa it's Mama's parents,"

"Keep Razka's got no parents, Ma?"

"Have dong dear,"

"As for Razka's parents, who's Ma?"

"Older Razka there are many. There's Mama, Papa, Mom, and Dad,"

"Horeee!!! Razka's parents are many, "he said innocently while applauding happily.

Razka and I were welcomed by my parents and Kamila. They were happy because Razka was finally able to stay there. This was the first time the boy had stayed at his Oma-Opanya house. Me and my family just relax at home. Not go out. Due to heavy rain is flushing the city of Jakarta. Razka was busy playing with her Oma-Opanya in the living room. While Kamila and I were busy making snacks and dishes for lunch.

After lunch, my family and I gathered in the living room. We joke around, laugh together. The presence of Razka in the middle of my family makes Papa and Mama happy because they can play together with their grandchildren.

Suddenly the sound of knocking on the door made us all surprised and looking at the direction of the door, Razka who was sitting straight up and running wanted to open the door, but he asked me for permission and I immediately agreed with a nod of the head.

Krieet!

The door opened and the figure behind the door made Razka smile broadly at him.

"Father !!" he shouted as his body hit Andra who was crouching before him.

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