Destiny Love Maira

The Hospital (Erika)

The day had started to twilight, and Erika had also come home from the cafe where she worked every day. Two months ago Erika was living alone and away from family.

Being alone to survive in the right life really feels so torturous. In the past he only knew asking for and enjoying the results, but now, he had to work to be able to continue living. Who doesn't even know how to go ahead.

Being alone is hard, painful and painful. Especially when hated by people like this. Not only the outsiders, but also the parents.

After meeting with Ervan earlier, Erika's feelings were really upset and sad again. During these two months he had been as strong as possible to organize his heart well. But it seemed, his fragile and weak heart was indeed so tired.

Erika received the censure from others, but why seeing the hateful look of Ervan she was really sad. It felt just like he had been thrown out of his family.

So hurtful.

Arriving at the rented plot, Erika immediately took a bath and ablution, because the day also entered Maghrib time.

Perhaps with prayer his heart can calm down, as he always does this final end.

Yes, Erika has decided to improve herself now. Although she knew she was evil and wrong, but really, in the rest of her time, Erika just wanted to change.

Inside the tenement house Erika lives now, the tenement she got from a nice woman who would ride her.

That night, the night he was kicked out of the house. Erika was already like a madman walking around midnight. Crying with such a miserable appearance. Hugging a small bag dumped by her mother.

Erika was confused, not knowing where. He really wanted to die at that moment.

But there was an old woman, she just came home from selling and brought Erika to this small tenement, a tenement house that only had one room and one bathroom. Very small and stuffy.

The woman asked Erika to stay here and accompany her who was living alone. And the woman also taught Erika to be closer to God so that her sadness and disappointment could be reduced.

And because of that woman, now Erika can change herself for the better and try to Istiqomah in hijab also worship.

Now, for almost a month, the woman had returned to the village to see her child. And stay Erika who knows when to be in this house.

But, Erika was quite grateful, because there were still good people who would hold her while everyone hated her.

Isak's voice crying again sounded in his little room. So bitter, so full of regrets, and so full of pain.

Used, thrown away and shunned by everyone. Very sad not.

Erika held back a cry as her lips continued to utter the sentence of Istighfar hundreds of times. Even until he felt his heart calm and peaceful again.

Ask for the ability by Allah SWT. Ask to be given strength and firm faith so that he remains Istiqomah and does not despair.

Alone doesn't matter, at least he still has a place to complain now.

Yeah, the place she put out all her tears on this prayer mat. Shedding all the burdens in his heart.

God will not condemn it, God will not judge it, and God will not hate it like the others.

The tears kept coming out along with the chanting of his spoken Istighfar. And that's how it is every time Erika finishes praying. Even now, it feels like spending hours on a prayer mat is better than crying and regretting everything.

The old woman said that Allah is forgiving and merciful. And Erika believed, if she really had to repent and improve so that God would forgive her and love her.

Erika doesn't have anyone else now. He's just alone. Alone in endless sadness.

Erika sat on the prayer mat for so long. Even to go into time again. He continued his worship until night. And when she felt that her waist was hurting, Erika moved from there.

Erika did not know to teach, she could not recite the holy verse of the Quran well, because the old woman only taught her to pray and think only. So Erika only knows that. Maybe later he will find a teacher to study.

"Uuhhh" Erika instantly grimaced as she felt her waist throbbing so painfully. In fact, it made Erika immediately fall lying on a mattress folding her bed.

"Tomorrow check it out. It hurts so late" Erika murmured as her closed eyes held back the pain.

For the past month he felt his waist was not okay. Sometimes it always hurts and throbbs, especially if he is tired at work, and also when sitting too long like this. It feels like it can no longer.

And finally, Erika could only lie on that thin bed. Still wearing face. No longer eating dinner, he simply filled his hungry stomach with water alone.

I hope tomorrow the pain will be less.

Before going to bed, again Erika spent time reading the worship guide book. Recite a short surah that is now memorized.

Yeah, that's just Erika's everyday. Spend time getting closer to the power.

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The next day...

Today happens to be Erika gets her holiday ration. In a month, he could take a day off. And today she decided to go to the hospital to check on her health.

Erika just got her second salary last night, so maybe this will be enough for her to check.

Yeah, just check it out instead of medication. Because Erika believes that two million rupiah money will not be enough to check and buy drugs.

Erika was treated by Danar's doctor. Because of his complaints, he was indeed like suffering from an internal illness.

Erika brought her examination file report earlier and walked towards Danar's doctor's room.

Actually he's not tasty, but what's okay to do, this is the provision of the hospital.

Erika took a deep breath before knocking on the door.

tok tok tok tok

"Come in"

the cry from within somehow made his heart beat in pain.

Erika was scared and embarrassed.

Would he also say if this was karma.

Astarghfirullah...

Why is Erika's mind so short-sighted.

Doctor Danar is not that kind of person.

And finally, Erika opened the door and entered the room of the doctor Danar.

"Assalamualaikum doctor" said Erika, sounding so awkward.

"Waalaikumsalam wrwb" replied Dr. Danar. He is seen writing something in a book, and when he looks towards Erika, Danar's doctor seems to react.

Was he surprised?

Erika immediately bowed and immediately walked towards the doctor Danar.

"Sit down, you're Erika right?" ask doctor Danar. Doctor Danar was doubtful. Is it because he's the one who's been hijabed now??

"Yes the doctor, I'm Erika" replied Erika.

Doctor Danar smiled faintly and nodded.

"Check down below. What complaints?" ask Danar's doctor while reaching for the file Erika placed on her desk.

"Doctor's waist pain" replied Erika.

Doctor Danar nodded slowly, and his eyes now read Erika's examination report earlier. And his brows immediately furrowed reading this report.

"Your kidneys are one?" asked the doctor Danar looked at Erika with her calm face as usual.

Erika nodded slowly.

"If I may know, is it congenital, raised, or deliberately raised?" ask doctor Danar.

"Intentionally appointed a doctor. When I was sixteen, I donated one of my kidneys to my sister" Erika said. His answer sounded so bitter.

And because the answer made the doctor Danar seem to sigh, while looking at Erika so seriously. Even Erika was bowed and did not dare to look at the doctor's face.

"According to this examination, your kidneys are already starting to break down. Especially your diet that is not awake. Donating kidneys is not allowed at that young age. Minimum of 18 years. And you're 16 years old, it's very dangerous actually" Danar said

Erika's getting bowed. If he remembered that, he was getting sad. Not even just dangerous, but Erika was almost dead at that time when she was forced to donate her kidneys to her brother who had a history of kidney disease.

"So what do I do now, doctor?" ask Erika.

"If left unchecked, your damaged kidneys will rot. And it's very dangerous for your life"

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"For a while you can do a blood wash every week"

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again Erika's heart seemed to be blown out.

"Or if the dialysis effort is not successful in two months, you must have gotten another kidney donor"

Erika immediately closed her eyes hearing that. It feels weak and not boned.

Why does he have to feel all this.

Oh Allah...

Erika scared.

"If not, will I die?" asked Erika so softly. Even tears had already stemmed on his pale face.

"Erika, life and death are in the hands of God. And as his servant we just need to try and pray." replied Danar doctor

Erika nodded slowly as she brushed away the tears that fell on her face.

"You came alone?" ask doctor Danar.

And really, Danar's question made the wound in Erika's heart even worse.

Erika could only nod slowly

"Where are your parents, you should go with them to discuss your disease" said Danar doctor again.

Erika sighed for a moment and tried to smile when she really wanted to cry.

"Maybe tomorrow I'll be here with them doctor. For now, thank you" said Erika who tried her hardest to hold Isak in her tears. Although Danar's doctor knows, if Erika is very upset right now.

"You have a problem?" ask doctor Danar

Erika shook her head slowly.

"No doctor, I'm fine. Then I say goodbye first. Thanks though. Assalamualaikum" Erika immediately got up from her chair and went straight out leaving the doctor Danar who was still looking at her departure.

"Waalaikumsalam" murmured doctor Danar. He was quite surprised by Erika's actual arrival. The girl seemed to have changed. It has been hijab and it has become arable. But what makes Doctor Danar a little uneasy, is about his pain and where are his parents????

If the damaged kidney is left, Erika's life could be threatened. He did almost make Maira wretched, but as a fellow creature of God, Danar doctor also did not have the heart to see Erika like that. Moreover, it seems that he harbors a burden and pain that is so deep.