Destiny Love Maira

I'll Apply for You

Ervan pushes Erika's wheelchair down the hospital park. The day is still early and the weather is also quite supportive for sunbathing and looking for fresh air.

After being examined by Danar's doctor, Ervan takes Erika out. This morning he was no longer in college. So he can relax a little, even though he will have to go to the company to attend his first meeting representing Mr. Wira.

Erika smiled as she looked at this quite beautiful and spacious garden. He just found out if this hospital park can be as large and beautiful as this.

The air is quite fresh, although it has to share the place with others.

Masha God...

Really, Erika was so grateful that she was still given the chance to breathe at this moment. Still given the opportunity to live life and enjoy the beauty of the world even though only in the hospital area.

All this time, she had always been ungrateful for the healthy favor God had given her, but now, when this pain was given to her, Erika understood, how important it is to enjoy healthy and also the air that he has been breathing.

"You likey?" ervan asked arrived.

Erika smiled faintly and nodded.

"The place is quite beautiful and spacious" said Erika.

"It's a big hospital, obviously it has a park like this. Moreover, this is a private hospital owned by individuals. So it can be arranged how" answered Ervan.

"It belongs to the family of the Kemala doctor, the obstetrician Maira" Erika murmured.

"You know?" ask Ervan.

"Nindi's the story" replied Erika.

Ervan is just a oh. And he led Erika to one of the garden chairs that was there. Ervan sat down and sighed for a moment, as her eyes were flowing looking at the garden area.

Quite a lot of people who sunbathe. And all it contains is patients and nurses.

"You didn't go to college Van?" ask Erika. Makes Ervan slightly gasp.

"No. I'm done with the exam. But in the afternoon I want to go to the company" Ervan replied.

"You should rest at home. You have come here every day Nemani me" said Erika.

"Do you like me being with you?" ask Ervan.

Erika sighed and shook her head slowly. How could he not like being accompanied, if Ervan was one of his spirits to heal. Ervan was the medicine of the fear he had felt all along. And without Ervan, maybe Erika wouldn't be here right now.

"Don't like it, just I'm afraid you are getting angry with Auntie and om again for neglecting the company" said Erika.

"No. Every day I am also in company. I haven't had a job there, just learned a little doang. Later after finishing just starting work" said Ervan.

"You're not going to college anymore?" ask Erika.

"Lecture, but maybe continue here as well as manage the company" replied Ervan.

Erika immediately nodded and looked back to the front, where she saw children playing there.

And suddenly he remembered Akbar and Ayu.

"Van... Have you seen Akbar and Ayu again? I'm worried about them" asked Erika.

Ervan smiled and nodded.

"However, last night whenever I came home from here I always look at them. The money that you entrusted also I have given Akbar for his needs. But the problems of eating and home needs have been taken care of by Ms. Titi. So safe" said Ervan.

"Thankfully, after tomorrow's surgery, I will definitely rarely see them" Erika said quite sadly.

"Later to bring them back. They miss you too. Even Ayu has also asked you to continue" replied Ervan.

"Thank you " said Erika.

"You have to prepare for tomorrow. Don't think about anything" Ervan said.

"Yes.." answered Erika.

Yes, tomorrow is Erika's schedule for her kidney surgery. A few days ago the kidney donor Ervan was looking for had arrived, and they were very grateful if the person's kidney was suitable for Erika. Until after various procedures are done, tomorrow Erika can already get her new kidney.

Although Erika was currently quite afraid to enter the operating room. Fear and trauma as a teenager used to make him really can not calm down.

I think that fear is back now. At the age of fifteen, Erika was forced to donate her kidney to her older sister. That pain and fear still haunts him until now. To make Erika actually so doubtful. But how else, seeing Ervan, Nindi and Danar's doctor who always supported her, made Erika have to hide her fears. Especially with her brother who also wanted her to recover, making Erika only able to resign now. Even if he doesn't know what's going to happen tomorrow.

"Why are you always so nervous when discussing surgery?" ervan's question arrived, and it made Erika gasp.

He smiled wryly and shook his head slowly.

"You scared?" ask Ervan.

"It's common, right?" ask Erika anyway.

But Ervan shook her head and smiled faintly.

"Fear you're different Erika. I know you're scared, even very scared. Ever since I first saw you in pain, I've known that you're scared all the time right" Ervan said.

Erika immediately lowered her head and hid her sad face.

"You have to believe that everything is fine" Ervan said

But he could see if Erika was seen sighing heavily.

"So, I want to think like that. But the pain and fear are still very much felt today" replied Erika. Even without Ervan knowing if Erika's eyes are glassy.

Because for whatever reason, he was really traumatized by the operating room. To be injected he is still always grim, especially to be dissected. The pain after the surgery, and the frightening facial features of all the doctors who had the heart to take his kidneys were still clearly reflected in Erika's memory.

"Hey... Why are you crying?" asked Ervan who was astonished to see Erika's reaction like this. Even Erika's hands trembled slightly and squeezed each other.

What happened to Erika?

Why is his reaction like this?

Every time he talked about surgery, he must have been like this. Fear is uncertain, but all has not happened.

Erika wiped her tears quickly.

"I. I'm afraid of Van" said Erika. Even his voice sounded trembling.

"Erika... Why are you so weak like this?. It's okay what. Everything must be fine" said Ervan.

But Erika shook her head quickly, as her hands rubbed back tears that did not want to stop.

"You don't understand. I've been trying to be strong. But still, the pain was still vividly remembered in my head. The pain when they took my kidneys by force." said Erika with sobs.

Ervan immediately stared at hearing that.

"The blood, the knife, the face of the doctor's face, all scared me. I'm afraid Van. It hurts. It hurts so much" Erika said again

Ervan looked at Erika with sadness.

Oh Allah...

was Erika traumatized by the operation? The operation he didn't really want?

"Hey.. look at me" Ervan asked as she rubbed Erika's shoulder which shook with a cry.

Erika shook her head and even cupped her face. Crying out loud there.

"Erika.." call Ervan again. I wanted to hug, but not muhrim. Oh Allah... Ervan what should.??

However Erika shook her head and immediately looked at Ervan's face.

"I'm sincere Van. It's just that pain and fear haunts my mind every night" Erika replied.

Ervan smiled, she directly reached into the pocket of her shirt and pulled out something from inside there.

A tasbih...

"Take it" Ervan said, handing the bagbih to Erika.

Erika still held back her cries and looked at the prayer beads in surprise.

"This is so that your heart remains calm. Remember God, and ask Him for protection at all times. Call her name wherever you are. God willing, it can help a little to reduce your fear" said Ervan while putting the prayer beads in Erika's hands.

Erika looked at the prayer beads in her hand with a sad look. And looked back at Ervan who was smiling so shady. As if to calm his heart.

"If I don't exist later, you'll forgive me any mistakes I've ever made, won't you, Van?" ask Erika

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Ervan's heart seemed pounded to hear Erika's words.

He immediately looked at Erika's sad face fixedly.

"Why talk like that?" ervan asked, not liking it.

But Erika just shook her head and bowed to play the prayer beads that were already in her hands. The second tasbih Ervan.

"You need to heal. You can't give up. Death is in the hands of God, but we, as his servants, are also obliged to pray and strive" Ervan said.

Erika was silent, wiping away the tears that had been flowing ever since.

"Erika" called Ervan again as Erika was only speechless.

"Erika look at me" Ervan's pinta who immediately knelt before Erika. It made the girl immediately gasp in shock. Especially when Ervan looked at him closely.

"Ervan" said Erika.

"Erika. I'm sorry for always talking rudely to you first. Forgive me for making your love torment your own heart. But really, this time, I'm pulling back my word to hate you" Ervan said.

Erika looked at Ervan in confusion.

"I beg you, fight to heal" Ervan asked, with all her heart. Even he looked at Erika's pale face so deeply.

"Fight to stay alive" Ervan said.

Erika's tears fell back.

"I promise.When you recover, if God wills us to be together, I will propose to you"

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Erika was immediately flabbergasted hearing that. Even he immediately shook his head and smiled painfully at Ervan's words

"Ervan. Please don't make me wish for Van" said Erika, but it sounded so weak and helpless. Ervan's words really make it seem like he wants to fly so high, but when it falls, it must feel so sick.

"I'm serious Erika. Since then, and until now. My destiny is you. We are always met in every situation. If you used to chase me the wrong way, then let me now come to you the right way." Ervan replied so seriously.

"German"

Erika came back crying hearing that. Crying happily hearing Ervan's words.

Really this?

Is his love really reciprocated?

This isn't a dream, is it???

Why it feels so beautiful..

Oh Allah...

"Promise to be healed. I'll wait for you to be healthy again. Please don't let down my sacrifice and my feelings for Erika" Ervan asked.

Erika immediately nodded slowly and smiled haru, even though the tears she could no longer bear.

"Don't cry anymore, don't be afraid anymore. You are not alone, I am with you now" Ervan said

Erika nodded back

"Please promise to heal" Ervan asked.

"Thank you Van.. thank you" said Erika, but it sounded just like a whisper.

But Ervan immediately frowned, when he saw Erika who arrived suddenly grimaced and clasped her gift prayer beads firmly.

"Erika... What's wrong?" asked Ervan who was starting to panic.

Erika was silent, however, she glanced at Ervan at a glance, and a few seconds later she instantly drooped and became unconscious again.

"Astaghfirullah Erika..." Ervan immediately held Erika's body and leaned her into a wheelchair. Erika's body was weak, even her face was pale and moistened by tears. Makes Ervan sad and so sliced at Erika's pain.

Don't know since when, but since he decided to reconcile. Ervan's heart continues to sympathize with Erika's fate. Over time, that sympathy turned into a hope that Erika could be healed. Can be back healthy and continue to be near him.

It's very hypocritical...

Yes Ervan admit it. He used to be so upset with Erika that he always interrupted his relationship with Maira.

Even when Maira is missing for a month due to marrying Danar's doctor, Erika is always there for Ervan. Not always there but forced to exist.

Ervan was upset and very upset.

Even the derision word for this girl on the night of the cancellation of their engagement still Ervan remembered vividly.

If he remembers that, he is sorry. Deeply sorry.

Because it is true the saying goes. Don't hate something too much, because it could be that hatred will backfire on you.

And now proven, her hatred for Erika instead turned into a fear of loss.

God is heart-wrenching.

Erika...

He really hopes that this girl will be able to recover and be healthy again.

And finally Ervan brought Erika into his room again. Erika was really unconscious, because indeed her body these past few days had been very weak. Even Danar's doctor didn't leave Erika for too long. If it's night, it's her assistant who takes care of Erika. Afraid that his circumstances would drop like this.

"How's doctor?" ervan asked when Danar's doctor had finished examining Erika and injected her with something assisted by her assistant.

"Tomorrow morning once the schedule of the operation is advanced Van. I fear Erika will get weaker. His endurance is getting weaker, even he can not be conscious anymore now" said doctor Danar

Ervan immediately stared at hearing that. Especially when the assistant doctor Danar who paired the breathing apparatus on Erika.

Oh Allah...

Hopefully Erika can survive. It was enough pain that he had been suffering all this time.