
Ervan sat pensively on her prayer mat. He had just finished performing his isya prayer service. Long enough, because Ervan taught and also did miser first. It felt like there was something different, his heart was much calmer and no longer felt uneasy and troubled with all the life problems he had faced.
Do not know where he can get this guidance, but the fact is, when seeing Maira with doctor Danar, Ervan really wants to change for the better.
Yes, he realized, all this time he's been very far from his God. Even Ervan has forgotten the most important worship that is his duty. So ashamed of himself, God deserved to make his life chaotic like this, if in fact, he had neglected what he should have been obligated.
It has been a few weeks since Ervan began to study religion again. He already had his own religious teacher. Even now, Ervan is already fluent in teaching, because indeed the basis of religious knowledge is already there.
Ervan just needs to dig deep again.
Even though it is still difficult to change everything. But at the very least, the desire to change was already ingrained in his heart.
Especially now that he had someone who became the motto of his life.
Doctor Danar.
Strange, he admired that figure. The figure that became his role model. The figure that makes him get guidance to be even better.
Maira's...
The girl was so lucky to have a husband like Doctor Danar.
And Ervan, he's already given up the girl he loves for Doctor Danar.
There was no more pain she felt. Everything's fine already.
Repair yourself to get the best.
Ervan rubbed her face slowly. But somehow arrived his eyes were even looked at the painting displayed neatly on the wall of his room.
Painting of withered flowers....
A painting that doesn't know why it stole Ervan's attention when he first saw it.
Such a painting depicts a deep meaning. Don't know who the painter is, but Ervan loves this painting.
He moved from above his prayer mat. Sajadah who has been visited many times. But when turning around, Ervan was surprised when he saw his mother who was standing on the doorstep and smiling looking at him.
"Mama... Why is it there?" asked Ervan while releasing the peci and her scabbard.
Mama Ervan smiled and went into the room of the only child.
"Mama's so happy to see you now Van. You even make mama touched by your change" said mama with glassy eyes.
Ervan immediately smiled faintly hearing that. He sat himself on the bed, right next to his mother.
"Just pray that Ervan can Istiqomah yes ma. Sometimes it still feels hard to do everything" said Ervan.
Mama rubbed Ervan's shoulder gently.
"Mama's prayers are always for you, son. Hopefully you can always be like this and can get the best soul mate" replied Mama.
Ervan smiled and nodded, but her eyes turned towards the painting.
"Ma. Mama used to really dislike Maira. But Maira's reality is getting people as good as Danar's doctor. And if it's Ervan, will mama accept her?" asked Ervan, who now turned her head and looked at her mama closely.
"You still can't forget Maira?" ask mama
Ervan looks to breathe. He shook his head slowly and looked back at the painting in front of him.
"Ervan has let go of her ma. He is already happy with the right person, who can make him change for the better" Ervan replied.
And now the mother who looked ahead with a long enough breath.
"Mama knew mama was wrong for insulting Maira and always being rude to her first. But you know if mom just wants the best for you son. You and Maira are always adding to sins. You often go out at night even until the morning spent time at the club', often lying, and often skipping college" said mama
Ervan immediately smiled faintly hearing that. Yeah, he and Maira were indeed that badass first.
Ervan was silent, right too. What would they be if they were together?
"Maira definitely won't be able to change for the better now. He wouldn't be able to do this without Danar's doctor" Mama said
Ervan nodded slowly.
"And you, you don't necessarily get the guidance to reach this point if you don't part with Maira" said Mama again.
Ervan grunted a smile and nodded.
"Mama's right. I don't know what happens if Ervan is still with Maira. A soul mate already has someone set up. Maira gets someone who can guide her into what she is now. Because by being with Ervan, he definitely will not be able to be like that" said Ervan.
"Mama hopes you also get the best mate also son" hope mama.
"What if it doesn't?" ask Ervan anyway.
Mama immediately stunned looking at Ervan.
"Doctor Danar who's been like that just got Maira who doesn't know what. Especially Ervan like this ma" said Ervan.
Mom smiled and breathed deeply.
"Mama no longer wants to match you or choose you a mate. Mama has resigned. Seeing the doctors Danar and Maira, mama so know, if a mate, it has been determined by God "mama replied.
Ervan smiled at her mother. She gently hugged my mom's shoulder.
"Whoever Ervan's soul mate will be, Ervan just wishes he could love mom and dad. Moral problems and adab, hopefully Ervan can be like a Danar doctor who can guide Ervan's wife later" said Ervan.
Mama nodded immediately. He was so proud of this boy. The boy who used to be so naughty and likes to rebel, now turns out to have started growing up.
"Mama will no longer force my son. Mama just pray that you get the best soul mate who can accept you as sincerely as her heart" hope mama.
"Aamiin. I hope that. Mama's prayer must be granted by God" answered Ervan.
Mama smiled and nodded, she immediately hugged Ervan gently.
Really, it was proud that he saw Ervan now. After everything that happened, it turned out to be a lesson to change them for the better.
All because of Maira and also doctor Danar.
"Since when do you like paintings, son?" ask mama
Ervan looked back at the painting.
"No idea, the painting's good. So Ervan bought it" Ervan replied.
"When only flowers wither, where is it good?" ask Mama again who immediately approached the painting.
"So ma, Ervan doesn't know either. But once you see, Ervan is already in love" Ervan replied with a small laugh. Makes my mom laugh too.
He looked at the small writing in the bottom right corner of the painting.
It looks like the name of the painter.
But it doesn't say the name. Just the initials and the date the painting was made.
"It's official, E.art" mama muttered.
Ervan nodded and also came closer to her mama
"Obviously not Ervan ma" Ervan said
"Yes, because you can only doodle books." said the mother. Ervan made me laugh.