Destiny Choice

Nico and his Secret

"What's your name?" ask the girl to me.

I looked at him who was beside me.

She's so beautiful. My mind's blown.

"My name is Nicholas Louis, your name is?" askaku.

"My name is Michelle Berlyn" she replied with a beautiful smile.

At that time I really did not understand, how could an angel be here?

Since my first meeting with him at Junior High, we became friends.

The long I was friends with him, I began to know all his qualities. Either its very spoiled, annoying, jolly, and more.

However, if he is with her. I always thought of a girl who had been in my past. I don't know how things are right now, because we've lost communication a long time ago.

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Cup

I was instantly silent. The girl in front of me smiled happily. Wait, did I just lose my first kiss?

"What's wrong with your face?" ask the girl who just kissed me, Michelle.

"Why did you do it?" I still feel shocked.

"Can't it? Is that your first kiss?" goda.

Geez, this girl is really provoking my emotions. Was this something ordinary for him?

"Yes this is my first kiss, and you took it for granted" I replied.

"Oh, that's just a normal thing. We can also do it often." he said which made me frown.

I don't really understand Michelle's mind. But, I also do not understand my thoughts that even want to continue to do the kiss.

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"Nic, take this to Om Andre's house." tell me.

I just nodded my head and immediately left on my bike.

In my mind, am I going to meet him?

But does he still remember me? I guess not.

Ting tong's.. Ting tong's..

"Who are you looking for?" ask the girl who opened the door.

At first I was surprised because the one who opened the door was him.

"It's Andre's house, right?" I try to focus on my work.

"Eh, yes."

"This is the bread dish" I said as I handed over the bread crackle I had brought.

"Eh? this much?" tanyanya could not believe it.

"Yes. Yes, I'm gone first." I said.

"Eh? I don't love the money yet."

"Udah is paid."

"Oos.. Yes, thank you."

I immediately left on my motorbike away from his house. I miss him so much, but why can't I see his old self? Where is the little girl who always awaits me?

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August 4th, 2013

I was watching TV at the time, and my father came and told me that he was taking me to dinner with the Om Andre family.

"Prepare yourself, my handsome son." said the father before leaving.

I became nervous, how could I face that girl? Am I able to hold my heart pounding nearby?

Finally that night my father and I went to a restaurant that had been ordered by Om Andre. I was nervous and decided to go to the toilet first. I'm trying to set my heart.

Then, I went to see my father who was sitting with Om Andre and his daughter.

My father told me to immediately sit down next to Om Andre's daughter. I don't talk too much, because I'm trying to set my heart rate so that it won't be heard by this girl next to me.

Dinner was over, and Om Andre instead told me to take his daughter for a walk together.

He started the conversation first, but I responded rather coldly. Ii'm sorry.

Because I felt the night getting colder, I finally invited him to go back in to see our father.

Om Andre decided to go home, after hearing that his daughter was tired. That night I was a little sad, because I realized that he didn't remember me.

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20 May 2014

Drrt.. Drrt...

"Hello?" my broom.

"Hello, Nic. It's Om Andre." said the voice on the phone.

"Oh yeah, Om. Why call me?" I ask who does not understand.

"Om gonna tell you to take Nana to school. You can, right?"

I was confused as to what to answer, but there was no way I would refuse a request from Om Andre. I finally agreed.

The next day, I started to pick Nana up. Although, just like this. But I am glad to be back with him.

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The longer, the feelings I had once accumulated started to return again. I love him back, even though I realize that he already has feelings for others.

Is there a little room for me to enter?

Before I went far away from her, I finally decided to express my feelings to her. I know that he can't repay this feeling. But I was just thinking to be honest. Than I regretted, for never telling her about my feelings.

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Drrt.. Drrt....

Why did Mom suddenly call me?

"Hello, Nic." greet Mama first.

"Hmm.." I'm just replying with deheman.

In my heart I'm glad he called me, which means he still remembers me.

"Mama kangen." said the voice on the phone.

I miss too. Answer in my heart.

"Emmm... When do you want to go to Mom's house? Don't you want to see your sister?"

Instantly I realized that now my position had been replaced by someone.

"I have a lot to do." I replied.

"Yes yes. My mother's son must be very busy working. Mama do'ain hope your work is always done yes." Mama's prayer for a son like me.

I turned off the phone. I can't stand this sadness of mine. I miss Mama so much, I miss Mama who was always by my side, Mama who only paid attention to me and Dad only.

Why the hell, Mama had to leave Dad and marry another man? Even to the point of giving me a sister, which I didn't want at all.

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"What?! You're trying to match me up with Nana?!" I shouted, surprised by his statement.

Dad looked at me confused.

"Didn't you ever say you wanted to marry Nana as a kid" said the father casually.

"That's just my saying as a kid, yeah. Why are you taking him seriously?!" reply me who is still upset.

"You like it, don't you? Then what's wrong, if you marry her?"

"Dad knows?" I just can't believe it.

"of course. You can't fool your father." he replied with a cynical smile.

Right, there's no way he doesn't know me that well. But, it's not my feelings that I'm thinking about. However, it was Nana's feelings that I was thinking about. Does he want to marry me?

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November 28th, 2017

I went back to the hospital to accompany Nana. I heard from Om Andre that Nana was awake. Does he remember what I said at the time?

"Morning, Na." I'm the one who just came in.

"Eh, emm.. morning."

"Where are you? Did you go out?" ask pleasantries.

"Yes. I can go home tomorrow, he said."

"Ooo.. emm. I brought you some fruit."

"Thank you, Nic."

I'm glad he's healthy again. Can't this girl be my soul mate?

"Emm... How is your job?" tanyakanya.

"Well - all right. Your college?"

"Yes, a lot of work."

"You're graduating soon."

"Yes. But, still confused want to apply for work where later."

We are silent again.

"Emmm.. Na, you still want to tell me the time before I move?" tanyakanya.

"Which one did you say?"

Has he forgotten? My inner.

"Emm. not so. You must have forgotten."

"Tomorrow you don't have to come here anymore" he said, which made me a little sad.

"Why?" many confused.

"I'm doing better."

"I like you. You remember those words, don't you?" my many.

"Nic, don't ask me for more. I just think of you as my friend."

"We're gonna get married and we're gonna get married, Na."

"I can't. You're not the one I love, Nic."

"Love comes in habituation, Na."

"And that love can't be forced, Nic" he said in a snapping tone.

I don't know what suddenly came and got into me. Until I kissed her forcibly.

Plaque...

He slapped my cheek.

"That's disgusting, Nic." she said, rubbing her lips with the back of her hand.

I went out and left him. I'm sad because I'm so unwanted by you.