Destiny Choice

Day With Steven

March 7th, 2019

"This is the cure" I said as I gave Steven the medicine.

"I don't want to drink it." Steven replied weakly.

"Stev, come on." persuade me.

He looked at me with a sad look. Finally, he took the medicine and immediately drank it.

"Rest." I said.

"Stay here." asked Steven weakly.

"All right."

I lay down beside him.

"Bri, do you remember where our first kiss started?"

"Of course I still remember." I replied with a smile looking at him.

"Do you want to come back with me?" ask Steven.

"Yes. Of course I want to."

She smiled happily at me.

"Tomorrow after coming home from the hospital, we'll go there." pinta Steven.

"Yes, Stev."

Steven hugged me tight. He also fell asleep in his arms.

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March 8th, 2019

"I don't want chemo anymore" said Steven sadly after hearing the doctor's words.

"Stev." call me slow.

"The first one was sick, let alone the second one as the doctor said. I'm tired, Bri." said Steven sadly.

"Stev, it hurts just for a minute."

"You don't feel it. I'd better give up anyway, even if it's healing, it's a small chance for me."

I feel sad to hear it. I know it's very difficult for him. But what else to do?

"Stev, don't talk like that" I sobbed.

"Bri, don't cry."

Steven held me in his arms, he stroked my hair slowly.

"I'm sorry for what I said" Steven said.

Flashback....

"Dok, can Steven recover with this chemo?" my many.

"The possibilities are very small. Because the cancer cells have spread very quickly. This chemo is done just to slow it down" replied the doctor.

So, no hope anymore, huh? Am I ready to accept everything now?

Flashback....

"Stev, are we going to the place we talked about yesterday?" I asked Steven who was still holding me.

He took off his arms and looked at me.

"So, let's get there right away." he asked with a smile.

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About 30 minutes, we got to that place. The beginning of our first kiss.

"It's still the same, I'm the only one who's different" Steven said.

"You stay the same. Even my feelings for you remain the same as before."

"Thank you, Bri. You've accepted me for who I am."

I just returned with a smile. Then, Steven shook his head against my shoulder and closed his eyes.

"You tired?" my many.

"No."

"Sleep for a minute."

"Yes." Yeah."

I think Steven's asleep.

If, Steven goes later. Will I be able to accept it? These words are always on my mind.

"Bri." call Steven who's still closing his eyes.

"What's up, Stev?"

"I'm sorry I won't marry you."

"I don't want you to be a widow a second time" she said.

I try to stay calm hearing it.

"Bri, why are you quiet?"

"Emmm... Gapapa."

"Bri, I'm going to do this second chemo. As you would."

"If you don't want to, you don't have to."

"I want to."

Tests... Tests...

The tears that I had sustained, finally came down as well. I smothered my mouth so as not to make a sound.

"I love you, Brianna Maurell. And it always will be."

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April 1st, 2019

"Let's eat first, Stev."

"I don't want to. I just want to sleep."

It has been a few days since the second chemo did, he became no appetite. Steven always complained that his head hurt. I am also very confused about handling it.

"Stev, please eat first. You'll get sick if you keep doing this."

Steven who had resigned, finally woke up from his sleep.

He started eating his food.

"Good morning." said the new father.

"Dad here again, how's dad doing?" my many.

"Thank you, yeah."

Dad went to Steven who was eating.

"Eat a lot, Stev." said the father.

"Yes, um."

Since there was a father accompanying Steven, I decided to go clean the house.

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"Dad go home first yes, you take good care of Steven" said father.

"Yes, yeah. Thanks for coming here."

"Na, I'm sorry if I asked you to break up with him."

Do you still remember it? I think Dad forgot about it.

"Whoa, yeah."

Dad hugged me. She stroked my hair slowly.

"Make her happy, Na." whispered quietly.

Dad let go of his embrace. And leave immediately.

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5 June 2019

I looked at Steven who was lying weakly on the hospital bed. He just finished his third chemo.

"Bri." call him a whim.

"What's up, Stev? You need anything?" my many.

"Please get some water."

I immediately poured water into the glass for her.

"This." I said as I gave it.

He got up from his bed slowly with my help.

Then he drank the water until it ran out.

"Is there anything you need again?" my many.

He just shook his head slowly. And lay back in his bed.

"Your head still hurts?" my many.

"Yes" he replied slowly.

"Do I need to call a doctor?"

"No. I just need a break."

I'm back in silence.

"Bri, if you're tired of waiting for me. You can just go home." Steven said.

"No. I'll stay here with you."

"Thank you, Bri."

Then he fell asleep again in his sleep.

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12 June 2019

"Are you sure you're going to Grandma's? Isn't the side effect of the chemo still felt?" manyworry.

"No. The effect is gone" he said with a smile.

Feelings, you still feel them, right? Will you be able to keep him from me?

After you have finished putting the suitcase in the trunk of the car. I immediately helped Steven to get into the car.

"Is he ready?" my many.

"Yes." Yeah."

I drove the car straight away. During the trip Steven just stared blankly outwards.

I don't know why, I had a bad feeling today.

After about 2 hours, we arrived at my grandmother's house.

"I'll bring the suitcase, you go in first" I told Steven.

Steven followed my words. He went straight into his grandmother's house. A house he may have missed so much.

"It's been a long time" he said slowly, but I can still hear.

Finished carrying all the suitcases into the house. I sat down on the couch to rest my body.

"Are you tired?" ask Steven.

"No. Are you laper?"

"Yet. I want to go to the backyard first, you are here." he said.

I just nodded my head.

I'm watching every place in this house.

It's still the same as before. My inner.

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"Bri." call Steven while shaking my body slowly.

I who was still in the dream, immediately realized. The first thing I saw was the clock, and it's still 11 p.m.

Why did Steven wake me up?

"What's up, Stev? Is your head hurting again?" my many.

"No, I just want to take you to the tree house."

"Now?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"It's a malem, Stev. Mending tomorrow morning." said I was still sleepy.

"Come on, Bri."

I who did not want to make him sad, finally agreed to his invitation.

I immediately took the jacket and came out following Steven.

"Tonight is going to be a beautiful night" he said, looking at me with a look I couldn't understand.

In my heart, I felt that something was wrong later. Please not now. I'm not ready to let go.