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19.2 [Lyra] Doubt

If you ask me what makes me feel good right now, the answer is Bryan. Aye! Keliatan bucin really. But that's the reality.

I feel very happy because I can finally make up with Brother Bryan. Indeed yes, jealousy makes the problem even more complicated and jealous Brother Bryan is very troublesome.

But actually, Bryan does not need to be jealous, right? Because he's nobody to me, he's just someone who happens to stop by in my life.

Come to think of it, it's sad my romance story. But, you see, from the beginning my goal was not to get close to Kak Bryan but just to get to know him. If it will involve feelings, let it flow by itself.

"Lo still thinks of Bryan? Not semalem lo call ya same him."

Rhea suddenly asked a question as if she knew what I was thinking.

"Yes, call semalem. That's why I'm thinking."

"Any lo, you should be fine."

"Gue seneng, really good. But I'm confused."

"By the obvious dong, I'm so confused follow."

"However, I thought first how to say it. I'm still surprised about it."

I put words in my mind to convey them to Rhea, so that the child understands and can provide solutions. Because I really need that right now.

"Semalem Kak Bryan said, if I want to see his parents. How should I? I'm so excited, Rhe. I'm afraid I won't be accepted because I'm still a kid."

"Well! Seriously lo? Does sister Eza know?"

"Not yet, how dare I tell Brother Eza. He knows I'm the same Bryan's brother there's nothing to do with."

"Continue saying Kak Bryan ngajakin you to meet his family. I'm like tomorrow's proposal keep getting married."

Hearing Rhea's words, I thought again. Why did Bryan invite me to meet his family. The two of us have no real relationship.

"Ah, I don't know. Look tomorrow, I'm dizzy."

I ended up forgetting the chat with Bryan last night and tried to divert the conversation by going back to my original goal of meeting Rhea.

Yes, I met Rhea to collect stories about past events. About him and Kara, ah and also Kak Eza. I was curious to interrogate Rhea about her and Sister Eza. Because I think they're getting closer. Especially after Rhea's meeting with Kara.

"Udah, forget about Brother Bryan. Don't bother Eza. Let me tell you myself I want to go."

"Who would also want to be chepu, meet Brother lo aja males."

"Males, males but yesterday I was left alone at home. The two paths do not take."

I see Rhea was just silent, not intending to refute me at all. Not usually no, it seems like there is something between Rhea and Eza and I should know that.

I haven't had time to meet Rhea, suddenly Zayn came to disturb. Why did this boy meet us. We are not with May at this time.

"Much a tangle, who's fighting the same? That bruised cheek is like that."

"Now, it was Kara's coconut milk. He could have shot Mei when it was clear May was mine."

Honestly, I'm surprised. Since when did May and Zayn get in touch. I know they are close because of one SME Band and often work in the same project. But to be honest, I didn't expect Mei to finally accept Zayn to be her boyfriend.

"Oh, it's actually my own best friend. I thought Zayn was joking yesterday."

I can still hear Rhea muttering, after Zayn told me about her bruises and about Kara expressing her feelings for Mei.

But what really makes me more surprised is Kara's unexpected behavior. She expresses her feelings to Mei, who is clearly dating Zayn. And also, didn't Rhea meet Kara last week to express her feelings all along. So this is the reason Rhea cried until she had to take a walk by Sister Eza.

I nodded after finding the right reason for the things that happened to my two best friends. Just by hearing Zayn's story and seeing Rhea's reaction, I could immediately deduce for myself, it was great.

"No, just thinking about it."

"And I'm here anyway want nanyain Mei, why even so confide in both of you anyway."

"Where do I know, anyway, from earlier we did not meet Meiuh." Sahut Rhea doesn't seem to care.

"Judah, I'm behind the faculty rather than getting the law of Mr. Eza again."

Zayn got up from his seat and walked out of the cafeteria leaving us both.

"You're not going home? I've been picked up by Bryan."

I rushed to clean my bag and intended to leave, because Bryan had come to pick up and wait in the parking area.

"First there, go to the bus. It's easy to come home."

As soon as Rhea was gone, I immediately ran to the parking area to see Bryan immediately.

"Why run, Ra? The road will also reach."

I was greeted with a question Kak Bryan who was clearly the employee. But I still answer the stale basic questions he throws.

"Let's go see Bryan. After all, Brother was already from earlier."

I hurried to wear a seatbelt and sat down sweetly beside Brother Bryan.

Today we did not stop by anywhere, because it turns out that Brother Bryan has a job that must be completed. But it's okay, because today I'm satisfied to meet him.

After all, I need to think about meeting Kak Bryan's parents and also to ask for permission with Kak Eza.

"You're thinking about semalem, aren't you? If you mind, I'll cancel."

As if I could read my mind, Brother Bryan intended to cancel the meeting.

If I could I really want the meeting to be canceled, but that's right. Bryan's brother had planned this long ago and had to be canceled just because I wasn't ready. What the fuck.

I shook my head slowly, rejecting Brother Bryan's offer. Let the matter of how will be my own business. Brother Bryan doesn't need to know about it, the most important thing is that I came as he requested last night.

"You see, see you the day after tomorrow, Lyra. Later about Eza let me just talk."

"No need, brother. Let me give my permission to Sister Eza."

Again, I refused Bryan's offer. Although it will actually be very profitable if Brother Bryan who requested permission on Kak Eza.

But, in order to avoid double interrogation, I better ask permission and explain the strange relationship between me and Bryan.

"Okey, if so I say goodbye. Sorry I couldn't stop by."

If I can be selfish, I actually want Brother Bryan to stay here. I still want to be alone with him. I am still not satisfied to see him. I want to spoil him. But all that is just my hope, because I cannot voice all that.

Inevitably, I still have to understand the busyness of Bryan and let him focus on his work that is very much. Actually, I have no rights about his life.

"Haah, it's wrong to have an unclear relationship like this. Just be careful if the edges even make sick."

I ended up grumbling as soon as I entered the house, voicing everything that had been a burden for me. The real burden is because of me.

If only I hadn't been curious, I wouldn't be feeling this strange feeling right now.