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18.1 [Rhea] Conflict

As I promised Lyra this morning. This afternoon happened to be May and Zayn invited me and Lyra to lunch together. A little strange indeed, suddenly Zayn treat us. He said, because he was happy.

"Why look at me. I promise you Rhea's story, not mine."

As soon as Aga spoke, their gazes turned to me. Really yes they are, very fast if the problem is like this.

"I originally chatted Aga, but until the next day it was not baled down. I tell the same story Kak Eza, continued Kak Eza give advice to meet directly aja. I was just a-yes doang. Keep the malemnya still in mind, be the morning blind I gedor his room Kak Eza asked to be escorted to the house of Aga." My account describes the events the other day when I went with Sister Eza in the morning blind.

"So, you're visiting the house of the morning blind, Rhe?"

I nodded and refocused on my activities.

"It's good that you're visiting Kara's house, so the guest will be at the door. Try to meet someone else's house."

"Yes, too, thankfully."

I actually realized my speech in the music room a few days ago. To be honest with Aga.

I'm actually scared. Fear of rejection later, but if not disclosed now, when again. So with all the courage I had gathered, I contacted Aga and invited him to meet outside.

I invited him to meet at one of the coffeshops in the Braga area. To be honest, it is rather prone to choose a place that is quite far from home. But how else, that's the only place I could think of.

I arrived at the cafe with a classic feel that dominated the decor. With a glass of coffee that has begun to cool down, I wait for the arrival of Aga patiently. Fortunately, not long after that Aga was seen across the cafe.

For almost an hour after Aga arrived, I just sat quietly without any intention of opening the conversation. I feel very nervous now and want to run as far away from this place as possible now. I could have made the decision so soon to be honest with Aga. But I can't back off, can I? So let's finish it right now.

With the determination and courage that I have worked so hard to muster. I started the conversation after just being quiet.

"Dear, can I say something?"

The attention of the Aga completely turned to me, after all the streets outside that took over the attention of the Aga.

"What are you talking about, Rhe? I think it's important to talk outside like this."

I gulped slowly, to be honest the courage I had gathered since it felt like a yawn. Doubt came over me, making me even more nervous to speak.

"So, I really like you. I don't know since when, my liking is no longer for his best friend. I love you as a girl who likes her boyfriend."

I paused the expression of my heart, to see the response given by Aga and also to gather the courage to continue my words earlier.

"To be honest, I'm so scared to reveal it all now. Afraid that all of this will ruin our friendship. But I am determined, whatever will happen later after this, as if I have revealed what I feel for you. Even if you stay away, I will accept. Whatever your answer is, it's your business. I've only revealed what's been in my heart all this time."

Aga just kept quiet after I finished talking, it seems like he was still shocked because I just suddenly expressed my pent-up feelings.

It's possible that we could end up as a couple if our feelings reciprocate. Unfortunately it was only a hope, because the beauty of my feelings is not reciprocated maybe even rejected by Aga.

"Gue hope, you won't avoid me like yesterday. I'm sorry if I get stuck feeling the same way for me. But I thank you very much, because you love me as much as I do."

I insist on smiling, but I still feel sad. Although from the beginning my goal was just to express and not expect anything. But still, it was painful to be rejected like this.

"Sorry Rhe, I'm ahead. Sorry if I make you sick again. But, whatever my answer was, I keep your best friend and you can lean on me at any time." Aga said before completely leaving the coffeshop, leaving me alone.

I've been sitting still since Aga left a few minutes ago. I still have no intention of leaving this place. It still feels uncomfortable, I am confused by my own feelings now.

"Rhe, go home yuk. I'm anterin,"

I looked up after hearing a familiar voice in my ears. Ah, apparently Lyra came to pick me up.

Without warning I hugged Lyra and cried there. Sadness, disappointment and tightness raced out, making me cry even more sobbing.

"Sstt, let's go home with me. You can cry as much after this, until you are relieved. But for now the hope is crying and we go home. Eza's sister is waiting for you." Persuade Lyra because I still hold her tightly.

I nodded weakly in Lyra's arms and immediately wiped away the trace of tears on my face. So at least I'm not too pathetic.

We walked together out of the cafe to the car of Kak Eza who was waiting across the street. Ah, that's the car that's been parked since I started talking to Aga earlier. It turns out that Lyra and Eza deliberately followed me from the beginning.

Sister Eza brought me to her house, she intentionally did that at Lyra's request or rather my request. But I told him through Lyra.

The two brothers let me cry in Lyra's room. Yes, I cry for myself and my unrequited feelings. It's a little exaggerated maybe, just like that but crying it out as if I've lost something very valuable.

I lost my best friend because after this incident. I'm sure our relationship won't be the same anymore, there will be awkwardness between us. And it feels, Aga will be more distant and difficult to approach like before.

There was a knock on the door when I was daydreaming about the incident in the cafe. I feel sorry for expressing my feelings. Maybe it's better I keep this feeling tidy. But already, I have to accept whatever will happen after this.

"Still sad Rhe? Come on, I'm out for a snack. Lyra again calls Bryan because it's not good to bother."

I was a little jolted, not expecting that the one who came to the room turned out to be Brother Eza, not Lyra. Quickly I removed the trail of tears still on my cheeks and fixed my sitting position.

"Where's Brother?" After I can neutralize my feelings.

"Temenin I'm out, than you're dumb here." Said Brother Eza a little bit annoying, because he was too honest.

I nodded and immediately picked up the sling bag that I placed carelessly on Lyra's mattress.

"Come, Brother." I walked first to Eza's car.

Tonight, I ended up traveling alone with Sister Eza. As if this way I can forget a little about my sadness because it was rejected by Aga.