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10.3 [May] Confusion

After a week yesterday my activities were very solid, finally this week I can breathe a sigh of relief because I do not have to spend a lot of energy to practice singing. Fortunately, because of the busyness of yesterday, this week SME Band was temporarily closed. At least this week I can be free from Zayn.

This morning I went to college with Kara. The boy was already in front of the house as I prepared to leave. But strangely there is no Rhea, Kara only comes alone when usually they always come together.

"Here I am, I want to stop by the cafeteria. Rhea or Lyra must have been hanging out there."

I turned down Kara's offer to take me to the faculty loby. Because I intend to stop by the cafeteria.

Right I guess, there's Lyra and Rhea there. But wait, why did Rhea rush off instead? Is he reluctant to see me or is Rhea still angry about last night.

Lyra waved at me, with a definite step I approached her.

"Tumben so much you two together? May didn't get Zayn?"

I just sat down, immediately greeted by a question about Zayn. Huh, why the hell have I always been associated with Zayn since the Rumah Baca Project.

"It just so happens to be the same morning lecture schedule, so guys." Kara Sahut.

"Loh, Rhea also has a morning lecture schedule, not all with Rhea."

I just realized, every early week the three of us had the same schedule, the morning lecture.

"Rhea left first, so I picked up Mei." Again Kara first answered Lyra's question.

I don't know why, I feel like there's something she's hiding from us. About him and Rhea. It feels a little strange, when Kara is not with Rhea.

"Gue look around, your bad habits are getting worse, aren't they?"

"Huh? Whaan? I was just being diem." Denying Lyra looks confused because of Kara's speech just now.

"Drink soda early in the morning. Not yet kapok lo, stomach ache because of most soda."

"Yes, it's hard to say. What if it hurts like that time?" Added a little bit of nagging.

"Udah, early in the morning it was fierce. I'm normal, so don't worry." Sahut Lyra tried to convince me.

"Whatever, if it hurts don't bother me."

I threatened Lyra, hoping that she would reduce her habit of drinking soda in the morning. But it seems futile, since Lyra is Lyra, prohibition is an order for her.

"Gue complained to Rhea. Yes, I want class. Bye, May."

After Lyra left, I rushed to class and ignored Kara who was still left in the cafeteria.

Lecture has been running for about half an hour, but my mind just wandered somewhere. Fortunately today was just a presentation of the assignment last week. So I don't lose much if I don't focus too much on college.

"Lo why, mute from earlier. Lo saw Miss Yuna from earlier." Whisper my next friend who noticed Miss Yuna's sharp gaze on us.

"I'm not focused, just not focused anymore. A little bored as well."

I whispered back to my friend's question as Miss Yuna refocused on the group presenting.

"May, can you explain about this?"

Suddenly Miss Yuna asked me a question while showing me a novel that fortunately I had reviewed before.

"Um. That is a novel about science fiction. The novel is very popular among teens because the story is interesting and the language is also easy to understand."

"Okay, thank you for your answer."

"You are welcome, Miss."

I stepped into the library, looking for the latest reading books to fill my free time.

Since the band's rehearsal was closed, I've met Zayn less and less. Never mind meeting, passing by never even though we are one campus and our faculty are also close together. I met Kara more often this week.

Like this time, I found Kara already sitting sweetly in the FIB canteen. It has become a habit of Kara when there is no class, she will go around the faculty to meet her friends.

"Here you are. I think your faculty also has a canteen and the food is no less delicious, but you even go to another faculty."

"And I'm at another faculty. I want to meet you anyway." Sahut Kara is indifferent.

"As much as you are,"

I sat in Kara's front seat and focused on the novel I just borrowed yesterday in the library.

"Gue's not here for you winain like gini, Mei." Said Kara protesting because I was busy with the novel and cared about her.

"I didn't tell you to come here." My heart doesn't care.

"Yes, it's my fault, the hobby of traveling around the faculty." Kara's words resigned.

I just gave a small nod, confirming Kara's remark.

I've been with Kara a lot lately. Though it's good that I was free from Zayn this week, it turns out I was stuck together with Kara.

I'd rather meet with Rhea or Lyra than be with Kara.

Speaking of Rhea, I haven't seen her in a week. Only sometimes I see Rhea who is busy with her activities. Though we are a faculty, but somehow I find it difficult to meet him.

"Ra, when was the last time you saw Rhea?" Askaqua. This past week we have been hard to meet.

"A few days ago it was like. That's just a damn shit. Why Mei?"

"I want to meet Rhea, we are a faculty but it is very difficult to meet. Every time I go to class, Rhea doesn't exist." My law explains why I asked Rhea.

"Ah, that's Rhea. I called ya." I waved my hands fervently when I saw Rhea walking with Zayn and Lyra.

"It's like this lambai-lambai stormy as it is?"

"And I returned Mei's hand, how the hell." Lyra Sahut.

"Rhea what? Last time we talked was like a week ago and it was over the phone."

I greeted Rhea and asked her how she was doing, because I had never met Rhea this week.

"Gue's good." Tukas Rhea brief.

"Lo what's the news, May?"

Zayn asked me, probably feeling sorry because Rhea had no intention of continuing the conversation with me.

"Well, we rarely meet after the band practice is closed." Sahutku enthusiastic.

"You guys keep talking, I'll talk first. Go to the library on assignment."

Rhea suddenly said goodbye in the middle of our conversation. Indeed the only chatter is me, Zayn, Lyra who occasionally chimed in. Rhea has been quiet since.

He would only speak if anyone asked, even that was only a short answer. The rest will just be quiet.

Honestly, during my time with Rhea I felt a little guilty and wanted to apologize. But my intention was always to be choked up whenever I remembered Rhea who had never looked at me in the least.

Rhea was mad at me, I knew that. Because his attitude has shown. But, angry because of what? What was my fault was that Rhea was so angry like that.

This is the PR for me, the reason Rhea got angry and silenced me. So that I can mend my relationship with Rhea.

"Is Rhea angry that I feel like I've taken her best friend, taken Kara? But that reason is too childish."

In my mind, I thought of a variety of reasons that made sense. But somehow, I couldn't find the most appropriate reason. I think all the reasons I had in mind were too strange.